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Disclaimer: All characters mentioned from CSI belong to Anthony Zuiker and associates. Melissa Etheridge owns the song.

Don’t You Need

by Barnaby

I know you watch me. I can feel it but the thing is you don’t know that I know. I just know that if you knew I know then you’d stop and I don’t want that to happen. 
 
I had a dream late last night 
The water was running low
And my fields were on fire, burning my sky
My body was moving slow
And when I awoke I tasted the sweat of desire in my mouth
And I realized my heart had abducted my mind
And they were last seen headed south
Now I can't sleep I'm so wired
And I find myself screaming out
 
What she said. In the song. It’s true, I dream of you and me, even when I’m with Gil. And when I wake next to him I feel like screaming or something.
 
Don't you need, don't you want 
Can't you taste it when you're alone
Don't you cry, don't you feel
Sometimes I wonder if you are real
Don't you bleed 
Don't you need
 
Damn, why did this have to happen to me? Why couldn’t I be normal? Just like everybody else. Have normal relationships, one that doesn’t include sleeping with your boss because you can’t get to the one you really want. 
 
There's no quenching the thirst there's no relief 
For the hungry at heart
And as far as you're concerned I'm just a thief 
Entertaining in the dark
But it's you that holds the cards
Now that the joker is wild
 
And that is exactly what you think isn’t it Cath? That I’m just a thief. A thief that busted in here and took over Holly Gribbs spot on the team. Well guess what. I’m not, you are, you’re the thief. You stole my heart!
 
Don't you need, don't you want
Can't you taste it when you're alone
Don't you cry, don't you feel
Sometimes I wonder if you are real
Don't you bleed 
Don't you need
 
All of those times that you were sarcastic to me I didn’t care, I loved it. I loved every second of it because it showed your passion, your spirit. Those very two things are what drew me to you. 
 
Don't you want to lay it down 
And feel your skin against the ground
Don't you want to ride the storm 
And then sleep inside the calm
Don't you want to get that high
Don't you want to be satisfied
Well if you don't want it from me
Don't you need
 
Right now we’re sitting here in the break room and your watching me I know you are. All I want to do now is reach across the table and slap you and yell at you. Don’t you need me Catherine? Don’t you want me and if you do why the hell don’t you just say so? 
 
I had a dream late last night
The water was running low
And my fields were on fire burning my sky
How was I to know
That I burn every night in my dreams
And only morning can set me free
 

If you need me, surely I must need someone, and that someone must be someone that brings out my spirit my passion, the way I bring out yours. That person sure ain’t Grissom. God Catherine don’t you need?

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