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Isabelle: "Nick, please come over, I can't stop crying...please, I need someone right now. I'm going crazy !!"
 
Nick: "Ok honey, don't move, stay there, ok? I'll be over in 5 minutes, I promise."
 
Isabelle: "Thank you."
 
Nick hurries up and gets to Isabelle's house.
 
Nick: "Oh god, what's happening?"
 
Isabelle: "I don't know, I'm just missing Brian so much. I don't know what  to do anymore. Ever since he left me, I'm not myself anymore. I'm not happy,  I'm depressed. I'm desperate to get out of this. I'm so glad you came, I don't even want to know what I would have done to myself if you wouldn't have come."
 
Nick: "Isabelle, don't talk that way. I don't want you hurting yourself that way, ok?"
 
Isabelle: "Nick, I just don't think I can do it anymore. Brian was my world. We were going out for 5 years, doesn't that tell you anything? I've forgotten how to be myself. When I was with him, we became one, soul mates are always one, right? Well that's the way I felt about him. I can't live knowing he's somewhere out there, probably holding some other girl in his arms."
 
Nick: "Don't say that, I'm sure he misses you like crazy."
 
Isabelle: "Funny!"
 
Nick: "Please, don't tell me you think he's all happy right now. He was thinking long and hard about this, he thought it was for the best. I'm sure he's missing you and crying right now, he loved you to death, you were his soul mate too, you know. He made a decision, one that he probably regrets right now."
 
Isabelle: "Then why the hell did he decide to do that?"
 
Nick: "You know what? I have no clue. I can never tell what's up with him, but I do know that he still loves you, things just don't work out sometimes. Nothing in the world could always be perfect, you know that better than I do."
 
Isabelle: "I know but...I'm just so miserable ever since he left me. 5 years is a long time for two people. I'm taking it so hard. The break up was what? 2 weeks ago? I didn't sleep one minute of it all , that's how much I cry. I go to bed, knowing it's going to be another restless night where I'm gonna cry for hours and looking at pictures of us. It hurts so bad inside, and the pain is more than I can take."
 
Nick: "You'll be alright, I can assure you that."
 
Isabelle: "But until then, what do I do? Lie around all day crying my eyes out until I figure out some way to get over this? Go to bed knowing I'm not going to sleep one minute of it? Even if I do that, the pain won't go away, I might get over it someday but the pain will surely not go away. I know the way I'm feeling right now, and what I am feeling is what I'll be feeling for
the rest of my life. It's over for me, Brian was the only one for me, and I lost that. And because I lost him, I lost everything, because he was everything to me. Without him, I'm nothing, I'm worthless. There's no one out there for me but Brian, and since I don't have him, what the hell do you expect me to do?"
 
Nick: "Isabelle...listen to me. Listen to yourself, think of what you're saying, it's not making any sense..."
 
Isabelle: "Yes it is Nick. I'm nothing without Brian. Have you ever been so much in love with someone that it hurt inside even if you had them? You're not miserable, you're the happiest person alive, but it still hurts because you love that person so much that it takes up all the place there is inside of you?"
 
Nick: "Being in love is that, the pain of loving another. I love Mandy so much, and it hurts inside sometimes when I think so much about the love I have for her."
 
Isabelle: "Well she hasn't broken up with you, has she? I felt more than anyone could possibly feel, I felt the most for Brian, and I lost him, he broke it off. Mandy's a good person, she loves you deeply and you two are obviously gonna get married, so you won't understand the pain of losing the one you cherish the most, the one you're living for."
 
Nick: "Maybe I haven't felt the pain of losing Mandy, but you never know what will happen. I'm sorry you have to go through this, but you have to believe in yourself, you gotta have faith, you gotta believe that this pain will pass and you'll live again, you'll be yourself once again."
 
Isabelle: "I do believe that Nick, I do. I just wish I believed in myself, I just wish I knew that I could get myself through this...but I'm not strong enough, I know I'm not. No one knows what I would give to have that strength to get pass this. I'd give up my life for Brian to know how much I care about him."
 
Nick: "I don't wanna hear you say you'd give up your own life, 'cause you won't. You'll live, you'll love again, you'll be yourself one day, you'll be happy."
 
Isabelle: "Not any time soon that's for sure."
 
Nick: "It could be, depends on how much you believe you can get through this."
 
Isabelle: "But I don't think I can get through this, that's the scary part. I wanna  live again, I wanna love freely. But all at the same time, I just don't wanna let go of Brian, he's something precious to me, he's life to me, and if I let him go, I let go of life. I wanna love him, I wanna be with him."
 
Nick: "I know you do. Brian may have been life to you once, but that's over now, you gotta move on. I know it'll take some time to recover, 5 years is no joke, but just tell yourself that you'll be fine one day. Don't slop around all day, go out, meet people, hang out with friends, try your hardest not to think of him at night and sleep. You have to take charge of your life again, don't let it go down the drain."
 
Isabelle: "I don't wanna do that, but the pain is so much stronger than I am, it makes me do things I don't wanna do. I can't look twice at what I do, I do stuff without thinking. I'm afraid of being alone, I'm afraid of not being whole again. Brian helped me discover who I was, and now, I know myself but I lost the source. I can't go on without my baby, I can't go on without his love. To live, people need a heart, to me, I need Brian , Brian is like my heart. He left and he took all of my emotions and feelings along with him. Because every emotion and feeling I had and felt were all from him or about him, and now that he left, it's like my soul, my heart, everything inside of me left with him."
 
Nick: "Maybe, but with friends, family, and people who love you, you can regain those feelings and emotions. You just gotta work on that first, and then you see where things lead you. With your soul and your heart, you're alright to go on in life without someone holding you up. Brian isn't you, you're you, and you're the only one who knows how you can get through this.  No one can help you, it's something that people learn on their own. And I'm gonna wish you the best of luck with this adventure because it's nothing easy, probably the hardest thing you'll ever go through. But I know you can do it, because I believe in you and I have faith in you."
 
Isabelle: "Thank you so much Nick, you're the best friend ever, you always know what to say to make me feel better. I love you so much."
 
Nick: "I love you too sweetie. Are you at least feeling any better?"
 
Isabelle: "Yeah, thanx."
 
Nick: "No need to thank me, it's my job to make you feel better. Now I want you to go to bed and get some rest, ok ? Just try to sleep, ok?"
 
Isabelle: "I'll try, thank you so much for coming over, I would have gone insane if you weren't home."
 
Nick: "No problem, like I've said millions of times before, I'm here whenever you need to talk."
 
Isabelle: "I know. I'll call you later tonight if I'm up, ok?"
 
Nick: "Sure. I love you and take care of yourself. Bye."
 
Isabelle: "I love you too, Bye ."
 
'I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more every day
And I'm dying inside and nobody knows it
But me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside and nobody knows it
But me
 
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly but you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it
But me
 
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me
 
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me'
~ "Nobody Knows" by Kevin Sharp

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