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"Whatcha want, Darling?" the plump cafeteria lady sweetly inquires.

"Just coffee, but if you desire details, I would enjoy my boyfriend to recover and all my friends to quit arguing and...," Alexis replies.

"Uhh, I think I'll just charge ya for the coffee. What's your beau in here for?"

"Heart problems." Alexis replies matter-of-factly. By this time she is sitting with this stranger dumping her troubles.

"Were you in love?" asks the lady named Ethel.

"Well, I was sure at first. I mean it appeared perfect, but now I'm so confused. I feel like a burden. I really love him. But then this comes along. My health has decreased. I feel so frail and weak. My head's aching all the time. And he's famous too. So I have to deal with the press.... There's just so much pressure to undergo. I almost get to the point where I don't know if it's even worth it. Is life worth living without love?"

"Yes, I know, Sweetie, love is not the easiest thing in the world. But what I've heard, this relationship doesn't sound very secure. Maybe you're not in love like you think you are. I mean you're young. You can come across the one you truly love. Life is what you make of it."

"I may be over exaggerating. We have had good times. He makes me laugh and he's such a compassionate and benevolent person. It just happened all of a sudden when he got sick." Alexis said with a sigh.

Getting up Ethel said, "Don't hang on to the one you can live with. Hang on to the one you can live without. Whatever happens I know you will find your way. Just like you found Brian."

"Wait, How did you know his name was Brian....?" Alexis says as she turns around to find nobody in sight.

As Ethel's words ring in her ears, Alexis quickly heads for Brian's room. She opens the door just to be met with a lone figure lying in bed, helpless. The early morning light seeps into the room indicating the dawn is drawing near. As she sits next to his bedside, she soon realizes that this is the moment in which she has to determine the future of her life.

Taking his hand, she says, "Brian, these past hours have been really stressful. Why did you have to get sick? Why didn't you inform me about this? Why are you leaving me behind? I love you, I truly do, but can I live like this? Can anyone live like this? Do I even deserve you? Do I want to spend the rest of my life not knowing what else is out there? Why did you have to love me? Why did you have to care? How do you continue to smile with everything happening? Why do you have to be so perfect? Why is it that everything that I have always wanted in a man is what you are made of? I just can't put myself through this heartache! The pain is physically and emotionally killing me. If you could only reassure me!! I know I could make it!! Please......say you love me so that I will know that you care!! Brian...please.... say something, ANYTHING!!! I need to know if you love me."

~~~~~~~~~SILENCE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"I'm leaving. Just say the words and I'll will stay!" Alexis screams. In doing this A.J. awakes to hear everything that is being said.

~~~~~~~~~~SILENCE~~~~~~~~~~~

Alexis sprints out of the room, never actually believing that he would not say he loved her. Realization sets in as the turns the corner bumping into Dr. Read.

"O, Hi Alexis! How is everything going??" Dr. Read utters.

"Why me? Why did he do this? Why him??" Alexis screams with explicit terror.

"Everything is OK. I'm sure it will work out! The doctors are informing you about his complications. I sure he'll make it," Dr. Read says reassuringly.

"It's always about Brian!! Always!! NO one cares about how I feel! NO, the relationship is not gonna work out! It's over!!" Alexis cries

"Wait.. Relationship?? What are you talking about? I was talking about his surgery!! Of course, he doesn't have the best chance. I'm sure everything will be just fine!!!" Dr. Read states.

"Surgery ...When...why...??? No one told me?? HE HAS COMPLICATIONS?????" Alexis shrieks as she runs back down the hallway to his room.

Room 113 is empty. As she scrambles around looking everywhere she sprints out of the room. Grabbing A.J. by the shirt she yells, "Where the HELL is Brian??"

"They are taking him into surgery now! I thought you were leaving him??" A.J. says almost hopefully.

"Wait...Brian!" Alexis screams as her body can take no more emotional trauma. She faints.

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