Daisy
To my sweet baby Daisy...
The house is so much emptier today. You weren't there, snuggled up on the bath mat this morning as I brushed my teeth, or tapdancing around my feet as I stood in the kitchen, waiting for a treat. You couldn't lay beside me on the couch, looking up at me with those beautiful eyes. You have left me with such a big hole in my life and in my heart. I have more happy memories of you than of any other ferret because you were always there with me. You were the one to follow me everywhere I went, just like my shadow. You were the sensitive one, who could always sense what I was feeling. You were the happiest, sweetest ferret I have met in my whole life, and it seemed you had made it your mission in life to make everyone as happy. I don't think you ever found a person that you couldn't make smile. That's just what you did. You spread joy every place you went. Your soul was so perfect, so beautiful. I'm sorry I had to let you go. I'm so sorry, baby. I couldn't trap you back in that broken down body just so you could stay with me. I never wanted you to hurt a day in your life, and I'm so sorry for what you went through. I hope you can forgive me for the choices I made. You couldn't speak for yourself, and I had to do what I thought was best. I hope I did what was right for you. I just want you to be happy, and I hope that you are now, happier than I can imagine. You spent your whole life bringing everyone joy, especially me. I hope that now, you know that happiness, that joy, that love. I hope you never feel pain, and I hope you know how much you have done for me. I sit here now, crying because you have broken my heart, but if I had to go back... If I could walk into that pet store today and see you there, that perfect little baby, with the blackest feet I've ever seen, the sweet one, that tiny perfect baby you were... If I could go back knowing you'd leave me this way, breaking my heart only a month past your fourth birthday, knowing the pain I would feel but also knowing the joy and love you would bring me, I'd do it over in a second. No matter how painful it is now, I know I was the lucky one. I had you in my life. I couldn't have been more blessed than that. I hope you found happiness, and I hope you found your sister Honey. I knew you girls would never stay apart for long. It helps somehow, knowing that neither of you are alone. Wait for me, baby. I know this human condition is only temporary, and I can't wait to see you again. I love you, baby. I love you so much. Mommy
Ferrety4/Julie
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