I really feel that they may have saved my life....after losing Lisa, I thought that I was handling it very well. But I was not...it was only because it didn't seem real. It didn't really hit me until the second year that Lisa was really gone. I didn't even realize how depressed I was. I started feeling like I needed to go and be with Lisa and make sure that she was ok and happy. It felt so right....even though now I know my family here needs me more...it didn't seem like that then.
Then we got on the internet and I don't even have any idea how I ever got to the Shrine of Hope but I did. I read their message board and then I went into their chat rooms. I watched them do readings for about a month...I never talked to anyone except to say hello and goodbye. I don't think I really believed that mediums could reach people who had passed over. They would always say "If you would like to get on the list Private Message one of the room operators." I thought that when they did the private message that they probably asked a lot of questions about who you wanted to reach.
Then one night on the spur of the moment I decided to ask to be on the list. When I private messaged the room operator, all he asked me was who do you want to contact....I said my daughter. That was all. For all they knew I was a 25 year old mom wanting to reach my infant daughter, or a 70 year old mom wanting to reach my 40 year old daughter. ( I had not made this web site at that time). When it was my turn, Irene (the medium) said that she had a young girl in her early twenties, with long brown hair.
These are parts of the log of that first reading
<irene> I am sorry
<Betty> yes she was
<irene> something was wrong..she could not feel all the love around her
<irene> she does now
<Betty> I hope she knows now
<irene> she feels good now
<Betty> she's ok?
<irene> she is OK
<irene> she is better then OK
<Betty> I miss her
<irene> Betty did she take her life.. I am sorry.. seems she wanted this
<irene> does that make sense
<Betty> I don't know if it was deliberate but I wondered
<irene> ON some level she welcomed this
<irene> she wanted a clean slate
<irene> she is saying make sense
<irene> I love you mom but could not feel attatched to anything
<Betty> yes it does
<irene> I am sorry
<irene> I do love you
<Betty> I love her too
<irene> she is saying no more altered state of mind..
<irene> does that make sense
<irene> I can feel
<Betty> yes very much
<irene> OK
<Betty> is she around us
<irene> Betty she is saying I felt like I was floating inside myself mom
<irene> I just could not do it anymore
<irene> I am with you now and I am the person i am suppose to be
<Betty> Does she hear us when we talk to her?
<irene> I am strong and I am good
<irene> she is showing me a scene I will describe it to you OK
<Betty> ok
<irene> she is showing me 3 people..sitting at a table dining or
kitchen.. and talking
seems to be 2 females and a male (This is myself, my other daughter and my husband)
<irene> and the conversation is very strong
<irene> intense
<irene> and the one woman is clasping her hands
<irene> tightly (when I read this on the screen, my daughter and I looked at my hands which I was clasping tightly in front of me....and we both said at the same time "SHE'S HERE"
<irene> does this sound familar
<Betty> yes
<irene> she is there
<irene> present..she says
<irene> I listen and I understand..
<irene> make sense
<Betty> Yes, she had ADD
<irene> she says I am learning so much now
<irene> MOM.. you would be proud
<Betty> I am proud always have been
<irene> I have pride now mom
<irene> it is important to me you know that
<Betty> I am so happy to hear that
<irene> ty for helping me
<irene> Please be happy mom..
<Betty> I tried as much as I could
<irene> I know your sad
<irene> I watch you sit on your bed and yell out
<irene> I feel your pain..
<Betty> I just had to know that you were ok
<irene> I am sorry..
<irene> I am OK
<Betty> that all that important for you to be happy
There were other readings and some times things were said that didn't make any sense to me...like one time Lisa was showing the medium a yellow hard hat and talking about her dad...the next day I showed the log of the reading to my husband and he said that he had once given Lisa a yellow hard hat that he had found. I never knew that. I had a reading with my dad who passed over a few months before Lisa....he said that he felt wonderful just like he did when he was young, and he showed the medium a young man working at an old fashioned soda fountain. I asked my mom the next day and she said he did work at a soda fountain in is teenage years.
These mediums at Shrine of Hope do these free grief readings. They are wonderful people who want to help us through our grief, by letting us contact our loved ones and hear from them that they are happy. This has made it so much easier....I still grieve, but I grieve because I can't be with Lisa in this life again...but I have the wonderful knowledge that without a doubt she is happy and with God.
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