I'm so irked right now I don't know what to do. Actually, I know what I WANT to do, but I'm going to just behave myself
and restrain my actions as best I can. Seriously yo, its that bad.
I got two rather mean, bitter, and cruel emails this morning. Apparently there's this whole long winded explaination of how
that girl couldn't have emailed me yesterday and why she wouldn't even bother blah blah blah, and well, it just sorta got me
down in the morning. Maybe I was wrong with my "baseless accusations" but I mean, if you were me you'd think the exact same thing.
Perhaps someone hates me just as much as her that the person immitates this other girl. I dunno.
In some aspects I wanted to reply apologizing but explaining myself, but I know she would never believe me. Another part of
me just wanted to egg her on even more. Its funny to read her rants and defenses and everything, but at the same time sometimes
it hurts. But I still gag at the thought of her referring to her bf as her "fiance," but hey, its their life. And whats even
funnier is how she still believes I'm out to take him away or turn him against her somehow. Yeah right. The world does not
revolve around her. Aish.
So that set me off for most of the day. That and the fact that my kids didn't listen much in the afternoon when we were
rehearsing our finale dance. I'm glad Erin and I are finalizing parts to our routine though. Its making me feel better. Well,
that and the fact that when I said I felt bad cuz I didn't think I was doing much of the work she convinced me otherwise.
I'm doing Jacob's ladder tomorrow in homeroom and I was prepping last minute this evening, mainly because I didn't want to
come home. I dreaded the whole "facing the computer and email and full on drama" thing.
Grant, Kekoa,
and Grant's jr leader Tanya were still there with me while I worked. Grant was so nice and was helping me a bit. I told him
how I asked Gloria if she wanted me to hate him. haha. But it
was all in fun. I told Grant of all the stress I experiencing and he just thought it was funny. I mean, yeah I think so too
cuz its so trivial and stupid, but some things just have a way of affecting you in ways you wish they wouldn't. Its nice
to have great friends though.
So I came home. The bitch was actually here but I'm glad
I got to see her some. I miss her. (boohar) Then I cam online and chatted with peeps. They cheered me up some, but I'm
still feeling kinda sad. I had planned on taking those emails and tearing them apart here but
Paul convinced me that I've let it get to me for way too long
as it is so I think I'm just going to let it go as soon as I finish this entry.
Anner also convinced me not to reply back too which is probably
best for me. I just need to focus on other things.
Luckily I finished my lesson plan by 4pm today. I have great coworkers. I love talking to them about activities. I'm
still feeling something for Grant, but I dunno. I think I will have to beat it back into submission or repression or something.
Eesh. bad bad bad.
*Sigh* I dunno. I'm just so tired now. Summerfun really drains your energy after a while. Today at shambattle, Lo-an(??)
got into a full on fight with Hunter. That boy has the worst temper I've EVER seen on any kid...and he's only in 2nd grade!! scary.
I was sorta glad Sean didn't come today though. whew! Who knows what havoc he may have caused. haha.
Ok, well, I gotta finish cutting plastic strips for my jacob's ladder. That and I have to fold my clothes. Aish. I hate doing
that. I still feel quite disturbed and distressed at knowing there are people out there that hate me with so much passion.
I know it shouldn't affect me so, but I just want to cry now. Evil, disturbed, cruel people suck. =(
Well, have a nice day tomorrow. If a mean person comes up to you, just kick them really really hard. Do it for me...please? =)
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