Yes, I'm definitely falling for Grant now. Aish. Not
good. But I can't help it!
I spent the whole day at the park painting and doing a variety of things with everyone else. It allowed me to vent my frustrations
to people who cared, as well as gave me the laughter and happiness I was in great need of.
Kekoa is so hella funny too and I had stomach pains at the
end of the day from all the laughing.
I dunno if its just me, but it seems like Grant could be interested too. Either that or he's just really friendly and
touchy feely. Well, not really touchy feely, but you know. =) *sigh* What to doing. I can't help it! But I'm not going to
do anything...first. heh. But he really is a good guy, even if its just as friends. (And I just have to recite that about
100 more times until I may start believing that haha)
Angie wanted to go out tonight so I agreed to go, but I
really wish Grant was going to go too. He was too tired and said he didn't want to stay out too late. So now its just going
to be me, Angie, Rochelle, and
Russell. We're going to watch the movie Scary Movie.
It seems like it'll be funny so we'll see.
...but I'm still really bummed that Grant's not going. har. He kept saying how he WOULD go but he's just tired and that
he promises he'll go next time. haha. cute. Can I be anymore retarded than I already am? haha
It really is a shame that I'm leaving in a month. I was starting to think that maybe I should just stay home cuz I was getting
really sad at the thought of leaving. But I know that no matter what, this is something that I just have to do. I need to
live out on my own, away from Hawaii, and the only place I've ever known and try to survive. Its the only way I'll get stronger
and more independant. (and I only have to keep chanting that a few 1000 times before I start to believe that too) But I guess
I can always come back...Hrmm, maybe in 2 years at the very least? We'll see.
Well, I'd better go and get ready. I'm so broke and I've begun borrowing money from the rents. Oops. ;P Thanks to those
who helped me out or tried to make me feel better the last few days. It really helped. =) Have a beautiful Sunday!
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