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Considering the Accordian
The idea of it is distasteful at best. Awkward box of wind, diminutive piano on one side, raised braille buttons on the other. The bellows, like some parody of breathing, like some medical apparatus from a Victorian sick-ward. A grotesque poem in three dimensions, a roccoco thing-am-a-bob. I once stapped an accordian on my chest and right away I had to lean back on my heels, my chin in the air, my back arched like a bullfighter or flamenco dancer. I became an unheard-of contradiction: a gypsy in graduate school. Ah, but for all that, we find evidence of the soul in the most unlikely places. Once in a Czech restaurant in Long Beach, an ancient accordionist came to our table and played the old favorites: "Lady of Spain," "The Sabre Dance," "Dark Eyes," and through all the cliches his spirit sang clearly. It seemed like the accordion floated in air, and he swayed weightlessly behind it, eyes closed, back in Prague or some lost village of his childhood. For a moment we all floated -- the whole restaurant: the patrons, the knives nad forks, the wine, the sacrificed fish on plates. Everything was pure and eternal, fragiley suspended like a stained-glass window in the one remaining wall of a bombed-out church.
-- Under Ideal Conditions, Laterthannever Press, 1994
The Zen of Housework
I look over my own shoulder down my arms to where they disappear under water into hands inside pink rubber gloves moiling among dinner dishes.
My hands lift a wine glass, holding it by the stem and under the bowl. It breaks the surface like a chalice rising from a medieval lake.
Full of the grey wine of domesticity, the glass floats to the level of my eyes. Behind it, through the window above the sink, the sun, among a ceremony of sparrows and bare branches, is setting in Western America.
I can see thousands of droplets of steam -- each a tiny spectrum -- rising from my goblet of grey wine. They sway, changing directions constantly -- like a school of playful fish, or like the sheer curtain on the window to another world.
Ah, grey sacrament of the mundane!
-- The New Physics, Wesleyan University Press, 1972
Living with Others for Arlie
Yesterday, I discovered my wife often climbs our stairs on all fours. In my lonely beastlineess, I thought I was alone, the only four-legged climber, the forger of paths through thickets to Kilimanjaro's summit.
In celebration then, side by side, we went up the stairs on all our fours, and after a few steps our self-consciousness slid from us and I growled low in the throat and bit with blunt teeth my mate's shoulder and she laughed low in her throat, and rubbed her haunches on mine.
At the top of the stairs we rose on our human feet and it was fine and fitting somehow, it was Adam and Eve rising out of themselves before the Fall -- or after, it was survivors on a raft mad-eyed with joy rising to the hum of a distant rescue.
I live for such moments.
-- Men of Our Time (Moramarco and Zolynas, eds.), Univ of Georgia Press, 1992
Sailing
After years by the ocean a man finds he learns to sail in the middle of the country, on the surface of a small lake with a woman's name in a small boat with one sail.
All summer he skims back and forth across the open, blue eye of the midwest. The wind comes in from the northeast most days and the man learns how to seem to go against it, learns of the natural always crouched in the shadow of the unnatural.
Sometimes the wind stops and the man is becalmed -- just like the old traders who sat for days in the doldrums on the thin skin of the ocean nursing their scurvys and grumbling over short grog rations.
And the man learns a certain language: he watches the luff beats windward, comes hard-about, finally gets port and starboard straight.
All summer, between the soft, silt bottom and the blue sheath of the sky, he glides back and forth across the modest lake with the woman's name.
And at night he dreams of infinite flat surfaces, of flying at incredible speed, one hand on the tiller, one on the mainsheet, leaning far out over the sparkling surface, the sail a transparent membrane, the wind with its silent howl, a force moving him from his own heart.
-- Men of Our Time (Moramarco and Zolynas, eds.), Univ of Georgia Press, 1992 |
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