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End January 2007: http://www.myspace.com/camloan Mid November 2006: Yaaay 1 more exam and I'm done!!! We watched Flag of our fathers yesterday. Great movie though was just another war movie like Saving private ryan. Movies like them make me wish for no more war in this universe. If I had only 1 wish, I would wish for NO MORE WARS. I understand the reason behind each war, and I feel so tired of human greed. It is GREED that is the cause of all destruction. It is greed for power that drives countries to war. If everyone has no greed, noone would bother thinking about envading anyone else hence no blood shed. I believe we were put on Earth to eat, breed and die, NATURALLY. But seems to me knowledge in the hand of human really did more bad than good to humanity. We advance ourselvses at the cost of others, most of the time. The other day, news of approval on cloning embryos for steming cells put me out of wack for a few seconds. I was shocked. I kept reading that piece of news in disbelief. What the fuck are they gonna do with those cloned embryos after they finished with the stem cells? Kill them? Keep them in a petting zoo? Shoot them to Mars? Motherfucking thing, I could not believe it! I don't care, I really don't, if I have a disease so bad it's uncurable. I'd just die happily knowing noone else was condemned to hell because of me. Oh my God my gut is wrenching with disgust and anger, what a feeling, it's undescribable!!!! People are starting to feed themselves with shit so much these days they have become shit themselves. Hell, shit is innocent, I'm sorry shit, I should not compare you with those guilty of murder. How I wish this world would just turn back in time and let us be sick, killed by natural diseases and wild animals. Let us live by the rocks. Let us face extreme weather and die without food. Let us have no GREED! End Oct 2006: Man it's been so long I haven't cleaned up my homepages. Yesterday was the last day of my uni-life. My last exams will go on and finish on 22nd Oct 2006. After that a brand new path is got to be taken. I have finally reached the turn of my life, well, one of =) Honestly I don't feel like starting a working life. I'm gonna be a tax agent for the next 30 years or so. Doesn't that sound fascinating or what! NOT! I'm starting to feel a bit heavy and weary (already). I never had fun studying and I probably won't have fun working (wana bet?) either. The only fun I have is hanging with bub, shopping, cinema, eating and seeing friends. It's funny init, I was able to do all that in the past, but I could never fully enjoy them because of uni work load and nightmares. Now that I'm going to work, I won't be able to enjoy fully neither. Isn't life full of traps?! It'd give you a bit of fun here and there, but everything it gives comes with a catch. But hmmmmm... I guess I should stop whining like a lazy bitch and get on with life. At times when I feel blue, I switch my negative thoughts into thinking of unfortunate people in the world. People with burnt faces, no legs, no arms, or no food. They pull me out of the dumspter of thoughts and wipe the bullshit off my head. Too much bullshit in this western world I must say. We have everything we need. Commodities are brought to our mouths yet we don't really appreciate anything this country brings us. I can't even imagine how my life would be now if I were still back there. So Thank You God, for blessing my life! Near-end August 2006:I feel better today. Finally catching up with my studies, so much to read and so much to do, but finally there =) One of my g/f is getting engaged next month, how exciting!!! It's quite strange growing up seeing them as my high-school buddies and now as someone who's gonna get married and have kids and so on!!! ehehehe ah the upper levels of our lives, they make me feel a bit older, a bit less jumpy and a lot happier =) There are lots of moments when I sat and thanked God for blessing my life with happiness and fortunate events. The emotions are so overwhelming that I constantly fear something out of control, out of my reach might happen and twirl me away from all that I have and send me plunging towards hell. Touch wood! =D August 2006: a few more months to get out of this prison of education!!! I don't care what others say, 6 years is ENOUGH for me! I need to get out, make good money and start taking care of my family. I feel so shit today, like I'm stuck in a shit hole. I'm sick of schooling, up to here! I am never gonna miss school once I start working even though tons of people said they miss it. Hell no, 6 years in school give me nightmare during my holidays. I would wake up thinking "Fuck! I forgot to do my assignment! Oh wait, what the heck was the assignment? Ooooh I'm on holiday!" So much stress, so much fears, I can't tolerate any more of this much longer. I feel like a piece of string being pulled from both ends, and now I'm close to snapping! Hurry up and end my pain! Bloody hell! Honey I love you! You're the reason why I smile everyday! July 2006: in 6 months time I'll be fwee as a bird --> graduation. No more school. Feel so tired and impatient. Just like climbing the last bit of a high mountain, totally wrecked, but nearly there. Oh we had a trip to VietNam last month. It was awesome. We're actually missing our time there very much. Old news: Well well well, I blinked and it's already been 2006. Got my brace off for a few months now, so fresh so free hehe.... Oh a very important piece of news: I got engaged! Our celebration went smoothly and we were like dead for the following 3 days :D Old news: Hey hey hey everybaardy, it's August 2005 and I'm loving the new look of my teeth. So straight and not sticking out anymore everytime I smile hihi.... Can't wait to take the brace off, I'll be walking around going ooh aah look at me now with me teeth =D Oooh ooh ooh guess what, I found out 1 of my new friends used to date 1 of the snobs I used to date. Oh my goodness we both had a big laugh.A special message to my huni "Love you with all my heart bubby!!! Thanks for being you!" Old news: Alert!!! I got my brace on for nearly a year now. Look totally ugly with 2 holes right at front, upper. Gaps are closing now, lips are less pushed out, still horribly ugly!!! Ah well, at least I won't look as ho^ as before *cuoi tit mat* Itsh meeee, before brace, March 2004!!! I cut me hair, shee, shee?! It's much longer now
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