Love Takes Time Chapter 6 * Three days later * *’s POV * Three days after the funeral and I still felt dead inside. I missed Max so much. I missed all the things we shared. I missed his soft kisses, his tender touch, his sweet words,… that made me cry even more. I’ve never cried so much in my entire life. Nights and days I cried his loss.was there to comfort me but I’ve still missed him and nobody could stop my pain and nobody could understand what I went through. This was awful. Losing the one you loved, the one you were gonna marry, losing your soul mate, I hated to think of that. I knew I had to carry on living my life, working as a journalist but without his love, without Max’s love, I just couldn’t. he was my energy, my reason to live. How was I gonna go on living my life knowing he wasn’t with me to share my laughs, my cries, my ups and downs… I didn’t see the point of still living here. Nobody understood but I was nothing without him. Evenwho knew me too well said I had to accept the fact I had to carry on living cause I got a job and a life to build and meet someone new. But he didn’t understand. Max was my life and someone took if away from me. Why? Why did they do that to me? What had I done to deserve so much pain? I loved Max, maybe more than he loved me. I made him happy and then he’s gone. The day of our wedding. But why? Why when everything seemed so perfect something bad has to happen? I could clearly see my future with him. I Wasn’t afraid of settling down with him cause I knew I did the right thing for me like for him. We both loved each other so much and that was why not it hurt so much. was getting worried cause I didn’t eat anymore, I refused to go out, I just wanted to lie on my bed and cry. I was a physical wreck but today I had decided something. I didn’t want to live again this pain and I couldn’t bear the idea of living far away from the love of my life. The only solution to stop the pain was to join him. That was it. I was gonna join him and we could live happy. I was gonna end up my life to begin living another one. I didn’t wanna leave all my friends and my family but I knew I had to. If I wanted to be happy, the only option I had was to live with Max… even if it was in Heaven… yeah I had to do it. I didn’t wanna live in this damn life anymore and the only way to ease the pain was to die. Strangely I wasn’t afraid at all. I knew it was the right thing and I knew I would be happy this way. Before going I wanted to say goodbye to all the person I really cared and loved. And I wrote a letter… As I finished the letter I let a tear rolling down my cheek. I had to do it even if I was gonna miss ‘em. My place wasn’t here anymore. I placed the letter on the table and left’s apart. Half an hour later, arrived where I wanted to. I went out of my car and headed towards the end of the rock and sat. I could have taken some sleeping pills and just fall asleep but I didn’t want that. I wanted to feel the pain, it might be strange, I wanted to hurt myself. I was so angry at myself. Deep down inside, I felt like it was my fault. But wasn’t it? Maybe it was my fault if Max had left me, I thought to myself as I passed my legs to the other side of the rock and could see my feet into space. Maybe I deserved all I had been through. That was why I wanted to punish myself. I didn’t like myself anymore but soon everything would be all right with Max by my side… I looked down then closed my eyes as I prepared myself to fall and leave this life which hated me but soon she wouldn’t be able to see me and hurt me. I left it all behind, my friends, my family… and I got ready for a new life as I suddenly couldn’t control my body anymore and just simply gave in. I didn’t wanna fight anymore that was why I just gave in and let myself fall… To Be Continued...