My Soul Pleads For You Chapter 3 - - I phoned work the next morning explaining that I couldn’t go in because I felt really sick and had been sick it was a small lie well the actually being sick part was I did feel it though in the pit of my stomach I'd never felt so hurt in all my life I feel like my heart has literally been cut out anger came to me making me kick out I hit a shoe box across the room and a load of photos went flying out of it I sighed to myself knowing I had to pick them up now I bent down and went through them there were loads of pictures ofand I all cuddles and smiles and kisses a black and white photo fell out off the pile I picked it up and looked at it as tears came back to my eyes as I recognised it as our baby thathad told me she’d lost a few weeks ago was this why she left also because she cried to me telling me she’d failed us because she’d lost our child but this I’ll never know I picked up the last picture of us together and ran my fingers along it ‘where are you my angel’ I thought as I closed the lid of the box and put it out of sight I can't no longer look at those photos they bring back too many happy memories which now fill me with sadness I got up slowly and went to get a pen and piece of paper there were thoughts running through my mind that I just had to write down how I felt when I finished it looked like I'd wrote a poem that I was proud of how can she still be my inspiration when she’s no longer here… We’re a distance apart It’s pulling at my heart Turning my nights lonely and cold I need to have you here to hold You’re going away For a long time And I feel my heart Is being torn apart Hanging on is those Breakable heartstrings But soon they also will be torn I won’t be safe anymore When in a storm ‘Cos my heart is being torn By the only one who keeps me safe Stays this smile on my face But it won’t last its fading fast ‘Cos you’re leaving And I’m being torn apart By you being so far away And I’m torn ‘Cos all I want Is to have you in my arms And to love you But I’m torn “That’s deep”said after I let him read what I had wrote earlier “It's how I feel but I can’t do anything about it” I said “Who says you can’t?” he asked “Well I don’t know where she is for a start” “Come on take a holiday from work I’ll do the same and I’ll help you find her”said “Really you’d do that” I said “Yes I don’t want to see my best friend broken down when I can try and help him” Dunk said “Thanks man you’re the best I can’t wait to find her to prove her that I love her” I said with a smile “Well we should try her friends to start with” he suggested “Good idea she wrote everyone’s number down in our phonebook I’ll just go get it” I said and leaving the room I returned a while later with the book and grabbed the phone dialling the first number ’s “Hello?” she answered “HeyitsI was wondering if you’d seen” I asked “No not since last Saturday why?” she asked “I just wondered if she’d gone to stay with you, you see she left me” I said swallowing the hard lump that had formed in my throat saying that “Oh I’m so sorrybut she’s not here if I see her I’ll phone you to let you know”said “Ok thanks anyway bye” I said and hung up nodded my head at who was on his phone to another one of her friends “Not there either”said as we reached the last name in the book “This is useless why did we even try” I said putting my head in my hands… To Be Continued...