Feedback:  E-mail Cwlystep@aol.com Part Seven "Starting Over Part 2" Justin’s POV The next morning, I woke up before Brian. Looking at the clock I noticed that it was only a little after 6am.  God, why am I waking up so early nowadays? I should be zonked after Brian woke me up for breakfast the day before.  Moving to lie on my back, I stretch my arms over my head.  The one thing bad about sleeping in the same bed with somebody is how your body always managed to get cramped up.  Once I feel like I can move again, I slowly try to get out of bed, but hands wrapping around my waist stop me. “Where do you think you’re going?” I hear Brian’s raspy morning voice ask me. Turning around I smile at him.  “I was going to go take a leak, but I guess I can wait a little more.” I kiss Brian softly on the lips and smile again. “It’s been a while since we’ve been able to wake up like this.” He moans a content moan and stretches his own arms over his head.  “Yeah, and I think I could get used to it.” He said smiling sweetly. I roll my eyes and laugh. “I’m sure you could, especially when we will be up all night with Noah.” Brian makes a face at me for that last comment.  “Don’t remind me.  I’m still not all that keen on 3am feedings. Giggling and propping myself up on my elbow, I look down at Brian who was still lying on his side.  “You sleep ok? I mean are you uncomfortable when you lie down?” I ask, knowing I’ve read some place that guys can get really uncomfortable when they are lying down, and pregnant. “I’m ok. Things aren’t too bad yet.” He says smirking a little bit. Sometimes it’s nice to see some of the old Brian Kinney coming back.  Sure, I love the new caring Brian, but it’s a comfort factor to see the old Brian every once in a while.  “Why do I have a feeling that was supposed to be a sexual reference?” I ask, smirking back. He shrugs and actually blushes a little bit. Something that makes my heart melt like crazy.  “Of course it does, Justin.  Ever since you left I haven’t been able to get you out of my head.  For months all I wanted was you back in my bed, back into my life.  But well, now that you’re here, I’m a little confused.” He admits and I can’t help but smile.  “What are you confused about?” I decide to ask, wanting to know if it was something I could help with. Shrugging he looks down at his lap for a second.  “I don’t know how to love somebody, Justin.  That’s something you’ve known from the beginning.  Now, here I am in a position where I know for a fact I love you, and love saying it to you…but for the first time in my life I’m scared to show it…physically.” Then it hits me what he’s trying to say. “You mean you don’t feel like you know how to make love?” All he does is nod, still looking down at his lap. I can’t help but giggle a little bit.  Taking my finger I lift his chin so he could look me the eyes.  “Do you have any idea how many times that you HAVE already made love to me?” I wait until I see the confused look and once I get it, I continue.  “The first time after the bashing, that was definitely making love.  Then there was the time that I wanted to bare back and you wouldn’t allow it because you wanted me around for a really, really long time.  You may have not known it at the time, but those are perfect examples.  So, don’t be giving me bullshit about not knowing how to make love.” He laughs and gets a small smile on his face. Before I know what is happening he has me pinned to the bed, the smile even wider on his face. “Care for me to prove to you how good I can be at this whole making love thing?” He asks me, and all I can do is giggle and nod. Rolling his eyes he laughs again.  “You sure are articulate this morning.” He laughs as his hands start to wander all over my body.  They feel amazing on my naked upper body.  I can feel his morning hard-on poking my thigh, and I can’t help but moan. “It’s been too long.” I moan, arching my hips up to meet his.  My body craving the contact like nothing else I’ve ever felt before.  I can tell even beyond his hard-on that he needs me, and badly. As quick as he can he gets off of me and strips out of his sweats and boxers.  I make sure to use this time to do the same to myself so I’m ready when he is.  Naked at the same time, he mounts his position again and attacks my lips with his in a very passionate kiss. *****@***** Brian’s POV I don’t think I have ever been this horny in my life.  Sure, I’m always horny anyway, but this is getting ridiculous.  One second I’m telling Justin how I’m worried I don’t know what I’m doing.  The next I’m all over him, throwing all caution to the wind and going with what my body is telling me to do.  God, I need him badly, and yesterday would have not been soon enough. “I need to be inside of you.” I whisper in his ear, as I nibble at it, and the skin around it.  His response is a low moan from deep in his chest.  Sitting up on his lap a little bit, I look down at Justin for the reassurance I need to continue.  “Are you sure?” I ask him while I reach for a condom. He nods his head but stops my hand before I can get the condom out.  I raise my eyebrow in question, as if asking, ‘what are you doing’ with my eyes. “You’ve been tested, right?” He asks me. Sucking my bottom lip into my mouth all I can do is nod back, dropping the condom that was in my hand.  Never in a million years did I think I would be able to have Justin raw, nothing besides skin against skin.  Justin’s been on birth control since right after we started ‘seeing’ each other.  His daddy and I both insisted that he started getting the shots, just to be very safe, even though we always were protected.  I still remember the conversation we had when Michael first started going out with Ben.  Justin had wanted to go bareback so badly, that he even got the courage to tell me about it.  Of course I turned him down right away, saying stuff about how I wanted him around for a really long time.  I guess Justin was right.  That was a sure sign that I did love him.  Looking down into those bright blue eyes, I smile a soft smile.  God, do I love the man underneath me.  Leaning down again, I grab Justin’s legs and slowly lift them over my shoulders.  Once they are in position I take hold of my cock, and while looking Justin right in the eye, I slowly move inside of him. God, this feels so fucking good.  I’ve never wanted to have sex raw before. It was always too risky with the lifestyle I lived.  Now it’s like I’m a virgin again.  I have to pause once I’m all the way inside to make sure I don’t lose all control.  Looking into his eyes, I can tell Justin is having the same problem I am.  I also know that this is more than just a physical connection we have just made, it’s a mental and emotional one as well. Once I finally feel I’m in control of my body again, I begin a slow pace, moving in and out, wanting the experience to last, wanting to savor the feel of Justin’s hot insides all around me. That great feeling of having no boundaries, and knowing that nothing is holding you back. “God, I love you.” I say in the middle of thrusting, my voice thick with pleasure. Justin smiles and thrusts his hips to meet mine.  “Love…you too.” he pants. Hearing his sex covered voice saying those two words that I used to fear, almost does me in right then and there.   I grunt and groan as my pace gets faster and faster.  Justin doesn’t mind though. His thrusts are meeting mine all the same and finally I can’t hold out any longer.  Screaming at the top of my lungs I cum deep inside of him. Justin’s POV The feeling of Brian cuming inside of me is all it takes for me to shoot my own load in between our exhausted bodies.  Rubbing Brian’s back softly as he flops down on top of me, we both try to catch our breaths. “Are you ok?” I whisper in his ear as my hands move to run though his hair. He groans, and lifts his head to smile at me.  “Better than ok, that was fucking intense.” I laugh and shake my head.  “How about we get some rest before we get some more rest before we actually have to get up and face the day.” “Sounds like a plan.” He mumbles against my chest before he rolls out of me to curl up on his own side of the bed. *****@***** When I finally woke up again at around 9 o’clock it was because there was somebody pounding on the door.  Rolling over, I notice that Brian is still fast asleep. Poor baby must really be exhausted.  Groaning, I throw the sheet off of me and step out of bed. Grabbing my sweats that had been thrown during our early morning fun, I lazily walk to the door. Throwing it open, I’m beyond shocked to see who is standing on the other side. “Dad?”  I ask in amazement.  I haven’t talked to my father in months. Why would he all of a sudden be showing up at Brian’s loft? Craig darts his eyes around. He’s probably trying to see what’s actually inside the famous Brian Kinney’s loft.  Bet he wouldn’t believe that there was baby furniture.  Then again, that’s probably why he is here. “Can I come inside, or are we going to stand here and talk in the hallway?” he asks me, with the same tone he had used when something was serious. Sighing, I step away from the door and let him inside.  He continues to look around the loft, but stops when they land on the baby things Michael and I had put in the corner.  “What’s this all about?”  I ask him, really just wanting to get back to spending my Sunday with Brian. “Your daddy told me that I’m going to be a grandfather.”  He states. I nod.  “Yeah, well he’s right.” Is all I say back. Still not sure what this conversation is going to be about. “I think you’re making a mistake.” Rolling my eyes, I clench my fists.  “Oh yeah, and why is that?” “Don’t roll your eyes at me young man. I’m still your father and you will respect me.” He says, getting angry. “You’re only nineteen years old, not old enough to be a father. So I suggest you pack up your things and leave the parenting to the man who is way too old for you.” I’m so angry I’m seeing red.  Who the fuck does he think he is for coming in here and yelling at me like this.  “Who the fuck do you think you are?”  I exclaim, walking to get right in his face.  “I love Brian, and he loves me, so that’s all there is to it.  I’m not going to fall back on my responsibilities as a father just because my own father is a jackass!” He looks at me in surprise before he turns around and walks out of the loft. Not saying another word. “That was pretty impressive.”  Brian, says as he walks down the few steps to wrap me in his arms. I’m still breathing heavy from all the yelling as I try to relax in his arms.  “Why doesn’t he just leave me alone?” I say, trying to keep my emotions under control.  Brian doesn’t need me losing it right now. “Because he’s a jealous jackass!”  Brian replies. Turning around in his arms, I look up at him confused.  “What does he have to be jealous of?” “He doesn’t have the loving, caring relationship that we have.  He messed up on his, but hasn’t gotten the love of his life back.” He said.  “And probably never will.” All I can do is hug Brian back tight.  “I love you so, so much.” “I love you, too. I don’t know about you, but I’m starving.  Think it’s time to head to the diner, and this time we don’t have to worry about people finding out?”  He asks me smiling his biggest smile. “Sounds perfect.” *****@***** Ted’s POV I’m beyond shocked when I see Brian and Justin walking into the diner with hands locked and swinging between them.  Since when did that happen?  The last time I checked, they hadn’t really even been talking. “Well, this is a surprise.” Brian just rolls his eyes at me and sits down at the booth, across from Emmett and me.  Turning to look at my honey, I see he’s just as shocked. “Baby, when did this happen?” Emmett asks Justin, a huge smile on his face.  He always did have a soft spot for Justin. Justin smiles back.  “About two weeks ago.” He answers. “Why?”  Is all I can manage to ask? I mean there has to be some sort of a catch. Brian Kinney doesn’t do boyfriends.  The king of fucking doesn’t settle down, and you would have thought that Justin would have understood this by now.  “That happens to be OUR business.”  Brian says to me in his normal snooty tone. I watch as Justin elbows Brian and gives him a pointed glance.  I wonder what that’s all about. “Actually, I’ve been meaning to tell you guys.  I’m pregnant, going to have Justin’s kid in three months.” One look at Brian and I burst out laughing.  “That’s a good one. Brian, you almost had me going there for a second.” “He’s telling the truth, Ted.”  Justin says, hurt evident in his voice. I’m stunned into silence.  Hell, what am I supposed to say about that. Thankfully, Emmett seems to have enough words for the both of us. “Oh, my God! Baby, this is absolutely wonderful.  You have got to let me throw the baby shower!”  Emmett exclaims, bubbling with excitement like usual.  Brian rolls his eyes and looks at Justin before everybody bursts out laughing.  Before we all know it, everybody around the diner is coming to place their congratulations to the happy couple. I just pray to god that is how it’s going to stay, that they will be happy and satisfied with each other this time around.  I have a good feeling everything will be ok, but you never know anymore. *****@***** Brian’s POV That night lying in bed, I can’t help but have this great bubbly feeling inside of me.  Everything is going as good as expected.  Everybody is taking the news a lot better then I had expected, so now it’s just up to Justin and I to make sure everything works out. I feel the bed move beside me and notice Justin had come into bed. “What ya thinking about?” He asks me, resting his head on my chest. I kiss the top of his head and smile.  “Just thinking about how happy I am.  How right my life finally feels.  Who would have thought that to be happy I had to become a law abiding family man.” Justin laughs and kisses my shoulder.  “I knew it all along, Bri.  But never would have told you that.” TO BE CONTINUED…. AUTHORS NOTE:  Well, there is chapter seven.  Hope everybody enjoyed it and can’t wait for the next chapter to come out.