Out of the Mists
Chapter Ten
Hutch was exhausted. Spending
the night in the crowded holding cell afforded him no sleep, between the
typical prison barrage and the occasional and often venomous visits from his
fellow officers. Many of the uniformed
patrolmen who checked in on him, mostly out of morbid curiosity, left without
too much of a confrontation. The
plain-clothes detectives, however, were scalding with their acid remarks. There were few things cops hated more than
another going bad, and they reminded Hutch of that fact.
Late in the morning, Hutch “made bail” and after his release, touched
base with Vic Monte. Monte was enraged
over the sting operation that brought down many of his “best” men and accused
Hutch of slipping up—leaving a trail that led the Feds straight to him, or
worse, that Hutch had set him up. Hutch
viciously reminded the hood that he, too, had not only been arrested and
charged, but had also lost his career.
The tenuous relationship got a little dicey when Monte suggested that
Hutch was no longer useful, now that he was off the force. Hutch convinced him that he still had
connections, and that his training and experience could still be of benefit to
the organization. Monte finally and
cautiously conceded.
“Didn’t
your mothers ever teach you to knock?” Hutch quipped, mild anger overriding his
embarrassment from the surprise they had given him.
“We’ve
got a problem. Your cover’s been blown,
and Monte’s got a price on your head.”
McMillian’s voice was hostile.
Endicott
agreed. “We need to take you into
protective custody—now.”
Hutch
held up his hands. “Wait. Wait a minute, here. I just spoke to Monte a couple hours
ago. Everything’s fine. I’m still in and he’s¾”
McMillian
shook his head. “No, it’s blown. We got word twenty minutes ago; someone
snitched to Monte that you’re a plant.
We don’t know when or how they found out. It could have even been last night when you were brought in, for
all we know. Maybe the only reason he
agreed to keep you around was so he could take you out without arousing as much
suspicion to himself—pin it on some vigilantes that don’t like it when cops go
bad. It’s hard to say. What we do know is that there’s a
quarter-million price tag on your head.”
Hutch
whistled as he turned back to the stove and lowered the flame. Pulling a dishtowel from where it had been
tucked in his back pocket, he wiped his hands and laid it down on the
counter. “A quarter-of-a-million bucks,
just for me. Imagine that.”
Endicott
shifted from one foot to the other, impatient.
“Look, Hutchinson, we need to get you to a safe house now.” The agent reached past
Hutch, intending to turn off the burner.
“So go pack a bag and we’ll¾ ”
Hutch’s
grip on the agent’s wrist stopped him.
“I don’t think so. My partner
and I can take care of ourselves until the trial. We’ll be more use to you tying up loose ends and giving you the
airtight case you need than being stuck in some hotel somewhere, sitting on our
butts.”
Endicott
snatched his hand back. “Not
Starsky—just you, Hutchinson. And don’t
be a fool! You’ll be wasted out on the
streets for sure and screw up our case against Monte. We need your testimony.”
Hutch
cocked an eyebrow. “Well, I’ve got to
say that your concern for my safety is comforting, Endicott, but I’m not going
underground.”
“But
Monte wants you dead!”
“I
understand that, but listen—remember what I told you about Dixon? He was the guy I initially thought performed
the hit on Theresa DeFusto’s brother.
Well, he wasn’t, but he’d done more than a few hits for the
famiglia. More importantly, he’s pretty
fed up with good old Mr. Monte, and I’m sure if I can just get another minute
alone with him, I can get him to spill what he knows. That kind of evidence will make your case even stronger. He’s skittish and I don’t think it’s likely
he’d talk to anybody else but me.”
McMillian
mopped his upper lip with his sleeve.
“Hutchinson, we don’t have that kind of time. I don’t think you realize the urgency, here. You need to disappear, now. Alone. We’ve got an idea that will keep you alive
until the trial.”
Hutch
grew more exasperated. “Look, I’m not
going anywhere without talking to my partner and my captain first.”
Hutch
turned away from the two agents toward the phone mounted on the kitchen
wall. Endicott grabbed the blond by the
arm and jerked him back. The contact
was all the provocation Hutch needed to retaliate, and a solid right cross laid
the agent flat. As he was recovering
his balance, a strong arm looped around Hutch’s throat, and McMillian’s
handkerchief was clamped over his nose and mouth. Hutch’s hands instinctively went up to the arm crushing his
windpipe, clawing to pull it away, while what oxygen he could get was tainted
by a sickly-sweet smell.
Hutch’s
stomach lurched at the scent of the chloroform, and he desperately tried to
shake his head away from the grip that clamped the drug to his face. Survival instincts kicked in, and Hutch
stomped his heel on McMillian’s instep, causing the larger man to stumble. Hutch broke out of the agent’s stronghold,
but the chloroform was already pushing him to the brink of
unconsciousness. Hutch staggered
forward into the stove, colliding with the saucepot, and bringing it down on
top of him as he fell to the floor.
Hutch
cried out as the stew scalded the side of his face. McMillian was over him in an instant, snatching up the discarded
hand towel and wiping the mixture off his face. Before Hutch was able to try to get away, though, the
handkerchief was again roughly pressed over his nose and mouth.
The
last thing Hutch thought before blacking out was that he didn’t have to worry
about the bad guys killing him off. The
good guys were doing a fine job on their own.
Hutch
groaned as he began to wake, his head and stomach spinning from the effects of
the chloroform. Nausea rolled over him
like a wave, and he turned on his side to retch. The instant his face came in contact with the surface beneath
him, pain lanced through him and he racked his memory, trying to recall what
had caused the injury. Fire? Was there a fire?
Unconsciousness
tugged at him again and he fought it, trying to focus his eyes on the
unfamiliar surroundings. He lay on an
examining room table, covered only by a hospital gown. The room was white and chrome, devoid of any
color or warmth. Hutch pushed himself
up by one arm and twisted his legs up under him. When he did, a new pain ripped through his leg from behind his
knee. Questing hands touched the back
of his knee and felt something hard under the skin. He twisted to get a better view, but then had to spend a moment blinking
rapidly to clear his sight. When he
could finally focus, he was shocked to find a medical port imbedded in the back
of his leg. He had seen such an
apparatus before, but only on patients needing constant medications and fluids,
allowing easier access by needle.
A cold
finger of fear raced down his spine, and he shuddered. In an instant, he was sliding off the table
to escape, but his legs were unable to hold him, and he fell to the floor.
The
unmistakable feel of latex-gloved hands rolled him onto his back. He was again on the examination table and a
petite blonde nurse held an empty hypodermic needle in one hand as she
disappeared from his view. The world grew
dim.
“He should have listened to us to begin
with!” The voice was heated and
familiar. “If he had cooperated, we
wouldn’t have had to take these extreme measures.”
It took
Hutch a minute to recognize the voice as Endicott’s. He turned his head toward the conversation, and while he tried to
concentrate on what was being said, it felt as if he were swimming against a
current. Endicott stood nervously next
to McMillian, along with a man Hutch hadn’t seen before. The third was dressed similarly to the
agents and held a metal briefcase. The
new man spoke. “Are you sure you want
to proceed with this? Because once we
start, we’re committed, and there’s no turning back. When Dennison gets wind of this¾”
“By the
time Dennison hears about it, it’ll be too late.” McMillian was speaking now, and fading in and out of Hutch’s
focus. “Besides, by then we’ll have put
away Vic Monte and handed Dennison the tightest conviction the West Coast
Bureau’s ever had. How we got there
will be a minor consequence. You let me
worry about Dennison.”
The
third man shrugged his shoulders and set the case on the exam table next to
Hutch’s feet. Miraculously, the agents
hadn’t noticed Hutch was semi-alert and watching them through hooded eyes.
Endicott
nervously hugged his jacket tighter and crossed his arms in the chilling
room. Hutch realized the temperature
had dropped significantly and was getting colder by the minute. “So what exactly is that stuff,
anyway?”
The
unnamed man opened the case and withdrew a blood-pressure cuff. The briefcase was made up of a single
compartment surrounded by protective foam.
Within the padding lay a series of pre-measured hypodermics. The man moved up beside Hutch, noticing the
half-veiled eyes watching him. “He’s
awake.”
The man
expertly placed the cuff on Hutch’s forearm and pumped it. He released the ball and withdrew a
stethoscope from his suit coat and placed the ends in his ears. Hutch ineffectively tried to remove the cuff
and push the man’s hands away as he slowly released the cuff’s air. Anger coursed through Hutch at his inability
to protect himself.
It only
took him a moment to check Hutch’s blood pressure and heart rate. “Ninety over sixty. Good.”
A small penlight was flashed into Hutch’s eyes as the man peeled back
one eyelid then the other. Apparently,
he was satisfied with the results and returned the light, cuff, and stethoscope
to the case, then focused his attention on Endicott who shifted nervously,
waiting for an answer to his question.
A
single hypodermic was withdrawn from the case and held to the light. The unfamiliar man peered into the glass and
tapped a finger against it to dispel any air.
“What this is, Endicott, is an opiate derivative.”
“Like
horse?”
The man
briefly looked at the other with something akin to disdain before stepping
closer to Hutch’s knee. “Something like
that. Roll him for me.”
Hutch’s
heart began to race, and he put every ounce of willpower he had in trying to
get his limbs to cooperate. If his
desperation and fear had been able to overcome the effects of the previous
injections, he would have been far from the cold, sterile room in an
instant. But all he was able to
accomplish was an uncontrolled kick at McMillian that had no effect, and a wild
slap at Endicott that he easily avoided.
Hutch was roughly rolled onto one side, his burned face buried against
the side of Endicott’s coat. He didn’t
feel the hypodermic needle plunging into the port behind his knee, but the warm
rush that immediately followed swallowed him whole.
Caught
somewhere between euphoria and terror, Hutch tried to beg them to stop, but
what came out of his mouth were incoherent groans. McMillian and Endicott let him fall over onto his back. The suspended examination lights above him
fragmented and blurred, and he futilely tried to shield his eyes. McMillian roughly grabbed either side of
Hutch’s face and drew himself close; his voice became the malicious hiss of a
serpent. “This is your doing, Hutchinson. If you had
listened to us earlier, we wouldn’t have to do this. Just remember that later, Hutchinson—this is your fault!”
Hutch
could barely discern the three leaving as he slid deeper into a stupor, the
dropping temperature of the room chilling him to the bone. His thoughts began to muddle, but it still
couldn’t keep him from crying out, if only in his mind.
“STARSKY!”
Darkness
and rough hands. Movement. Exhaust.
Traveling? To where? Deep voices, but the words were
jumbled. Cold, so cold. Help
me.
Fresh
air. Grass. Still so cold.
Tossed. Tumbling. Rough hands checking his pressure and pulse. Another injection behind the knee. Cold.
Breathe...help
me breathe.
Alone.
He was
in a different room now, but still colder than he could ever remember
being. He couldn’t have moved if he’d
wanted to, and he felt suspended somehow, frozen in a moment of time. He couldn’t open his eyes farther than
slits, but it was enough.
Hutch couldn’t turn his head to see his surroundings, but even with his
hazy vision, the room looked somehow familiar.
Were those drawers on the wall above him?
Another unfamiliar face stood over him, and Hutch saw rather than felt
the man’s hand come up to his face and lift each eyelid in turn, checking the
dilation of his pupils. The man then
moved to the edge of Hutch’s wavering vision, down by his legs.
The warm rush from the injection
began to course through him, but did nothing to dispel the chill that permeated
his body. He felt his eyelids drift
shut against the tide of the drug, but not before he saw a sheet pulled up over
his head.
If he
had felt like he was trying desperately to swim to the surface of consciousness
before, now it was as if weights had been added, strapped to each of his limbs,
pulling him farther into the black depths.
His
eyes slit open, but refused to focus.
All Hutch could discern was that he was lying on his back, unable to
move. He felt restrained, like a band
was tightened across his chest and thighs, tying him to the earth. The room was white, like before, but a small
barred window sat high on the wall opposite him, letting in a meager amount of
sunlight.
His
mouth was parched and his lips cracked to the point of bleeding. The slightest sound to his left broke
through the buzzing in his ears, and he turned toward it. A man he hadn’t seen before sat reading a
newspaper in a plastic chair similar to those found in waiting rooms. The stranger was dressed in a hospital
attendant’s jacket, his tie pulled away from his collar as if it had been
strangling him.
When
the stranger noticed Hutch was awake—if only marginally—he glanced at his watch
and mumbled, “Close enough.”
The
paper was folded and laid aside. A
hypodermic was withdrawn from a stand and injected into the port attached to a
bottle of saline hanging at Hutch’s bedside.
Hutch tried desperately to speak, but only succeeded in marginally
opening and closing his mouth. The last
thing he remembered was the metallic taste of blood from his cracked and
bleeding lips.
When he
woke again, he was trembling violently and sweating, and instantly recognized
it as the onset of withdrawal from the heroin injections. He dimly realized that, at least, he was no
longer quite as cold. Although he felt
as if at any moment he would begin heaving, he tried to sit up. The pressure across his chest, thighs,
ankles, and wrists prevented him, and he forced his eyes open, only to see the
room spin. He took several deep breaths
to settle his stomach before trying a second time. Everything around him was still out of focus, but gradually
becoming clearer. The unfamiliar man
was still in the nearby chair, but sat in a sprawl, apparently drowsing. Trying to focus, Hutch determined that the
man wasn’t asleep, but rather in a stupor.
The attendant’s coat was hanging on the doorknob, and his left
shirtsleeve was rolled up above his elbow.
Lying on the floor was a rubber tube, which apparently had been used as
a tourniquet. Next to it was an empty
hypodermic.
Even in
his haze, Hutch’s thoughts began racing.
Here, finally, was perhaps hope, if he could only get his thoughts
straightened out.
Unconsciously,
he cried out when his stomach cramped in the pain of withdrawal. Blinking back the tears forming in his eyes,
he curled in on himself as much as he could and looked down. What frightened him more than the hospital gown
were the leather restraints strapped across his chest and thighs and securing
his wrists and ankles.
Hutch
threw his weight against the straps, grimacing from the pain it caused and the
hateful feel of anything touching him—a side effect from the heroin leaving his
system. Desperation ran through him,
and he pulled at the leather restraints over and over, only managing to rub his
skin raw where they bit into him.
His
actions were enough to rouse the other man, who blearily peered at him. The stranger again checked his watch, and
his face displayed a flash of concern that his imbibing had apparently caused
dereliction of his duties. Surging to
his feet, the stranger unsteadily withdrew another hypodermic from the stand
and staggered over to Hutch’s bedside, injecting the drug into the saline
solution.
“No,
please! God...please, don’t!” Hutch begged, his voice little more than a delirious whisper. “My...partner, please—get my partner.” He repeated the plea like a litany, falling back into
unconsciousness well before there was a subtle change in the stranger’s
expression.
He woke
in a cold sweat, the hospital gown clinging to him like a second skin. The nausea and dizziness immediately
assailed him, as well as the cramping of his stomach muscles and an urgent need
to retch.
Hutch’s
eyes darted about the room fearfully, willing his muscles to stop trembling and
betray the fact that he was awake. The
stranger stood leaning against the opposite wall, staring out the small barred
window level with his chin. He glanced
at Hutch. “You’re awake.”
Hutch
swallowed hard and tried to lick his lips.
“Please...”
The
stranger turned away from the window, placing his back against the wall as he
studied Hutch. “You want some water?”
Speaking
was a supreme effort, so Hutch merely nodded.
The man crossed the room and retrieved a cup, then placed its straw to
Hutch’s mouth. Hutch drew what he
could, but then began coughing violently, sending waves of pain through his
stomach and the rest of his body. He
swallowed convulsively, willing the meager fluid to stay down.
The
stranger set the cup aside and withdrew a hypodermic out of the drawer. Hutch quickly drew a breath and tugged as
best he could against his restraints.
“Please, don’t...shoot me up...anymore.
I’m obviously...not...going anywhere.”
Whether
it was something in Hutch’s voice or something else, the man paused, though he
didn’t set the syringe down. He glanced
at his watch, considering. “I guess a
few more minutes won’t kill you, though I’ll bet you’re hurting about now.”
The
face that met the stranger’s gaze contained thin, dark circles accenting sunken
eyes and cheekbones. Hutch’s blond hair
was plastered to his skull with sweat.
A healing second-degree burn marred one side of his face.
Hutch
shook his head. “I don’t care...I...I
can do it again.”
“Again?” The stranger’s expression was quizzical, but
he was obviously interested. When Hutch
didn’t respond, he simply continued to stare at the detective.
“Where...am
I, anyway?” Hutch panted through clenched teeth as another wave of pain tore
through him.
The
stranger chuckled without humor.
“You’re currently a guest at the Cabrillo State facility for the terminally
insane. So, if you get it in your head to start hollering for help
because you’re being held against your will, forget it. The staff hears that several times a day.”
Hutch
nodded once, thinking furiously through the pain, desperate for a plan of
action. The man stepping to his bedside
and reaching for the saline bottle interrupted his thoughts.
“God—no! Please, you don’t...you don’t...have to do
that!” The stranger’s hand didn’t
hesitate as he pressed the plunger, sending the drugs into the tube leading to
Hutch’s arm. “Look, I...I don’t
know...who you are, or who...you work for, but my name...” The room began to spin in and out of
focus. “My name is Detective...Ken
Hutchinson. Call Starsky at
Metro... Oh, God...please. The number...the number is... Starsky...I need... Starsky...”
The
stranger continued to stare at Hutch long after he passed out.
The man
was preparing to slide the syringe into his own arm when Hutch woke for the
fourth time. He didn’t feel as horrible
as he had during the earlier moments of consciousness, but the tremors and pain
were not long in coming. He watched
through half-closed eyes as the stranger injected himself, then released the
rubber tubing from around his own bicep.
The man
looked at Hutch blandly as the rush of the drugs coursed through him. “Who’s Starsky?”
Hutch
looked at him blankly, struggling to moisten his lips.
“You
called out for him a few times. And
earlier, you said to call him.”
Hutch’s
voice was raspy. “My partner.”
The man
nodded, as if understanding some great truth.
“Your partner.”
Hutch
tried to focus past the pain raging through him and the desperate craving that
snaked up from deep inside, demanding the release offered by the drugs. “Who...who are you?”
The
stranger’s eyes were glazing over.
“Name’s Emery. Nate Emery.”
“You...work
here?”
The
other man snorted and shook his head.
“Hell, no, I don’t work here. I
probably belong here, but I don’t work here.”
“You’re
with...Endicott...and McMillian?”
Emery’s
eyes narrowed with distaste. “Yeah, I’m
an agent. Your tax dollars at work,
Detective.”
Another
lightning strike of pain ripped through Hutch’s guts, drawing him in on himself
as much as the leather bonds would allow.
The agony left him gasping and pale.
Emery staggered to his feet, inadvertently crushing the empty
hypodermic’s glass tubing. He continued
to the bedside stand and clumsily jerked open the drawer.
Hutch
thought frantically. “Wait,
Emery—look. I’m not...I’m not...going
to give you... any trouble, okay?
And...there’s no way I...can get out...of this bed, right? So you don’t need...to do that. All right?
Please...don’t.”
The
agent peered at Hutch’s pale and shaking face.
“You’ve got to be hurting, man.
Don’t worry about this crap—it’s not H, it’s methadone. Bringing you down nice and easy.”
Emery
reached up to the saline drip, fumbling with the hypodermic. Hutch struggled against his bonds. “I don’t...care! Come on...cut me some slack!
I don’t...want it!”
The
passion in Hutch’s voices stopped the agent.
“You don’t know what you’re talking about, Hutchinson. In a few minutes, you’re going to be begging
me for this.”
Hutch
stared at the other defiantly.
“No. Never.”
Emery
looked at the detective for a moment, then shrugged his shoulders and put the
syringe aside. “Sure. Whatever.”
After
the agent slumped down into his chair, Hutch threw his head back against the
pillow in relief and concentrated on breathing through the pain that continued
to wrack his body. He tried to imagine
himself again in Huggy’s upper room, Starsky at his side every second...
“You
haven’t asked why.”
Hutch
cracked his eyes open for a moment.
“Why, what?”
“Why
you’re being held here. Why the FBI did
this to you.”
“Oh,
I’ve got...a pretty...a pretty good...idea.”
“So,
why don’t you share it with us, Hutchinson?”
Hutch’s heart beat faster at the sound of McMillian’s despised
voice. Trailing behind McMillian was
Endicott as they entered the room, their expressions smug.
McMillian
was livid when he turned to Emery. “Why
is he awake? He’s not supposed to be
brought out of it so soon!”
Emery’s
dislike for the other agents was barely concealed in his nonchalance. “It happened.”
“That’s
not your decision to make, Emery. What
the¾?” McMillian looked
at Emery’s rolled-up shirtsleeve and the broken hypodermic on the floor. His expression changed instantly from fury
to a cool disdain. “Never mind. Just load him up and keep him quiet.”
Endicott’s
jaw dropped as his focus snapped from his partner to Emery’s rolled-up
shirtsleeve and the broken hypodermic on the floor. “Don’t you see what’s going on here? He took the¾”
“Shut
up, En.” McMillian shook his head.
“But,
he¾”
“Leave
it!” McMillian glared at his partner,
shutting him up. Hutch tried to follow
the sudden changes and why McMillian didn’t throw out the third agent for
shooting up. He was pulled from his
thoughts when McMillian turned his attention toward him. “So, Hutchinson, you were just about to share
your theory about how you got here and why.”
“Oh,
there’s something...I’d...like to share with you, McMillian, but I...don’t
have...my gun with me.”
“Cute.” McMillian picked up the full hypodermic and
reached for the saline bottle. “Time for a nap. You look dead.”
McMilllian’s
comment drew a hearty laugh from his partner.
Endicott looked at Hutch and shook his head. “Your partner looks almost as wasted as you do.”
“What
are you...talking about?” The waves of
pain and craving continued to roll over Hutch.
“When he...finds out what you’ve pulled...when he finds me...”
“Oh,
he’s already found you.” McMillian’s
voice held no small measure of malice.
“Identified your body at the morgue and buried you.”
“What?!” Hutch strained to sit up. “What are you...what are you talking about?”
“What’s
the matter? You don’t remember your
trip to the morgue? Or how about when
we rolled you down the embankment off Topanga Canyon Road?” McMillian leaned over Hutch’s prone body. “No, you probably wouldn’t remember any of
that because you were too busy being ‘dead’ at the time.”
Hutch’s
glare was murderous. “You’re crazy.”
“No,
just smarter than you gave me credit for.
I told you before, Hutchinson, you don’t mess with us. So, what do you remember?”
McMillian
stood with one hand on the saline drip and the other casually toying with the
syringe. Almost against his wishes,
Hutch’s mind picked up a thread of memory.
“The...the two of you came to...my house. Said my...my cover was blown.”
Endicott
crossed his arms in front of his chest.
“That’s right. And you refused
to come with us. Obviously, that was a
big mistake.”
Hutch
strained to remember more, the pain and desire for the release promised by the
methadone distracting him. “We
fought. And I...I was burned somehow. And...a fire...there was a fire.”
The
agent nodded. “Your kitchen burned.”
A new
memory struck Hutch. “Chloroform! That’s...that’s how you...got me.”
A
snicker from Emery turned the attention on him for a moment. “What’s the matter, McMillian, you and
Endicott can’t take down one guy by yourselves, so you have to gas him?”
Hutch’s
limbs began to tremble violently against the restraints as they cramped in
withdrawal, although his mind began to clear.
“You said I...was dead.”
McMillian’s
smile was brittle. “Which is why you’re
shaking like a broke junkie. There’s a
special department in the Bureau that specializes in drug research,
Hutchinson. They’ve come up with a
combination of stuff that can slow down a man’s heart rate and respiration so
low, it would take an ultrasound to detect it.”
The memory
of the first injection crept back into Hutch’s mind. “An opiate derivative.”
Endicott
nodded, mildly surprised. “You
remembered. It worked, and fooled a lot
of people, including Vic Monte, which saved your sorry¾”
Hutch
exploded, straining against the bonds hard enough to cause the raw spots on his
wrists and ankles to begin bleeding again.
McMillian
viciously pushed him down and pinned him to the bed. The weight of the agent’s body crushing against his chest caused
Hutch to writhe in pain as he gasped for breath. McMillian leaned in closer to the struggling detective. “Not just Vic Monte. Your partner, your captain, and your
family. They all believe that you got
wasted, Hutchinson. But it’s for your
own good. By making it look like you’re
dead, we’re keeping you alive. Don’t
you forget that. And don’t forget that
this never would have happened if you’d just gone into protective custody when
we told you to.”
McMillian
slowly straightened, taking the pressure off Hutch, and plunged the needle into
the saline drip.
Hutch
lay still on the bed, the mental anguish of what had happened warring with the
physical pain. “Starsky...”
McMillian
tossed aside the syringe. “Yeah, I
won’t lie and say it wasn’t rough on him.
He and Dobey ID’d your corpse at the morgue after we tipped off a couple
of patrolmen where they could find you.
Made this whole setup a lot more believable.”
Guiltily,
Hutch was almost grateful as the methadone coursed through him, relieving the
horrible yearning caused by the withdrawal and stripping away his anguish. “So, the coroner...was...in on this, too?”
Endicott
nodded. “He had to be. Faked your autopsy. He also dropped your body temperature from
ninety-eight to ninety-one degrees. It
may not sound like much, but when you raise somebody’s temperature by seven
degrees, it would boil their brains.
Lowering your body temp that much made your respiration and heart rate
drop even lower than the drugs alone could.
Hell, your partner bawled all over you and never once guessed you were
still in there. You were a cold and
stiff ‘stiff,’ Hutchinson.” Endicott
chortled at his own joke.
McMillian
grinned as well. “The cold stiffened
your muscles, too, so Starsky really believed you were dead. Autopsy stated the cause of death was
suffocation.”
Hutch
swore again, his words beginning to slur, as he realized Starsky would have had
to read the grim details of the coroner’s report.
“Don’t
take it too hard, Hutchinson,” McMillian smirked. “You had a great funeral.
Very touching. Let me tell you
about it...”
Hutch
did everything he could to block out McMillian’s recitation detailing his
funeral. The monologue took on a
nightmarish quality as it filtered through Hutch’s drug-hazed mind. He threw his head back into the pillow in
agony, both physical and mental, trying to shut out the agent’s voice. As he shook his head in denial, he caught a
glimpse of Emery seated nearby, his eyes smoldering with fury as he looked at
the spectacle before him.
When
Hutch regained consciousness, the room was completely dark except for the dim
light over his bed. He had long since
lost track of how much time had lapsed since his abduction. As he became more alert, he could make out
Emery’s still body lying on a cot in front of the door.
Hutch
coughed once and tried to clear his throat, not caring if it woke the agent
across the room. Emery rolled over,
facing Hutch’s direction. “How are you
feeling?”
When
Hutch didn’t answer, the agent sat up and swung his legs over the side of the
bed. “If you’re in pain, I can give you
something.”
“No.” Hutch’s answer was curt.
“Thirsty?”
“Yes.”
Emery
got up and crossed the floor, then offered Hutch a sip of water. The agent stood silently for a moment, then
sat in the chair next to the bed rather than returning to his cot. Hutch noticed he didn’t get the next dosage
out either.
“What...day
is it?” Hutch asked.
“Does
it matter?”
“I
suppose not.”
“Don’t
worry,” Emery sighed. “They’ll have you
off this crap in time to testify at the Monte trial. Probably in a week or so.”
“Emery,
look. Let me...just kick it, okay? No more...junk...no more methadone. Just...let me sweat it out.” Even as he said it, a cramp struck Hutch’s
stomach, and the now-familiar ache began to run through his limbs.
“Why? Why would you put yourself through that kind
of hell?”
“I...have
my reasons.”
“You
don’t know what you’re asking, Hutchinson.”
Hutch’s
vision was clear as he peered through the darkness and met the agent’s
questioning eyes. “Yeah, I do. Not that long ago I...was kidnapped by a
local dealer...Ben Forest.”
“Heard
of him. You take him down?”
Hutch
nodded. “Me and my partner.”
“Starsky.”
“Yeah. I’d been...protecting Forest’s
girlfriend...he wanted her back. They
jumped me, and...when I wouldn’t tell them where I...I was hiding her, they
strung me out.”
Emery
swore, and Hutch was surprised by the agent’s show of compassion. “That’s a helluva bad wrap. Did that go on your record?”
Hutch
shook his head and felt his body tremble.
“No, nobody...in the Department knew about it besides my captain...a
uniformed officer who swore he’d...never mention it, and my partner. Starsky...found me after I managed to get
away from them, and he...took me somewhere safe and...and we got through it.”
“Must’ve
been rough.”
Hutch
clenched his teeth against another wave.
“Yeah. I wouldn’t...have been
able to kick it without him. He’s the
best...friend I got in the world.”
A
stabbing pain caused Hutch to retch, but there was little in his stomach to get
rid of. He lay in the dark panting,
trying to remember the last time he had fought the addiction, what Starsky had
done, what he had said to ease the pain.
Emery
stood and crossed to the drawer.
“No!”
Hutch shouted. “Please! I can do this.”
Emery
stood with the hypodermic in his hand, undecided as he watched Hutch’s
agony. After a moment, a decision was
made and the agent sat, then rolled up his own sleeve.
A few
minutes passed while the drug took its effect on him. Hutch rocked against the mattress as much as he could within the
restraints, trying to dredge up what memories he could, his partner’s arms
wrapped tightly around him, the steady stream of encouragement whispered from a
tear-choked voice...
“This
is what you’d call irony.” Emery’s
voice cut through the increasing fuzziness of Hutch’s thoughts.
“What?”
“Irony. I’m supposed to be keeping you strung out
and you want to kick it cold, and all I want to be is...” Emery trailed off,
not able to find a word that could possibly encompass what he was feeling.
Hutch
focused on the older man slumped nearby.
The agent was most likely only in his early fifties, but the lines and
creases at his eyes and along his forehead spoke of things that aged a man. A few scars also marred the firm features,
and the once brown hair was more gray than brunet. Even in the dim light, Hutch could see the haunted depths of the
agent’s eyes.
“So
how’d you...get the babysitting assignment, Emery?” Hutch disciplined his voice to remain as steady as he could.
The
question garnered a barking laugh from the agent. “Babysitting? Yeah,
that’s about right. That’s about all
the Bureau thinks I’m good for.
Yeah. See, they’re just keeping
me busy until they can ease me into retirement. Keep me around until I can collect my pension, then they’ll show
me the door.”
Hutch
shook his head, trying to follow the other’s train of thought. He wasn’t sure if it was the agent’s
drug-induced rambling, or the effects of his own withdrawal that was muddying
the waters. “Why...why would they do
that?”
“Guilt, maybe. Cover their proverbial
backsides. Probably both.”
Hutch
shook against the withdrawal, but pushed himself to focus. “You’ve...lost me.”
Emery
seemed to sober for a moment. “You said
you and your partner—this Starsky—you’re close?”
Hutch
nodded. “I can’t even imagine
what...all of this has done to him.”
Emery’s
eyes took on a light of their own.
“I’ll tell ya what it did to him.
It ripped his heart right out of his chest. It’ll burn away at his guts until he’ll do anything to make the
pain go away...make the guilt go away.”
“Guilt?”
“For
not being there to stop it. Not being
there to keep you from getting shot.
Knowing he shoulda taken the bullet, not you.”
Hutch
shook his head, confused. “I wasn’t¾”
“And
there won’t be a day that he won’t remember, won’t see the blood on his hands.”
“Emery,
who...who are you talking about?”
The
agent jerked back to the present. “My
partner, Dan. Dan Phillips. He was my best friend, Hutchinson. Closer to me than my family or wife. Ex-wife, now. Dan and me worked covert ops.
Do you know what that means?”
Hutch
shook his head, causing the sweat from his brow to sting his eyes.
“That
means you do whatever you’re told, and you don’t ask questions. Dan was a sharpshooter. He could pick the wing off a fly in
mid-flight. The last assignment we got,
Dan and I were supposed to take out a military general. One of ours, Hutchinson. One of our own. This general had some dirt he was going to make public, and the
government didn’t want it out. Besides
the embarrassment, it might have jeopardized national security. Might have.
So, the only way to shut him up was to shut him down.”
Emery
looked over at Hutch’s stricken face.
“Does that surprise you? It
happens more than you know. Well, it
was all set up and everything was going just as planned, but at the last
minute, something went wrong. We had a
leak in the Department, and the general got tipped off. His people set up an ambush for us. Dan got caught in the middle of
it—trapped. When the shooting started,
I got nailed in the leg, shattered it in four places. I couldn’t help him, though God knows I tried, including dragging
myself as far as I could. I knew he was
gonna be dead unless we got a miracle.
I broke the cardinal rule and called the Bureau to bail us out, get Dan
out. But they said—are you ready for
this? They couldn’t do it, because it
would expose the operation and the Bureau.
Make them look bad. They told me
we were on our own. Dan took two
bullets, here and here...” Emery laid a
hand on his forehead and the other over his heart. “And it was covered up.
The official report said Agent Dan Phillips never existed. The papers said Dan was some anti-government
whack-job named Frederico Mendoza, who freaked out and tried to kill the
general and was taken out when he wouldn’t give up his weapon.”
The
agent ignored the tear that ran down the length of his face as the methadone
took over. “Dan had served the Bureau
for almost twenty-five years, and instead of burying him with honors in
Arlington where he belonged—purple heart in Korea, three service medals—he gets
labeled as some nut and is buried by the county with all the other unclaimed
bodies.”
Hutch’s
voice was soft. He now understood the
agent’s need for the escape the drugs provided. “What about his family?”
“Dan
didn’t have any family. I was his family.”
“Why...why’d
you stay with the Bureau? Why didn’t
you speak up...tell the truth?”
Emery’s
laugh was damp. “I could’ve spoken up,
but I knew what I was getting into when I took the assignment. Right or wrong, I serve at the pleasure of
the President of the United States. But
I hated them, Hutchinson. God, how I
hate them. And what better revenge for
me than to stick around and remind them every chance I can of how they screwed
up?”
“Why
didn’t they...get rid of you?”
“Guilt,
I suppose. My boss has a soft spot that
he doesn’t want anybody to know about.
Plus, they knew I could blow the lid off the botched assassination
attempt. Then again, they could just
kill me, too. Sometimes, I wish they
would.”
The two
men lapsed into silence, both struggling through agony of their own.
The
next morning, Hutch knew he was over the worst of the withdrawal. He had hardly slept the night before, and
the times he did doze, he woke up with his heart pounding in fear. The old memories of his abduction by Ben
Forest and his men were now intermingled with the faces of McMillian and
Endicott.
A groan
from Emery brought his attention to the other man waking. The agent scrubbed his face with his hands
and stretched, obviously uncomfortable from the position he had passed out
in.
“Rough
night?” Hutch quipped.
The
agent rolled his eyes, then groaned again as he stood and stretched out his
back.
“Look,
Emery. I don’t suppose you’d consider
letting me get up for a minute. You’ve
had me strapped down in this bed for I don’t know how many days now, and among
other things, I’ve got to use the john.”
The agent’s
expression was somewhere between mild amusement and suspicion. Hutch almost managed a smile. “I don’t even want to think about how that
was dealt with while I was drugged out of my head.”
Emery’s
expression told Hutch he’d rather not revisit those memories either. The agent reached for the restraint at
Hutch’s right ankle and paused, obviously torn.
“What
do you think I’m going to do? Overpower
you and make a run for it?” Hutch quipped.
The
agent rolled his eyes and released Hutch’s restraints, then even offered a hand
to steady him when he stood for the first time. Hutch thanked Emery and took a tottering step toward the small
bathroom adjacent to the room’s single outgoing door.
When
Hutch took a second step, he listed to his left and grabbed the back of the
room’s sole chair to steady himself. As
soon as Emery moved forward to help him, Hutch suddenly gripped the chair with
both hands and swung it up in a wide arc, striking the unsuspecting agent
across his back and head. Emery went
down in a pile and remained motionless.
Hutch
put his arms out to balance himself when the room began to spin. When he felt stable enough, he tore off his
hospital gown and quickly stripped the agent of his pants, shirt, attendant’s
coat, and shoes. It took him longer
than he would have liked with his hands trembling violently.
After
he was dressed, Hutch made his way to the door and peered out. Deciding it was clear, he paused only long
enough to nod his thanks to the unconscious agent before he slipped out the
door.
If
Hutch had taken a moment to look closer, he would have seen the slightest smile
gracing Emery’s mouth.