| Don't Walk Away By: Stephanie His Point Of View I knew she would be there. It was always where she went to hang out. We had actually met here. That night was so long ago, it's hard to believe what happened to us. From the second I saw her, I fell in love with her. Honestly, she was my first love and of course I had to go and screw that up. Everything good that comes in my life goes bad because I'm too stupid to know what to do with any of it. It's like whatever I touch becomes poisoned and dies soon after I've come in contact with it. Many times, I've told myself that this just can't be true, but when I look back at what I've gained and what I've lost, it's almost impossible not to believe. Catlyn was the hardest thing for me to let go. That night, when I left her because I was scared, I knew that I had completely messed up. Of course I didn't tell her that I was scared I told her that I had met someone else. It was the hardest thing that I have ever had to say in my life. When I looked into her beautiful chocolate brown eyes, I could see her heart breaking. It took everything that I had in me to prevent myself from embracing her and telling her that everything would be alright because I wasn't really going to leave and I had only said what I did because I was scared. Now when I think about it, I don't know what scared me so much. I knew that Catlyn was the one for me and that didn't bother me at first. Then things started to get serious and that's when the fear started to sink in. And as you know, I ruined all of it. The reason why I'm here tonight is because I want to reclaim the love of my life. I'll tell her how I really felt and apologise for being so stupid. So here I am, sitting in the corner of a local club. Though this club wasn't like others. It wasn't there for people to become intoxicated, it was there for people like myself to have some good, clean fun. I sat in my seat nervously for what felt like an eternity. With each passing second I grew more axious. My eyes were constantly scanning the crowd for any sign of Catlyn. I had to make sure that I saw her before she saw me because I'm positive that she would leave before I had the chance to say anything to her. Finally I saw her, laughing and smiling with her friends. I couldn't help but smile myself. Seeing her happy always made me feel good. I was intoxicated by just the sight of her. Butterflies were starting to grow in my stomach and I knew that I had to wait for the perfect moment to go talk to her, when she was away from her friends. I sat in my chair and stared at her as a lion would its prey. The pace of my heart was rapidly increasing as persperation started to form on my face. Now, I had to make my move now before I went crazy. Casually, I made my way towards her. Her Point Of View A smile was plainly displayed upon my face as I swayed to the music. I was really having a great time and then I saw him. Nick. The first man I had ever given my heart to. Obviously that hadn't mattered to him because he tore it apart. Now here he is, walking towards me like nothing had ever happened. I didn't have enough time to get away so I had to give myself a quick pep talk. Whatever he said to me, it meant nothing, like I had to him. I wasn't going to let myself fall back into his arms as if nothing had happened, he would have to be crazy if he even thought that was a possibility. Calmly, I tired to act as if I hadn't noticed him, hoping that he hadn't seen me. My eyes were shut and I was lost in the music and my thoughts when I felt him touch my shoulder. I would know his touch anywhere. I fought to regain my composure as I opened my eyes and found Nick standing before me. His beautiful ocean blue eyes staring at me... No no no Catlyn don't think like that, I told myself. Just tell him to bug off and that'll be the end of that. "Catlyn," Nick said to me. My heart stopped. I couldn't figure out the power that his man had on me. He had simply said my name and my knees had gone weak. "Look Nick, whatever it is that you have to say, I don't care. Just leave me alone," I said trying to sound as strong as I could. Nick stared at me for a second and if I didn't know better I would have sworn that he looked hurt. "Please just listen to me for a second," he pleaded. "I just want to talk to you for a minute. About when we broke up..." "I'm not getting back with you," I interrupted. There was no way that I was going to put my heart out in the open again. He had already proven how much that mattered to him. "Catlyn, just let me tell you.. I only broke up with you because I was scared. There was never anyone else!" His Point Of View "Catlyn, just let me tell you.. I only broke up with you because I was scared. There was never anyone else!" I confessed on the brink of tears. "What the hell could there have been to be afraid of? I loved you," she said with confussion in her eyes. "I was never going to leave you if that's what you thought." "No, that wasn't it," I answered. There had been a time when I had considered the idea that she may have one day dumped me and I led myself to believe that by breaking up with her first would result in less pain, but I was wrong. Either way I would be hurt. "I knew that we were ment to be and that's what scared me. I'm twenty-three Catlyn and I've never been in love before and everything about it scares the crap out of me." "We could have worked on that," was her reply. "I know that now. Everything was just so jumbled together before. Now that I've had time to think, everything just makes more sense, so please, can we try this again?" "Nick, you don't seem to realize that I've been hurt by all of this too," she told me. Man, did I know her pain. I've felt it every second of everyday since we broke up. "I know Catlyn, but please, I think we can get through this. We just have to work together because I know that we're meant to be." "Nick, please, I can't risk having my heart hurt again. You have to understand that." I looked at her sadly. I couldn't help myself, I was overcome with grief. "Now, can you just please leave me alone." My eyes moved towards the door and I took a deep breath. One last chance. "Catlyn, if I walk out that door, you're never going to see me again. So decide now. What do you want? For me to leave or for us to have a second chance." Her Point Of View Was he really doing this to me? Was he going to make me decide this right now? Part of me wanted to be with him again because when I was with him, I felt secure and loved. Then there was another part of me that begged me to put an end of all of this. "Fine," I heard myself say. I was just going to have to let my heart make this decision. My lips lightly brushed against his cheek. "Good-bye Nick." He stood there, frozen in place. He must not have expected me to tell him to leave. After another minute passed by he ran his fingers through his hair and nodded as he had his way towards the door. I stood there and watched him walk away, tears in my eyes. That's when it hit me, I could let him go. Quickly I made my way through the crowd and pushed through the door. "NICK!" I yelled as I saw his figure walking down the street. He paused for a second. "Wait. I want to be with you." I exclaimed as I made my way towards him. "What made you change your mind?" "I guess the thought of never being with you again scared me more than I thought it would and I realized it fast enough to catch you," I answered as I grabbed his hand. "So what do you say, we start over and this time make things work?" "Sounds good to me." Review Here |
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