As they kissed his hands slipped down her back, wanting to slide under her baby blue shirt and remove it. He knew it was time to back off and broke the kiss. "Sarah... I'm gonna go home, babygirl... y'know.."
Sarah did know- she recognized the familiar expression on his face- part longing and part disappointment. "I love you." she said quietly, feeling bad she always left him frustrated.
"I love you, too, Sar." he said, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek and walking out to his truck. He got in and sighed. He'd told Sarah he didn't mind waiting until she was ready, he knew her first time was a big deal to her, but he didn't think the wait would be quite so long. He backed out of the driveway, heading home for another cold shower and some quality time with himself.
Sarah watched his truck disappear down the street. She knew he wanted more, and she did, too. It wasn't that she was unsure of him being 'the One' that she wanted to do it with, but more that she was just scared. She'd never been in love with anyone like she was with Nick, and had never even considered giving her virginity to any of her past boyfriends. But now she had Nick- who she loved and trusted, and had no clue what she'd do with if he was naked. Her lack of 'physical experience' with guys made her the most nervous, that she wouldn't know what to do, wouldn't be able to satisfy him.
He'd been so sweet to her, assuring her that he was fine with waiting until she was sure she was ready, even though he'd been waiting for more than a year now.
She got ready for bed, wondering what it would be like- to feel so close to him, to have him inside of her.
As she lay in the darkness, tangled up in her comforter, she began to wonder what she was waiting for. She could be with him now, wrapped up in his arms, lying skin to skin, instead of there alone. And she was never going to figure out how to please him by keeping him waiting forever. She rolled over onto her side having decided it was going to be her move- she was going to let him now she was ready.
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Sarah sat on the blanket, contentedly staring out at the ocean, Nick's arms around her, the remnants of their dinner re-packed in the picnic basket beside them. "I was thinking the other day... about how I want it to be... our first time together..." she said quietly.
Nick held her a little tighter, ready to memorize everything she'd say, so he could make it perfect for her, just like she wanted it. "How do you want it to be?" he asked.
Sarah turned around to look at him, the expectant expression on his face, moonlight reflecting in his bright blue eyes. She leaned close to him and whispered in his ear, "I want it to be just like this... you and I.. out here under the stars.."
"Just like this?" Nick asked, his hopes quickly rising.
"Just like now." Sarah said, moving to lay down beside him and motioning for him to come to her.
He immediately shifted, straddling her hips and leaning down close to her, the eagerness to finally feel her beginning to course through his body. "Like now?"
Sarah nodded, "I want to.. I'm sorry I've made you wait so long.."
Nick silenced her with a tender kiss. "It's okay, really. I just want you to be completely sure." he said, caressing her cheek with his fingertips.
"I am sure.. I want to feel all these things with you.. and I want to learn with you..." her voice dropped to a low whisper, "But I'm scared.. I don't know what to do."
Nick smiled at her and lowered his head to kiss her again, "We'll figure it all out, okay?"
Sarah returned his smile, "I love you."
"I love you, too, Sar." He kissed her lips once more, before skimming his lips down her neck to her chest, while slipping his hands up under her blouse. He felt like he'd been waiting so long and now he was getting the chance- he didn't quite know where to start- he wanted to be able to touch all of her at once. He jumped up for a second to quickly discard his clothes, and watched Sarah wiggle out of hers, shy about being naked in front of him for the first time. He straddled her hips again, slowly adding his weight to her body, lowering himself down onto her.
Sarah's hands roamed over his warm skin, his chest and then his back as he lay on top of her, his lips igniting fire everywhere they touched on her body. She sighed, she was ready for this experience. She could feel his penis throbbing against her thigh as he nibbled at her neck- the anticipation making her wet.
Nick's mouth trailed futher down her body, kissing her everywhere, wanting to taste all of her. His teeth gently bit at the sensitive skin around her nipples before slowly skimming his tongue over the darkened flesh, making Sarah moan breathlessly. He was quickly reaching the point of being too close to losing control, and he wasn't going to let it happen without being inside her. He looked up at Sarah, her eyes closed, chest rising and falling with the short breaths she was taking. He couldn't wait any more and slid up her body, pausing to spread her legs a further apart.
Sarah opened her eyes and watch him reposition himself over her, "Go slow, please." she whispered.
Nick kissed her, "I will.. just tell me if something isn't okay.." His hand slipped down over her hips, to trail his finger over her pussy, separating the slick lips and carefully pushing the tip of his cock inside her.
Sarah tensed a little in uncertainity of what she was about to feel. She tried to let Nick's softly spoken words sooth her as he very slowly slid deeper into her. She closed her eyes again, trying to fight the tears she could feel springing up. "It hurts." she said, voice trembling.
Nick stopped moving, "I'm sorry, babygirl.. just wait a second, try to relax." His whole body seemed to be wired, luxuriating in the tightness surrounding his cock.
Sarah took a deep breath and squirmed a little underneath him, trying to make, herself more comfortable on the blanket covering the lumpy sand. She felt him slide in deeper as she moved and heard him moan softly. She tried to concentrate for a second on everything around her, the sound of the waves, the stars above them. The initial pain had eased some, but the feeling of him inside her was still overwhelming her senses. "I.. I'm okay." she said, locking her eyes on his, instantly comforted by the love and concern she saw in his eyes.
Nick slipped his arms underneath her, holding her close and captured her lips in a slow sweet kiss as he began rocking his hips in a gentle rhythm. He moaned at the silky wet grip her pussy had on him, his climax building quickly.
Sarah sighed shakily as he moved against her, her body becoming accustomed to the feelings and beginning to ler her enjoy them. She loved having Nick holding her so tightly, their bodies pressed together in a passionate embrace.
Nick's thrusting became faster, still trying to be as gentle as possible, but he couldn't hold back much longer, finally being with her had pushed him to the edge so fast. He felt his balls tighten and his muscles tense, "Sarah..."
She shivered at the sound of his moaning her name. She slipped her arms around his neck and kissed him softly, "I love you."
Her whispered words had barely reached his ears as his orgasm rushed through his body, causing him to growl softly as his warm fluid emptied into her body.
The intensity of his release made Sarah cling even tighter to him as he shuddered in her arms. He looked up at her for a second, taking a deep breath, then kissed her, more fiercely than ever before. "I love you, Sarah."
She smiled at him and watched as he moved off of her and sat beside her, then pulled her into his lap and wrapped the blanket around them. She leaned back against his chest, her mind already replaying what had just happened.
"You alright?" he asked quietly.
Sarah took his hand and held it, slipping her fingers between his, "Mmmm hmmm." She was silent for a moment, then said, "Thank you for waiting."
He swept her hair to the side, and kissed her neck, "I just wanted you to be sure."
"I've been sure.. I knew I wanted it to be you.. I was just waiting for the perfect time." she said.
He hugged her tightly, "Was this it?"
Sarah turned to kiss his cheek, "Yes."
