| Here's the deal...this is a very serious thing for me. So if you are going to joke about it or not keep it as important as it is...please stop reading now and find a better use of your time. The following is a dream I had before I left for college. I think it's symbolic, but I can't figure out what it means just yet. The list glared up at me, but the words blurred together. Dreams are always like that. I looked over at the rest of my family. They all had lists too. The members of some other church had passed them out to us. We had to find the things on this list. It was very important. We had to get the enlightenment. I took the list in my hand and set off. All too soon time was up. I had searched everywhere, but had been unable to obtain one item before it was too late. I confronted the ladies in charge. They smiled and said it was alright. I had enough to go on. I turned to see my brother, Tyler, who had completed the tasks before I had. He stepped onto the platform and rose up out of sight. I can't remember if Christy went before or after him, but I knew she had gone as well. I'm sure my mother would soon follow. The kind lady directed me over to a screen. "What is your opinion on...." It was a multiple choice test. I pushed a sorta agree button first, and a reprimandation came up. It urged me on the importance of not being "luke warm." I suddenly realized what kind of test this was. I did what I always do under such circumstances. I just figured out what they wanted me to answer and chose that. Until I got to the last question. I knew the answer they wanted, but I also knew the truth. It was asking me to agree with something that was against my principles. So I disagreed, but I also gave a long explanation of why I had chosen the way I did. I knew because I had made that choice that I wouldn't be able to follow my family. I turned away, but the lady stopped me. "Wait! The committee was so impressed by that last answer of yours that they have decided to let you go. Please step onto the platform," she said. I was a little surprised, but didn't argue. I knew this was something that I needed to do. And then my mind turned to Noah. He would obviously be unable to complete the work necessary himself. Someone would have to take him. So I went and took my precious little brother in my arms and wrapped him up in my coat. Gently I touched his face to keep him calm as I stepped onto the platform. I looked down at him one last time, then held him close as I felt my feet lift off the ground. I looked up and felt myself being surrounded by a white light. This was the enlightenment. I woke up before I got to see what it was that I had been seeking after. If you have any comments or suggestions as to the meaning of this and if they are serious, feel free to go to my guestbook or e-mail me. Thank you! -Tracy |