January 6, 2003 - (Monday)
Just a quick update to say HAPPY New Year. Had a nice vacation, came back to a lot of work and am happy to be back and be busy! I'm trying to put the worry behind me and worry about something when there is something to worry about, but it's really difficult, but I'm trying. I was really surprised to see how many emails I had when I returned -- I thought a lot of people would be out on the 2nd and 3rd, but I was wrong...Oh well, jumped into work with 2 feet and got through a lot of stuff today.
I'm totally back in check with my eating. I'm still down my 125 pounds, but I was down a little more (I'm up 1.5 pounds)...so I have to get back in gear and I'm so ready. I really haven't been terrible but I've been snacking a lot more than I should and I've stopped that today (even yesterday I was really pretty good - no pretzels..lol). Life is good and I have to remember how far I've come. I've really embraced the last year to make a lot of changes and have pretty much met every challenge. I have got to get moving to lose the last 20-30 pounds. I really want to achieve this milestone of attaining a goal weight and I don't want to fall short of it. When I look in the mirror or see myself in pictures, I still see an overweight woman. I don't want to feel that way, I want to look in the mirror and see someone who's not overweight...and today, that's what I see...someone who could stand to lose 30 pounds...Ugh, the struggle...but the struggle is definitely easier with this tool and I know, if I put my mind to it, I can do it...So, as someone who never makes resolutions, I'm making this one to do everything possible to eat well and take my vitamins, exercise daily and to utilize this tool in the best possible way. I am blessed with not behaving in a compulsive way anymore, I don't know what the surgery did to me, but I don't behave with food the way I used to, and that's not for everyone. Some individuals still have compulsive behavior that they struggle with after the surgery..and so far, knock on wood, that compusiveness hasn't returned. I don't know if it's for good, but for the last 12/13 months it has not resurfaced. I have to take that gift and use it to rid my body of these last pounds. 20-30 pounds is not a little bit, it's going to take hard work to get rid of these pounds and I'm gonna do it!!!!! My biggest issue has been adequate protein and consistent exercise. I'm going to start the shakes in the AM for breakfast, start the day with 25-30 grams of protein might be just what I need...so, stay tuned for my progress, I'm hoping the scale starts moving for me.... Other than that, I'm doing great, feeling fine and back to work and adequately happy....what more can a girl ask for...other than winning the lottery :) Ok all, till next time...be good to yourself...you deserve it.. :)
January 8, 2003 - (Wednesday)
Well, it's Wednesday and it keeps snowing and I'm going NUTS!!! I hate the snow...I hate shoveling, I hate scraping the car, I hate warming up the car....ARRRRGH!!!! I want SPRING to get here quickly!!! Oh on food news, I'm back to eating well, snacking less and drinking ALL my H2O.....happy happy -- joy joy!! *lol* I'm being a good girl and am thrilled about it. Let's hope the scale starts noticing. Ugh, I'm addicted to the scale.. :)
Some progress on the shore house....When I was in FL last week, my Mom and sister went to the beach and here's the progress of the house...Boy it's looking like a house...isn't it?? There is still so much to do on the house but it's certainly coming along. The entire inside is gutted and walls are down --- so it's really exciting now.
Oh well, heading back to FL, will be returning on 1/18. Hope everyone has a good week...until next time.. :) |
