Kylee Marie CorneliusJuly 2,

Kylee Marie Cornelius
July 2, 1998 8:51am
6lbs 11ozs 19.5ins

I found out I was pregnant Nov. 97. We were all so thrilled. After Courtney had died I couldn't wait to get pregnant again. Every month I would end up crying because I had started my period. Finally in Nov. I was a couple days late. I couldn't stand it so I took a home pregnancy test. It came out positive. I cried, of course...happy tears. A couple of weeks after I found out I was pregnant, I started spotting. I was so scared, I didn't want another baby of mine to die. Well everything turned out fine. June 29,1998 I had a Dr.'s appt. I told him that I was starting to cramp and swell. He decided that we would do an amnio to make sure the baby's lungs were developed. July 1, we went to do the amnio, but they couldn't find a pocket of fluid that would work. They noticed that my placenta was starting to age and I still had 3 weeks till my due date. My dr. decided to go ahead and take the baby. He said she would be better out of me then inside. He scheduled the section for the next day. We were so nervous. I don't think I slept that night. July 2 we went to do the c-sec. They had to put me out do it because they couldn't get my spinal block or epidural to work. When they told me they had to put me out, I was so scared. I mean after all, I had already lost one baby, I didn't want to lose another one. David didn't leave my side. Even after Kylee was born and he heard crying this time, he stayed and held my hand. My mom got to be in the O.R. also so she was back spoiling Kylee already. After they took Kylee to the nursery they noticed she was breathing really fast. Well her lungs never filled up with blood, which meant she wasn't breathing in enough oxygen, which was causing her to breathe so fast. They also discovered she had a heart murmur. After I finally woke up I didn't even get to hold my baby again. I didn't get to hold her the first day and a half. How do you think that made me feel to see my baby hooked up to all these machines. I was so scared, I did not want to have to bury another baby. We got to hold her the next night, which made me feel a little better. It was so nice to hold my baby girl!! She had to stay in the hospital a week and had to come home on a heart monitor. She is 16mos old now and is doing really well. They don't hear her murmur anymore and say she is doing wonderful!! She means everything to me. I love her sooo much. She knows where her sissy is. When we go out to see Courtney, she always wants to get out of the car and always when we leave she blows kisses! Its so cute, but sad. I would love to have another baby, but I don't know that if I want to go through all the problems I had. So I guess we'll see what happens.