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SERIES : the Adventures of Buffy & Spike

PAIRING : Buffy/Spike

RATING : NC17

SPOILERS : major spoilers, I’ve used actual show quotes from season four of Buffy.

DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters.

NOTES : I didn’t like season 4 with Buffy & Riley, so I rewrote it.

 

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      He didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want to push her but he just had a bad feeling about this. But what could he do about it? WAS he jealous over her need for revenge? WAS he mad because she wanted revenge for hurting Angel? Or was it more? Why didn’t she want to hurt the Initiative for what they did to HIM? Was that it? Of course whatever the case, he thought it best for her to have some alone time. Chances were that Faith wouldn’t show up so soon after the morning confrontation with Buffy at the college. He decided to go get a drink and drown his sorrows.

 

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      What the hell was going on? She was trying to kick and break free but their hold on her was too great. “Get me a sedative. NOW!” The doctor screamed.

      “HOLD HER!” Another man said.

      “I HAVE TO GO HOME! SHE’S WITH MY MOTHER!” She tried to kick again, but to no avail. She felt the needle prick her arm, “NO!”

      “Just lie still.” The doctor said.

      “You don’t understand.” The drug was kicking in and she was drifting off.

      “Keep holding her.” The man said.

      “She’s taken my... my body.” She said as she gave in to the blackness all she could murmur was, “Help me Spike...”

 

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      He was standing under the stairwell at the Bronze and he needed a refill. Though no amount of alcohol made him feel better, he could try. He started walking over to the bar when he bumped into someone. “Ooo!” The familiar voice said.

      “Oh, you.” He said, not sure if she was still mad or not. He wished they could just shag and make up.

      “And you.” She said hesitantly. Something was different about her. He looked into her eyes but didn’t see the love, the spirit, or the spunk. He saw a stranger.

      He decided to try something. “What? Are you keepin’ tabs on me? You gonna give me a hard time now?”

      “Um, do I usually give you a hard time?”

      “Very funny. Well, you don’t have to worry about me drinking. Unless you’re here to protect innocent beers.” What the hell was going on? The girl he was looking at was NOT his Buffy. Well it was, but it wasn’t.

      “You’re a vampire.” He had to play along, obviously whoever this was, didn’t know about his and Buffy’s relationship.

      “Was a vampire. And as soon as I get this chip out of my head I’ll be a vampire again. But, until then, I’m just as helpless as a kitten up a tree. So why don’t you sod off?”

      “Okay.” She turned around and started to walk away. He couldn’t let her leave.

      “Oh fine! Throw it in my face. Spike’s not a threat anymore. I’ll turn my back! He can’t hurt me!”

      She turned back around. “Spike?” She asked. “Spike.” She slowly walked up to him. “William the Bloody with a chip in his head. I kinda love this town.”

      She was standing so close to him. It wasn’t Buffy. “You know why I really hate you, Summers?”

      “Cause I’m a stuck up tight ass with no sense of fun?” This WAS NOT HIS Buffy! Panic began to set in. AND if this was not Buffy, where was she?

      “Well, yeah, that covers a lot of it.”

      “Cause I could do anything I want, and instead I choose to pout and whine and feel the burden of Slayerness? I mean, I could be rich, I could famous, I could have anything... anyone.” She pressed her body into him and advanced on him until his back was against the wall. “Even you Spike.” If she only knew how true that was! “I could ride you at a gallop until your legs buckled and your eyes rolled up. I’ve got muscles you’ve never even dreamed of. I could squeeze you until you pop like warm champagne and you beg me to hurt you just a little bit more. And you know why I don’t?” ‘Because you’re not Buffy.’ “Because it’s wrong.” She laughed and backed away brushing her hand over his cock. He had to give the girl credit; she was right on all those accounts. Buffy could do all those things, and now he wanted HIS Buffy.

      “I get this chip out...” ‘and find MY Buffy,’ “you and I are gonna have a confrontation.”

      “Count on it.” She said, walking away. He stood for a moment and threw his bottle against the wall. DAMN IT! He HAD to find her. What the hell happened? He started to leave and noticed his lack of arousal. ‘That’s funny.’ He wasn’t the least bit attracted to whoever that was. ‘Focus. Find Buffy.’ He’d try her house first, then he’d go to Giles.

 

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      Okay, the men were ready to die for this, this was NOT good. She’d tried to explain, but what did they know? FUCK! What was going on? What about Spike? She’d just left him standing there. Her mother? Her friends? She HAD to get out. Okay, she had to prove she wasn’t Faith, and prove it quick, she hated Faith’s clothes. She felt awkward, although glancing down, she had always wanted bigger breasts. ‘NO! Bad Buffy!’ She had to think of ways to prove to the Council that she wasn’t Faith.

      “They’ve ordered the kill.” She heard from outside the truck. The kill? What the hell were they talking about? What kill?

      The next thing she knew, there was a gun through the bars of the window. ‘Now or never.’ She swung her legs and clamped her boots around his hand, pulling quickly and forcefully, his face hit the window and he dropped the gun. She grabbed it with her feet and shot the chains. ‘Free. Good.’ They’d be coming for her. She shot again at the padlock on the door and jumped in the front cab. “Keys, keys.” She found them and turned the car on. ‘Shit!’ She flung the door opened in time to clobbered one guy and he fell. “Okay. I’m good at his.” Where the hell was the gear? “Drive.” She slammed on the gas and was on her way. “Okay, good, get to Giles!” She drove.

 

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      No luck at her mum’s. She’d said Buffy seemed fine, a little distracted, and left. As much as he liked Joyce, she was completely clueless. He flung the tarp over his head and was his way to Giles’.

 

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      She opened the door. “Giles!”

      “Aaah!” He said coming down the stairs.

      “Don’t move. Okay, Giles...you have to listen to me very carefully. I’m not Faith.”

      “Really?” He asked inching closer to the hallway.

      “Really.”

      “Cause the resemblance is striking.”

      “I know Giles. You just have to... stop inching. You were inching.”

      “Look, I know what you’re going to say, and...”

      “I’m Buffy.” She said, hoping he believed her.

      “All right, I didn’t know what you were going to say. But that doesn’t make you any less crazy.”

      Just then the door burst open. “GILES! SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY WR...” it was Spike! Their eyes met. “Cor Bethy, some chit’s wearing your body.” He threw the tarp down.

      “Spike! You know it’s me?” He grabbed her in his arms.

      “Or course I know it’s you.”

      “But how?” He tried to kiss her, but turned away.

      “I’d know you anywhere Slayer. I ran into your body last night and it wasn’t you, talk about a shocker. Whoever it was, obviously didn’t know about us. Who is it anyway? And whose body is this?”

      “Faith, the other Slayer. She switched. I mean, she had some device thing, and for all I know she’s take my body to Mexico by now.” Giles approached her cautiously. “God Giles, it’s me. Can’t you just look into my eyes and be all intuitive? I knew it was you when you went all demony.”

      “Look Watcher, it’s Buffy.”

      “And how do I know, Spike, that you didn’t team up with Faith? You did say you’d send her after us.” Giles said.

      “YOU DID?” She hit him in the arm.

      “I was joking. I was mad, I’d just gotten the crap kicked out of me.”

      “Okay, Faith, if you’re Buffy, how did I turn into a demon?”

      “Ethan Rayne, stupid idiot. Oh and when I had psychic power, I heard my mom think that you were like a stevedore during sex. Wh... do you want me to continue?”

      “Actually I beg you to stop.”

      “What’s a stevedore?” She asked but she didn’t care. She had Spike’s arm around her and everything was okay.

      “All right, let’s um... I need you to explain everything.”

      “I don’t know. I got to Mom’s and Faith was there. I crashed through the window and we fought and she slammed hands with me and this light flashed and all of a sudden I was looking at my body. Then she punched me and the next thing I knew I was in the hospital. Then they drugged me and I blacked out. Next time I came to, I was in an armored car and chained up. I got free, they were gonna kill me! I came straight here. I have no idea where Faith is.”

      “OH WAIT! Your mum said something that you, or Buffy, or rather your body, Faith, had her credit card for something, maybe she’s got a flight or something. You could go and stop her from getting on the plane.”

      “Good idea. Giles, call my mom.” Giles left and Spike pulled her close to him. He leaned in to her lips and she pulled out of his arms. “I’m sorry, I’ve gotta... I’m sorry...” she said rushing to the bathroom.

      What was wrong with her? He started to go after her, but Giles stopped him. “Spike? Joyce isn’t home, I’m going to look for her at work. I’ll be back as soon as I can.”

      “Okay.” Giles left and he walked back to the bathroom. He knocked on the door. “Bethy?”

      “Go away.”

      “Come on, let me in.”

      “No.”

      “Then I’m gonna sit right here.” He took off his duster and sat against the door.

      She looked in the mirror. What if she never got her body back? What if she had to look like this forever? Spike wouldn’t want her anymore. She sunk to the floor crying.

      “Slayer?” He asked.

      “Just leave.”

      “Is this about last night? Cause I’m not jealous over Angel. I just didn’t wanna see you get hurt.”

      “Well, guess I shouldda listened to you. If I had stayed with you, I might have my own body.”

      “Yeah, but your mum might’ve gotten hurt. Would you opened the door please?”

      “No. I’m hideous.”

      “Slayer, that’s not possible.”

      “Who knows what diseases the little tramp has. I’m going to be stuck in her body forever. We’ll never fix this, what are we gonna do? That’s IF we find her.”

      “We WILL find her.” He said reassuringly.

      “Just leave me.”

      “I just wanna hold you. Let’s just sit on the couch. You shouldn’t be alone.”

      “Why would you wanna touch me?”

      “Cause I love you Slayer. I thought I’d told you that before and I thought you believed it. Please let me in.” No response. “You know what Slayer? That chit in your body? You know what she said to me?” No response. “Well, I’ll tell you what she said, she said she’d basically shag my brains out until I beg for more. She doesn’t know how true THAT is. But you know what?” Silence. “She was right on top of me, had we been naked, I’d have been inside her, if I had been the slightest bit interested in her.”

      “What?” She said opening the door. Spike fell backwards as the door was taken out from behind him. He hit his head on the floor.             He looked up at her and smiled.

“What I mean is that there ‘you’ were, for lack of better terms, all seductive and touching me, but it had no effect on ‘little Spike.’ It kinda surprised me, after all little Spike is just a guy, but I felt nothing for her. NOTHING. You see Bethy, it’s not your body I love, it’s what I see in your eyes, no matter what color they are.” He reached his hand up and touched her cheek and she closed her eyes and leaned into his touch. She leaned over him and pressed her lips to his lightly at first but the intensity changed, she went deeper and his arms flew up around her. She pulled away breathless. “Feel better now?”

      She sat back for a moment and then leaned over him and pulled his shirt out of his jeans and pulled it off him. He didn’t move, he just turned slightly and watched her, his bottom half still in the hall. She took her shirt off and he took in the sight of the new body. She unhooked the bra and took it off and smiled at him. “I always wondered what bigger boobs would feel like. These are nice, don’t you think?”

      “I guess.” He said tentatively.

      “You just guess? Surely you’ve seen lots in your days, and that’s all you have to say?”

      “Okay, they are REALLY nice.”

      “Want to have a feel?” She asked massaging one of her new nipples. “Don’t be shy, it’s not like it’s MY body.” She crawled over to him and leaned over his head. She kissed his chest and he took one of the rosy buds in his mouth and she moaned. “See? I told you they are nice.”

      “Slayer...”

      “Oh come on Spike. Lord know what’s she’s doing with MY body. Let’s have some fun with hers.” She sat up for a moment, caressing her breasts, the site of which was extremely affecting on him.

      “Are you sure?”

      “Don’t you want me?”

      “You’re my mate, when DON’T I want you?”

      “Then take me.” She took one of his hands and placed it on one of her new breasts. It was nice, MORE than nice, feeling more there. He liked Buffys’ but these were fuller, more like Dru’s truth be told, although he would NOT tell Buffy THAT truth. He watched as she got out of her pants quickly. “And Faith is of the no-panties-persuasion, and I’m chaffing I think, these pants are tight.” She was naked and he looked at her, her hips were wider, fuller, her body had a few more curves. “Well? Do we like my new body?”

      “I don’t know, it’s nice.” He said.

      “Well, let’s see.” She crawled over him again, this time her fingers fumbled at his zipper and she pushed his jeans down to his knees, still out in the hallway. She released his cock and began stroking him to hardness. Meanwhile, she straddled his face and shoulders and she was sopping wet for him. She didn’t smell the same, but it was a woman, nonetheless. He set to his exploration of her new body. He kissed her inner thighs and she keened in pleasure as he felt her mouth around his raging erection.

      “Cor Slayer!” He said. He licked the length of her vaginal opening before taking his thumbs and pulling her soft folds apart. He leaned up a little and drove his tongue inside and she forced her hips to his mouth, while at the same time he thrust up into her mouth. He found her nubbin next and sucked it in his mouth. It was slightly bigger than her other one, but the same responses came from her lips.

      Her teeth raked along the length of his cock and he hissed in pleasure. That wasn’t good enough. She repeated the action, this time pressing harder with her teeth until he growled loudly. She wondered if he was in game face yet. She felt two cold fingers thrusting inside her, and his cool mouth around her clit. She squeezed around his fingers and he growled again as she bit down on his cock lightly. “Bite me Spike! Bite me and make it hurt!”

      “I can’t and you know that.” Oh, he wanted to!

      “Then you vamp out and I’ll throw my leg into your fangs.”

      “Why?”

      “Cause I wanna feel it, and this is Faith’s body and her blood and she doesn’t need all of it. Are you vamped out?”

      He moaned in the affirmative as her mouth took him in again. She bit his cock harder than before and he growled at her pain and the next thing he knew he had a thigh impaled on his teeth. It wasn’t two puncture wounds, it was a gash on her thigh and it was bleeding. “No pain!” He said just as she bit down on him again. “OW!” She giggled a little.

      “Now suck me.” She commanded and he latched his mouth over the wound and his fingers resumed their plight inside her heat. He plunged three fingers inside her and squeezed on her clit and she screamed out and went flying into a double orgasm as he continues sucking on the wound. It was SO good! Suddenly he heard keys.

      “SHIT SLAYER!” He used his arms to pull his body with hers on top in the bathroom and she got up immediately and closed the door.

      “GILES?” He leaned against the back of the door now and she straddled him, waiting for a response.

      “Buffy? Spike?”

      “In here Giles.” She said.

      “What are you doing?”

      “I’m just...”

      “She’s upset, she’s crying, all a mess... give us a few minutes.” Spike explained as she sucked in his bottom lip.

      “Did you find out anything about Faith?” Buffy asked impaling herself on his erection. He stifled a cry into her shoulder.

      “Yes, flight plans.” She began rocking her hips slightly, squeezing around him.

      “Okay, give me a couple minutes.”

      “Right then.” Giles said.

      She slammed herself onto him. This body wasn’t nearly as tight as her own but she was able to squeeze him tighter. Faith probably had more practice with those muscles. In time, Buffy would be that strong. He sipped a nipple inside his mouth to keep from crying out as she pounded into him. He slipped his hand in between them and she began riding his finger as much as she was riding him. She bit into him hard as she felt her own release and his soon followed. She sat on him for a few minutes after, catching her breath. She pulled away from him and went about putting her clothes back on after grabbing some tissues and cleaning herself off. He followed suit and they were both dressed. “Well, what do we think?” She asked.

      “It’s okay, but I prefer your body better, but only when you’re in it.”

      “Me too.” She said and she started sobbing. He cradled her in his arms.

      “Hush, it’s going to be fine, you’ll see. Let’s find out what Watcher found.” They stood up after she had stopped crying and she stopped and looked in the mirror and started to sob again. “Bethy, listen to me.” He pulled her hair back from around her face and pulled it up above her head and laughed at the image in the mirror. “Looks like you stuck your finger in a electrical socket.” She giggled. “See? You’re laughing, I like that. Listen to me, we’re going to find her, and we’re GOING to make her take this body back. AND if for some reason we can’t, then I’ll love you in this body forever. It makes no difference what body you are in, you’re still MY Buffy.”

      “Thanks.” She said and they walked out. “Giles?”

      “Next time you feel the urge to copulate in my home, Buffy, do make sure I’m not going to be around and that I don’t know about it.” He said.

      “Sorry, but I needed...”

      He stopped her. “Faith’s got reservations for a flight this afternoon. I figure we can be there to stop her.”

      Just then the door opened. “Giles!” Willow asked.

      “Will!” Buffy exclaimed.

      “Oh my God.” Willow said.

      “Willow, wait. You don’t understand.”

      “You’re Buffy. You and Faith switched bodies. Probably through a Draconian katra spell.”

      “She understands better than I do.” Giles said.

      “How did you...?”

      “Tara.” Willow turned and Buffy got a good look at the blonde girl. “Tara, this is Buffy. Only really this time. And that’s her boyfriend Spike, you sort of met them before, but now it’s official.”

      “Hi.” She was shy, Buffy could tell.

      “Tara’s a really powerful witch.” Willow said.

      “Not really.” Tara said quietly while blushing.

      “No, really. She knew right away that you weren’t you. So we connected with the nether realms to find out what happened and we conjured this.” Willow explained and held out a box and opened it. Inside was a small glowing emerald sphere. “It’s a katra. Or the home-conjured version. It should switch you back, if you can get a hold of Faith.”

      “Thank God. This body isn’t the greatest.” Then Giles got a phone call. He spoke quickly and then hung up.

      “Buffy, you’re needed at a church. Some vampires have taken hostages, killing a few.”

      “But Faith!”

      “Xander and I will go to the airport to stop her, you must go and eliminate the vampires.”

      “But Faith is strong, I should go with you.”

      “Buffy, you must.” Giles ordered.

      “But my body!”

      “Buffy! Xander and I will take a couple weapons and handcuffs, and we’ll get her, you HAVE to go to the church. Innocent people are dying Buffy. Once we find Faith, we will bring her to you, so you take the katra. Now go.”

      “I’ll come with you Buffy.” Spike said.

      “No. You can’t, it’s church, too many dangers, crosses, holy water, the sun AND the Initiative might show up, you should stay here. I’ll call you and let you know what happens.” She kissed him quickly and left.

 

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      “You can’t win this Faith.”

      “SHUT UP! Do you think I’m afraid of you?” Faith was crying. Suddenly, she grabbed her by the shoulders and threw her to the floor. Buffy tried to fight back but sooner than she knew Faith was on her waist and it was raining punches. “YOU’RE NOTHING! DISGUSTING! MURDEROUS BITCH! YOU’RE NOTHING! YOU’RE DISGUSTING!” Faith grabbed her head and was pounding it on the floor. Buffy took the katra out of her pocket and grabbed Faith’s hand. She felt power surging through her and the next thing she knew, she was staring at Faith. She leaned back and Faith ran out crying.

      She took stock of her body, anger, rage, hatred, all were surging through her body. Faith hated herself? Was that possible?

 

 

~El Fin~

 

 

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