........I stopped by my son's tonight, he had called to tell me the papers came from the Hospital..the surgery date is October 3, 2003. As I read over the paper's, the wave of reality hit's deep within another brain surgery for my son..
He has been wanting to write a will and a living will..this coming week. He does not want to be kept alive by life support or feeding. He said if he ends up worse than he is, he doesn't want to be around. This young man has alot on his mind.
What is carrying him through right now is the chance to
become seizure free, if not, better controled. There is a spark of hope burnning deep within. He is very careful to fuel it in anyway at this point though. Once he said to me with tear's in his eye's, "mom, don't get my hope's up." All I could say is, "Hope is all we have." Hope for another day, Hope for better day. Hope for change, Hope for growth, Hope for Love..... There is strength in Hope...
I know personally, If a person has lost all hope it is very difficul to survive long.
My son's inner strenght and wisdom continues to amaze me. He has been through so much in his young life. He's had to get his affairs in order at 25, knowing he may not make it through this next surgery. With this type of surgery you are given a 50/50 chance and that is the chance he has to take for himself.
The word's......"Things are not always as they seem," caught my eye when I came across this graphic set...
Things can look pretty bleak at times, but those time can be the greatest times of growth. I don't know what's ahead for my son. But I do know that how ever things go in Seattle, I will contiune to rest in the peace I have within and the knowlege that , "He will be okay," no matter what.
Living life one day at a time. |
