::steps into his cabin on his ship,sits down at his desk and begins writing::

Dear Journal,

I have not been to the dome in quite a few days. I really need to go there a little more often. I really hope I see Chas today. I miss her and I feel as though things are eroding between us. I certainly hope not. I just don't want to lose her, even as a friend. Well,I guess that's all I have to say. Till we meet again journal.

Eden Arcane

::closes his journal and leaves his ship::

Journal Entry: 25 January, Eden Arcane

Wow, lots of stuff to write about. Haven't had the chance to write lately, due to the store and such. But, here goes nothing...

Vixen and I are on quite bad terms right now. It seems once or twice a week we exchange words. And I've said some pretty damaging things...but she has as well. I hope this crap ends soon, I don't need this on my mind as well as the other hundred things that are there.

Recently I have taken a great liking to Chastity. She just seems to much different from other women I've seen on the isle...she seems to have a certain mystique about her. She wrote me a poem, and it was one of the most beautiful works I've ever read. She also sent me a birthday cake and a bottle of wine that we later shared. I don't know exactly why I am fond of her...but I am. I'm drawn to her, as if she has something that I desparately need, but I'm not sure what that is.

We are scheduled to meet for dinner tomorrow night. I have purchased a great deal of things for her, at her request. She seemed to playfully suggest all that she wanted, that being a dress, shoes, a necklace, candy, and flowers...but I have every intent on giving her those. I already placed the shop orders. I hope she will be pleasantly surprised.

I also gave a large 5000 gold donation to the orphan's home. Hopefully it will be enough for what they need.

Anyways, that's all for now. I'll probably write in you tomorrow, after my little 'date'. I surely hope things go well, I really enjoy Chastity's company...

-Val

Journal Entry: 26 January, Val Lyndrae

"she just shakes her head as she looks at the order to be delivered, she instructs the girl behind the counter to have it ready, she goes to her office and shuts the door as she sighs, she sits down at her desk and pulls the journal to her and stares at the blank page a moment thinking"

Men! Bah what a fool he is. Like i said before he will learn the hard way. And i was right when i told him he was a big fool. At least I never used him to get things."smirks"

He claimed he loved me. But yet, he didnt as much as have a dead flower delivered to me. And he wants diamonds on everything he ordered for Chas. I really wish i had diamonds. I would deliver it myself to his house and stuff it down his throat.

Why are men so blind? And once again another one that thinks with the wrong head. He is just like the rest of them. And he has the nerve to say im the worst woman he has ever met. Yeahhhh well he will see that Im not. Let him spend his gold on her and then he can whine later when she dumps him.

Ah well I have things to do. No time to dwell on an idiot that thinks with his phallus.

Vixen

"she leaves the journal open to dry as she goes to have the order delivered"

Journal Entry: 26 January, Vixen Blade Carazzi

(moves acrossed to her mahogany desktop, as she slips into the pillowed seat, a light smile rests about her lips as she hears Raven off into the other room playing with her things, she then dips the quill into the ink pot and begins)

Dear Journal:

Well it seems its been ages since I have written anything worth while. As far as entries go, I am assuming this will indeed make up for the lot of them. Where to start? Well I suppose at the beginning. Boy meets girl, Boy is quiet to girl, girl allows the friendship and nothing more. No matter what I do I can not get Eden to speak with me, other then the basics. Alas its just a friendship. Moving along to the next, Girl teases boy. Boy responds and teases girl. They tease one another. Girl likes boy, Boy likes girl. Val is a very nice man, last eve we were playing back and fourth in the inn, as we usually do, of course this leaves Vixen upset and she usually leaves, just as she does when I play with Alterio. I do not understand her, she is married...if she cared still for the two men, why would she be married? Marriage is sacared. She shouldnt be flaunting about with that new man either allowing him to kiss her cheek, sing love songs to her, or seek his company. Mayhaps she is lonely, and misses single life, and this is why she gets mad at me..for doing very much what single women do. I know she cares for the Elder, but ...yet something tells me she gets insanely jealous when Val and I spend time together, for example the other night, she told me he beat her. Which is a lie. Why would you start something like that up with someone you dumped to marry another? What it is, she wishes her cake and wishes to fully eat it as well. Her men are off limits. Elder, Val, Alterio. It is not like that with Alterio, and Elder...I have no hidden feelings except friendship with either...I mean if I wanted more I couldve taken Alterio up on his one millionth crusade on bedding him, but I didnt, nor would I. Val on the other hand, I think I like him, more so then I should...he makes me feel alive again, I like that. Last night he donated money to the orphans, and we played back and fourth with things that I requested for myself. It was all in good jest, and by the gods I woke up to it all this morning...all of it. I do have to have a talk with him, I think they are wonderful gifts, but I do not feel right accepting such things, we arent courting however we do have a dinner date this very eve. It makes me wonder is he doing this to make Vixen jealous? Is he using me to get to her? this scares me....I have allowed the wall down, but if he so much as signals towards what I think he is doing, it will go directly back up no questions asked. I will not allow my heart to be hurt as Nemesio did. But alittle something tells me Val is genuine, as I am with him. Today I will follow my mind. Moving along, Raven NightWind. What is there to say about him? Well last eve I thought I was making progress with him, but last eve steered me wrong. He was cold and distant. I do not get it. I wonder if ..he was mad at me for something, I do not know I tried to stop myself and speak to him on my way home, but I couldnt just something about his coolness was piercing. Another I will not allow to hurt me. For now I will carry along, and see what developes if anything does. I am looking forward to my dinner date this eve. Well I have much to do this day, before I get lost in the land of day dreams.

Sincerely: Chastity D. De'Kartan

Journal Entry: 26 January, Chastity D. De`Kartan

The sun is setting far above the seas
And always returns from the flaming sea
One time I killed a bird
I shot the sling and I hit her
And a whole night and then a day
I cried for her and mourned her deeply
My mother didn't beat me
My mother didn't shout at me
In her hand she held a piece of bread
In vain she told me, in vain is your cry
What you killed, tears won't bring back
Years after that I gew up a young man
I fell madly in love with a girl
I don't know why, one day she died
And another day they burried her
It's been a long time since I shot a sling
It's been a long time since I saw a funeral
The sun is setting far above the seas
And always returns from the flaming sea

Journal Entry: 26 January, Raven Nightwind

Thoughts

No one on this Isle knows me. They think they know -what- im thinking, -why- I do things, -how- I should act. Believe me they know nothing. They have no clue what im thinking. But Tis their problem if they want to think its their business.

No one will ever truly know what Im thinking or how I feel. I dont let anyone that close. I never have and never will. Alterio is the closest to knowing me. And even he doesnt understand me.

"smirks" Let them keep -thinking- they know what goes on in my head. They havent a clue.

Well Im babbling again. I dont feel well, so I think Im going home for a nap. Maybe I can drag my husband to Dome later this eve. We havent spent much time together lately. He is keeping busy and so have I.

Vixen

Journal entry: 26 January, Vixen Blade Carazzi

Last night was just horrible. First, some illegal alien that had sneaked onto the island gets in my face -trying- to scare me. Well, that didnt work. I dont scare that easily. I shoved him away from me after i nicely told him to back away from me. Surprisingly, Khalidan defended me and told him he would have to fight him. Well, then the oh so brave one decided the odds were against him and headed for the door. But of course he had to have one last say..That he -would- return. Does that mean I should be shaking in my boots? "shakes her head" He wont get warned next time. I will just kill him. My patience are running thin lately.

And then a bit later we have Val and Chas. Cant they get it? I do NOT want Val back. I have no feelings for him. Whatever was there is gone and has been. I realized I didnt love him while he was gone. Before he left, we spent a lot of time together and yes I cared for him. But it wasnt love. I was on the rebound from Alterio. The same damn way he was from me when he met Chas and she started showing him attention. I was trying to save him more grief. Well now im the bad guy. NO, fraid not cuse im out of this. He is free to make his own mistakes.

Thing is, I didnt say anything to him last evening. BUT yet we argued again. I told him repeatedly to leave me alone.

After last night, I have no intentions of speaking to either of them. I dont need their childishness dumped on me. I have enough of my own problems to deal with.

Lets see.... ah yes then we have Alterio. I had no intentions of dancing in the cage last night. Who the hell does he think he is to ask If i have been dancing. No I haven't danced anywhere since I married his father. Not that its any of his damn business. My routine::: I work my ass off all day til im exhausted. I go to dome for a few glasses of wine to try and relax. Hell i seldom talk to anyone lately. Well, theres very few I talk to. Lately, its mostly just Marcus. He seems very nice. He talks of his family and the Knighthood he left. He joined the Renegades the other night. I have been a lot of work at the guildhall lately also. Recruiting new members and such.

Now, my husband...well we seem to be spending less and less time together lately. He doesnt come to dome. Some times he is awake when i get home but most times not. I think he is taking a bit more interest in the stables than he did when he first arrived back.

I have been asked why dont I divorce him. Why should I? I think he needs me. I also think he cares about me or he wouldnt have come back to the Isle. But then again I have been wrong before. He never says how he feels.

Well enough for now. I still feel horrible today but im going to work anyways. Have to stay busy.

Vixen

Journal Entry: 27 January, Vixen Blade Carazzi

Reading her Journal.

: Looking over the words put to parchment in the wife's hand, and finally feeling better than he has in ages..the salt air no longer assaulting his nose, but something he's acquiring..he takes the book from its place in her quarters after entering and not finding -her- there..and gets an eyeful.

Pacing the floors, damned near tripping over Alkane as he gets engrossed in the page, he alternates between a thoughtful silence and a reddening at the neck and ears.

He flips back some pages and continues to read..
and read..
and read..

He throws the book through a small windowpane in the foyer. The glass breaking causes Alkane to yell "I didn't do it!"..although Alkane was nowhere near it when it transpired.

"I thought she'd soften and accept her place in life. As a wife. But she spends her time there..fighting..arguing..over other men, or not..working..and filled with resentment." He mutters this as the maids come and sweep some of the glass that fell back inside from the wood framing.

"This Val person..my son Alterio...what drives her is love. She might not -say- much but I've seen the looks on her face that speak volumes. As if you can hear what she's thinking. It's belittling. Gira had a good way of doing that when we were first married..but she learned quickly to know better than to continue that behavior.

"She's..untameable it seems. She will have an ultimatum now if she cannot control herself and her anger: She comes to Achethe with me, to be my submissive, quiet and HAPPY wife, or she can stay here, wallowing in this...."

: The maid gasps as he thunders into his quarters and begins packing his bags. He noted the dates on her journal entries..so many filled with unhappiness AFTER the marriage. Maybe this woman just isn't ABLE to be pleased. :

Journal Entry: 27 January, Alterio Carazzi I

Last night was at first strange, but then delightful.

I came to the Dome, in the best mood I had been in, in a while. Chas was not there, so I sat down for a bit. Then I left for a short while, and came back. She eventually showed up, but she didn't seem herself. She then said that she couldn't have dinner tonight, because she felt 'ill'. Then I asked when we could, and she said never. I was completely comfused. She tnen explained that she didn't want to get involved in any triangle with me and Vixen. I tried to explain to her that I had no feelings for her, and any feeling that Vixen -might- still have, didn't matter. But she held strong, not wanting to get involved. I really couldn't blame her, honestly. Then, something strange happened. There was a long, awkward silence...then she just gave me a little peck on the lips, and whispered, 'I don't care what people think anymore'. I paused for a second, and we then 're-acquainted' ourselves.

And after that, we had a delightful time. We spent some time on the beach, where I showed her this experimental spell, that created a fascinating illusion upon the water. We played around a bit, and it was honestly the best time I've had in quite a long time, possibly the best time I've had on the isle thus far.

For a while, it seemed hard to see what the future held for Chastity and I. Now, if things go well, it's all to clear.

And I like it.

-Val

Journal Entry: 27 January, Val Lyndrae