Dearest Journal,

What should I do? Last Eve, Adam(I refuse to give him any title or show of respect now.) showed his true self. He entered and both Vixen and I were civil to him, until he said that Donk was the smartest thing on the island. Vix was pretty upset by that comment but for some reason let him go without harming him. I tried to ask why he would say such a thing and he said he was just jesting, I told him I didn't think one should jest in that manner with people that they don't know very well. After the discussion was thought to be over, and I turned away from him, the scoundrel snuck up behind me and whispered in my ear. The thing he whispered showed me his true self and in an instant made me hate him for trying to fool us all. He told me that his purpose for being on the island was to stay until Yule and make sure that there was no way that Neo could be brought back from the dead. Something inside of me snapped, and I felt anger like I never have felt before. I screamed at him and even then the idiot thought to make me think I had misheard him, I even believed that I had, until he repeated it out loud and my anger let loose again. If I were a violent person I probably would have drawn a weapon againest him, but the screaming was enough for me, we fought back and forth verbally while the others looked on, finally Kevorin said something to set Adam off and he drew his sword and headed towards him. Since I was not completely finished with him myself, I ran in front of Kevorin, it was my fight, I didn't want anybody else to get hurt.It wasn't necessary. Some of the events are blur in my mind, clouded by anger, but I know that for some reason Khal decided he had had enough and he and Adam began fighting. I did my best to try to stop them, but Khal would not listen and they continued until Adam was too weak to even stand. As he lay in a crumpled bloody heap at my feet so many thoughts ran through my head. I was trained to be a healer, and I was trained to heal those in need even if they were somebody that was hated, even if they were hated by me. If it was a tough decision, I still don't know if it was right or wrong, should I have followed my morals or my feelings...In the end I chose my morals and healed him. Everybody else would have left him for dead. I told him that I would kill him another time...but I don't think I have the power to kill. Sure I could fire arrows at a Sharken, but it wasn't real to me, it didn't talk to me, it didn't appear to have feelings. Am I weak for not killing him there on the spot? I wonder if my mercy will cause others harm? I am not sure what I will do. Khal and Kevorin are both concerned that Adam will come after me, he may, I don't know, I am afraid, but I will not let them know that. I have to live day to day, and try to stay behind the locked doors of my house or within the company of friends. Kevorin walked me home last night to make sure I would be ok, and Khal had some of his crew standing guard at my house. It seems I am well looked after. I appreciate it, thought its something new for me. Well Journal, I shall write more at a later time.

Rosalyn Lovine

*she leaves the journal open on her desk and moves to the window, scanning the area with a sigh and then heads out*

-Journal Entry 10 March, Rosalyn Lovine

**Sitting in an empty room of the Sandcastle, the slave dips a small brush into a pot of ink and writes in the symbolic characters of his native language**

Master has been visiting me very often lately. I think that he misses me. He usually waits until the middle of the night, and the girls keep watch and let him in without making a sound. It's important that nobody sees Master coming and going from here. If the people on the island found out I was still alive, it would be bad for us. Master has told me that the women would be upset if they knew I was alive.

It's because they hate me. They hate Master too.

I don't mind staying here in my castle. The women scare me, they are so violent and... I don't know how to say it, but they don't act the way they should all the time; like they are not only a single person... Does that make sense? The girls are always nice to me. They buy food and I have been teaching them how to cook. Sometimes they brush my hair when I forget, and they like to polish my Collar.

It's funny that I always forget to take care of it; after all, it's the most precious thing I own. I think that I must be used to having it there, and I don't remember that it needs to be taken care of. It's always getting tarnished and bloody, and it doesn't look nice. But the girls clean it and make it shiny. I've never seen it of course, it's on my neck and I cannot take it off. Master has given money to the girls to stay here and look after me the way that he did when I lived with him. They all seemed very happy to live here in my castle. I am glad. They are very nice and I think that if I am nice to them they won't have to grow up and become Women. I don't know what makes nice people like the girls turn out that way, but I don't want it to happen to them. I bought a Doll for Raven, it looks like me. I hope that she likes it because I cannot play with her for a while and this way she can still play with me. I don't have anything else to write about right now. Most of my time is spent in prayer and meditation. The girls are curious about the Way, and I have been teaching them how to follow it. It is too bad that they are not men and cannot understand; the way that men can.

I will have to try a different way to teach them, I think.

-Journal Entry 11 March, Dasanteki Hiretsukan

Dear Journal,

It has been quite sometime since I've written. Nothing important has really happened, except for the fact that... I told her how I felt about her. The good news is that i wasn't shot down, but she was not sure about how she felt. I ruined things once again. It's like everytime we try to have dinner, something happens and I have to leave. I hope she gives me another chance to redeem myself. I really miss her and I hope I have not completely ruined everything.

Eden Arcane

-Journal Entry 11 March, Eden Arcane

Dear Journal,

I had quite an evening.I finally was able to have dinner with Xanthia, without interruption. We talked of many things, but the most srprising thing was when she asked me if I wanted to kiss her. I hesistated at first, but she said it alright. It was one of the best times I've ever had. After dinner, I went back to the dome and a small brawl occured. I decided to stay out it,with good reason. The SSAG came and attempted to arrest Vixen, although it was not her fault that it occured, she was trying to break it up. A little bit before, I read the paper and Kuno got a bit scared, and then I found out why. (I think I'll skip that). I said that I'd talk to him later and clear everything up. I'm sure he just misunderstood. Well.. that's enough for now.

Eden Arcane

-Journal Entry 12 March, Eden Arcane

*Morte enters his quarters and immediately goes to his desk. He takes his journal and writing tools out of the drawers of his desk, and begins to write…*

Entry 131:

Ah, it has been a while since my last journal entry.

Well, the past few days have been quite odd, in general.

The other day, a few people at the pleasuredome, including Kevorin, BossKuno, and myself, fought with Lord Adam, and forced him out of the dome.

Unfortunately, the fighting caught the attention of some SSAG guards, and we were unable to continue the punishment that Lord Adam so-rightfully deserves…he WAS arrested, however, and the rest of us had to argue with the guards to avoid being arrested as well. Poor Vixen…she was almost arrested as well, for trying to stop the fight.

Tonight was just as odd as yesterday...Baby Crimson, who no longer is much of a baby, seems to have grown very fond of me. This still surprises me…I would not expect ANY child to like a person such as me…but, I am obviously wrong. His presence is somewhat pleasing for me, but at the same time, it brings awful memories to mind…memories that continue to plague my dreams, and turn them into nightmares.

*Morte sighs, and his eyes water slightly. He wipes his eyes and continues to write, hoping to forget about the memories, for now...*

As the night progressed, so did my drinking… *chuckles slightly, for he is still a bit nauseous*…I guess I must have had a tad too many drinks, for I ended up in a fight with G.P. Crimson. Now, if only I could recall why, I wouldn’t be as troubled as I am for eventually apologizing to him, for whatever I did. Had I been sober, HE would have been the one apologizing…that is, if he survived my wrath…

In other news…

Eyas finally proposed to Charquin. I am not surprised, but this is still shocking news. Eyas and I have been discussing the wedding plans, and we have also been considering giving me a significant role in the ceremony. Eyas wants me to be on my best behavior…now why would he make such an absurd request? Am I normally rude and reckless? Well…I shall not answer that…

Also...Vixen continues to bicker with me.... xxxxxx xxxx xx xxxxx xxxxxxxx x xxxxxxx xxxxxxx xx x xxxxxxxxxx xxxxxx xx xxxxx xx xxxxxxx xxxx xxx xxxxxxx xxxx xx. *Morte scratches off the writings about Vixen in the entry.*

I still wonder though…does Vixen really like me?

Perhaps I’m still drunk, to be writing such nonsense…she is a married woman, and quite an odd one at that…how could I possibly like her?

I think I shall rest now, for I should not stay up longer in my current state…

-Captain Morte P. Geist

-Journal Entry 13 March, Morte Geist

Being to busy to write the last several days lets see if i can catch up on some things..

Clean up and repairs are still going on at the Bazaar. Alterio II is finally overseeing that. Its moving along much quicker now than before. Hopefully all the shops will be reopened soon. Or back to doing full business at least.

I was damn near arrested the other night for trying to protect others from being arrested. Damn incompetent SSAG. They are crazy if they think i will go along peacefully. I was not involved in the fight in any way. Yes i kicked the guard.I refuse to just stand there and let them grab me and put shackles on me. Where are they when we -do- need them? Where were they when we were being attacked by sharken and dwarfs? No where to be seen. They are to protect us but they have not done so. But yet a common bar fight they come running and want to arrest everyone. Even the innocent ones. No i dont think so...I refuse to let that happan and i be damned if I will go peacefully to jail. They can fine me all they want. And they did to. Kuno paid the fine but the guard kept raising the amount. I think thats all the SSAG wanted..money. Are they corrupt? It sure looks like it.

Things have been peaceful at home the last couple weeks. My husband has been spending a lot of time getting the Stables back in order. I really seems to like those seahorses. At first i wasnt sure that he did. He is very protective towards them.

Things at dome, some times quiet and most times not. Business there has really picked up the last several nights. Adam is out of jail now. He was the only one arrested the other night. How long before he starts trouble again? We shall see i guess.

Morte...well we are still bickering it seems. We never agree on anything for some reason. But he has joined the Renegades. I think he likes me even though he says otherwise. Do I like him? "just leaves that question unanswered and shakes her head" He is a drunken slob at most times, Fell on his face in the floor several times last night. I think he reminds me to much of Anthony. Always drunk and well i dont know if he is a womanizer like Anthony. If he is, he sure hides it pretty well. I Have heard no rumors about that side of him. He seems to have a soft side though and thats with Baby Crimson.

I think thats about all for now. Will try to write more often.

Vixen

"she sighs and looks out the window as she waits for the ink to dry before she puts the journal away"

-Journal Entry 13 March, Vixen Blade Carazzi

Dearest Journal,

I haven't written much lately, probably due to my late nights spent at the dome, but at least its better than sitting home all alone. I still miss Neo terribly but with all the things happening lately I've taken my mind off of it for a while.

Adam came back to the island the other night and immediately thought he was going to cause trouble with me as soon as he walked in the door. Well surprisingly enough, Boss stepped outside and drew his sword, telling me to leave! I don't know why I'm being protected, but it seems I am. Morte, Kevorin and Mori and went outside to fight Adam too. It was very unfair, even if it was againest Adam, there was no reason for a lynch mob. Eventually Jane and I tried to end the fight, I tried to talk to the people fighting and Jane called the SSAG. I'm not sure if that was a good idea or not. It did get Adam arrested but it nearly Kevorin arrested too, and Vix for trying to protect everybody else...meaning Morte snickers to herself I really don't know what is up between the two of them,but its certainly interesting they way they act towards each other. Anyway, after the SSAG left and things died down a bit, I started talking to Kevorin and was completely confused at what he was saying. He didn't know who I was or where he was or why he was here. Infact he thought his name was Amarth and that he was a mercenary...I was ready to yank my own hair out..my nerves have been a bit frazzled as of late regardless of people not knowing their own names. So finally I just agreed to call him Amarth and I said something about magic and it drove him crazy, he was convinced that he was one of a small number of people that even knew that magic exsisted!I promptly told him otherwise and started listing off names of people I know that can perform magic. It drove him into this terrible shrieking sound that sent shivers up my spine, I rushed over to see what was the matter and he just fell head first right onto the table...I woke him up and was very pleased to find out that he was Kevorin again..that he had lost control and now was back. We talked for a while and then Char and Eyas came in the door to annouce they were getting married! Oh I am so excited for them, truly, Char has asked me to be the maid of honor! I can not wait and I am planning a little surprise of my own for her..I can't disclose the details yet..but it will be amusing to say the least...

Lets see what else has happened, well last evening Adam was let out of jail and actually apoligized for the way he acted. I accepted,but told him I would never forgive or forget the things he had said to me, he said that was expected. He looked so pitiful, but he has tried to fool us before, I don't trust him as far as I can throw a giant baby. He has his second chance, I'll leave him alone, for now, if he causes trouble again I'm not going to save him from the lynch mob.

Baby Crimmy is growing so fast, the little devil is learning more than just mannors. He walked me to the door last night and asked for a kiss, well I obliged and went to kiss him on the check, well at the last second he turned and made me kiss him on the lips! I don't know who he learned that from, and I probably don't want to find out. After that little episode I ended up just staying at the dome and notleaving as I had planned, I began talking to Kev again and he told me he was having horrible nightmares but that he wouldn't tell me about them so that I wouldn't get scared and have my own nightmares. I didn't accept that answer and I kept on bothering him about it..finally he gave in and told me a very vivid nightmare, the scenes that he put into my head with his words were very vivid and scary but I didn't want to tell him that, I hope that it helped him to talk about it, he said it did. I'm going to try and help him find out more about this Amarth guy. He's already becoming a good friend, we have a rather humorous jest between the two of us..I say that he is the man of my dreams and he says that I'm his hero..its all very funny sighs and shakes out a cramp in her hand I must write more at another time,this has become quiet long.

Rosalyn Lovine

*she leaves the journal laying open on the counter at the shop and goes outside to supervise Samuel's work.

-Journal Entry 13 March, Rosalyn Lovine