Again...the one who I belonged to is gone. When will this vicious cycle of 'in my life ...out of my life' ever end?

Does it ever, truly end?

I dont think it does...least of all in my case. Things change too fast here. Almost fast enough to make my head swim. Who do I belong to now...if anyone? I dont know. Perhpas I shouldnt care. Perhaps I will return to being the hermit my brother always accused me of being. I dont know.

All this makes me weary of life here. So much loss..all the time. Who knows... perhaps mine will be the next name on the death roster.

::::shaking her head, she places the journal, opened, at her feet on the floor of the balcony, and rises, going downstairs and outside to wander amongst the flowers about her home thoughtfully:::

-Journal Entry 28 April, Tika Flynn

:::sitting in her home, quietly listening to Hiretsukan and Christopher talking, she pauses in her cleaning of the home to write:::

What a day. I've spent all day cleaning this house and making it more suitable for Christopher's prescence here. Fin has been a big help to me.

Fin..... now there is an interesting one. Ive known both he and Boss for years before coming here. And, Fin, still comes when something is wrong. He always seems to be near when I need someone... and gone when I dont.

I dont know what to make of him...even now...even though I have known him.

::she shakes her head, ridding her thoughts of all that, and concentrates on Christopher:::::

Christopher is such a pleasure to be around. Im only sorry that Alterio wont spend the time with him to find out for himself. So what if he is part Morgan. He carries the Carazzi name. Besides...everyone knows Im more than financially able to care for Christopher and I dont need Alterio's help.

Maybe one day Alterio will allow Christopher to be around his half-siblings and know them as he should.

That was my entire intention with the letter I sent to Alterio...though, he will never believe it.

Ahh.. well...its his loss...

Time to resume the cleaning of this house. Tomorrow...the Shoppe....

Lyrias Dreams

::::she sands the page, stands, and goes to sit near Christopher on the floor and play with him, leaving the entry on her kitchen table::::
-Journal Entry 28 April, Lyrias Dreams

:::: waking, early, she rises, slipping into a robe, padding down the stairs to her home, robe flaring with her movement. Smiling, she bids good morning to Hiretsukan, as she makes her way to the kitchen, fixing their breakfast before going up to wake Christopher. After eating, and cleaning up their morning meal dishes, she sits at the table, nodding to Hiretsukan as he heads out to take care of his business and the business left to him by Kuno. Pulling out her journal, she writes as Christopher wanders out to play near the house::::

Well... morning has come. Hiretsukan was still here. It seems that he is happier than he has been the last few days. I dont exactly know what to do with him. I tried explaining what Kuno meant by "Take him into your bed..".. but, I dont think I did too well.

Its obvious that Fin and I are close... that much I do know and know well. We always have been, and he is helping me out a lot with the ordeal Ive been going through. I draw strength from him... just being there, talking to me..reassuring me that everything will be fine.

Christopher.. he is still adjusting. He didnt know Taelie very well, so, he has no reason to be sad. I just have to keep going.. thats all I can do. I cant leave him to himself. I owuldnt leave him to himself.. ever. Im glad that Christopher was put on the list for Mori. I dont want anything to happen to him.

But.. I dont know that I want my name on the list. Im having a hard time dealing with it all. Everytime I see he and Chastity together...it just goes all through me. I dont know how to react. All I see is Taelie crumpling to the arena floor in front of Mori. It will take forever to get that vision out of my head. I know. But, I cant grieve forever. I have to continue to go on and take care of what I need to. I have to keep taking care of Christopher.

::::Hearing a yell from outside, she leaves the journal and scatters quill and ink well to the floor as she darts out the door of the home.

"Lyrias!! Lyrias!! Come 'ere!" Christopher calls out to her...."Hurry!"...

"What?! What is it, Christopher, are you all right?" she calls as she locates him by his voice nearing him.

Sitting there before her, he shows her a native butterfly, marvelling at the colors in its wings. Stilling her racing heart, she crumples to the ground beside him, looking to the butterfly, thankful that he is alright..nothing is wrong.:::::

-Journal Entry 29 April, Lyrias Dreams

(sits at her desk as she puts the local scrolls away, placing those onto the main doors, making sure the orders are not delayed, and coming up with a plan. Chas removes her ledger from the right side of the desk and begins to write her thoughts within the secretive binding)

The last day of April,

I spent the night once again with Mori, we were discussing arrangements for Raven and I. We even talked of 'him'. What is going to happen with this window of 'oppurtunity?' I am trully scared. Maybe a bit nervous as well. I care for Mori, maybe I see a glimmer of kindness within his eyes when he looks at me. He afterall, signed a truce.. a truce with the same people who ridiculed him. I think he did that for me. Raven seen him last eve, and came home just babbling about horses, and ponies, fighting, and stories...and of a older woman, who was as pretty as a princess. I got a kick out of the little bird last evening. I am sure I would've been like her. Nemesio doesn't know what he is missing. Well..I will end my entry on that note. Off to work I go

Chastity~
-Journal Entry 30 April, Chastity De'Kartan

Dear Journal,

Much has happened in the last few days. Lord Pryce has announced that the dead may be returning, however the island will be in complete darkness for a week. Speaking of the dead. Kuno has died and I was informed by Hiretsukan that Mammon was behind both his death and Vixen's. I have decided to protest his leadership of the Syndicate. On another note, I haven't seen Cipriana in quite sometime. Last time I went to see her, she wasn't there. She must be devastated by Kuno's death. I really miss her and I hope I see her soon. I think I'll pay her another visit...

Eden Arcane
-Journal Entry 30 April, Eden Arcane