::She yawns as she gets to her own bed and makes a mental note to put an order through for a house and such tomarrow::

Hmm... alot has happened lately. Mostly good and some not so good. For one, I might just be able to sleep this eve. Lorax has taken the egg for a while so I could rest. He is so sweet to me... as I have said before, I don't know what I would have or even do with out his help. I have grown quite close to him as of late, especially today. We can sit and talk endlessly or just be silent, enjoying each others company. I believe I could be very happy with him. It seems as soon as the choice came about, I made it with ease. Though Claude won't like it...though he acted like a complete brute this eve and shouldn't be surprised.

:;She shakes her head lightly and sighs a bit::

Ah well. I had a nice talk with Lorax, and he cares for me also, which feels so nice, he says the sweetest things. I can keep rambling for a while about it.

:: smiles then laughs a bit::

I know some other things have happened...but I can't recall them at the moment. My mind keeps wandering.

--Journal entry 31 July, Lina Metallium

Nestasia, is gone I think, from my life...I pushed her away like garbage, though she could never understand why. Lina I think is taken with Lorax, as it should be...Not with me. I am glad on both counts really. Lina doesnt need me, she never did...Though she now knows of my past, as if it was never blocked from her, I wish we were meant to be, but the real me...the me I am coming to cherish, would clash with her obviously...Nestasia, needs time to grow...though I will keep her near...If i could of loved her just for a second, I may love her completely...but now...She needs to grow, not be hurt by me. I ramble on so...I'd hate to be such a cliche... But I wont hurt her, by my neglect...Nor will I blindly pursue Lina, my impossible dream...I knew Lorax would be better for her in truth...Though my dreams are riddled with the same apparition...Rowsy...Can I truly shake my feelings from her? I must think, hell....I must pray. After the episode with that dragon..I know not when my life will end.

--Journal entry 31 July, Claude Torrent