Title: Ponderings Author: flamebrain, flamebrain00@yahoo.com Disclaimer: They’re not mine; they belong to Zuiker, CBS, et al. I’m making no profit from this. Spoiler: Crash & Burn Archive: Freya can have it at Naked Truth; anywhere else, just let me know. Notes: To the usual suspects. Also to Piper and April for the great beta—their advice was excellent, so anything wrong is mine. “Do you have any plans tonight?” I look at her in shock, no words coming to my tongue. She’s never asked anything like that. Plans? What are those? I suppose I could go home and mope about Hank, but let’s face it, Sara-girl, heartbroken you are not. I’m just so goddamned mad at him, at me. Plans: go home with you and screw you senseless. Press you against the wall in your office; teach you the love you never could have known with Eddie. Drive my fingers into you hard and fast until you come, screaming my name. Take you in the break room so the guys can see that I’m the one to make you come, ecstasy on your face. Slide across the car right now and— “Buy you a beer?” you offer, breaking into my thoughts. I look at you, sun glinting off your golden hair. You are so achingly beautiful. You have no idea what you do to me, and I plan to keep it that way. “Just drive.” God knows, you drive me crazy.