Title: Almost Home
Author: Scarlet (ScarletL8E@aol.com)
Website: no site
Rating: G
Pairing/main characters: Gambit
Series/Sequel: Reflection-series 4
Summary:
Disclaimer: S'okay, you probably don't know that the X-men don't belong to me. So this is where I tell you. The X-men don't belong to me. Everybody clear on that? But so help me, if I see Chat show up in an X-men comic book, I'm gonna go on a rampage. In other words, I don't have time for Marvel to sue me for using their characters, but I will make time if they use mine :)
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Almost Home
By Scarlet
Remy woke from yet another dream/nightmare. He’d been watching Storm, and then, exactly as had happened with Wolverine, he’d become Storm.
He/she had been sitting in the wide window seat of her loft, holding back the curtains, and staring out into the night. The brightness of the moon and stars illuminated the lawn with a pearlescent glow. There was an unfathomable yearning expanding within her soul. As she had done every night, she sent yet another prayer winging aloft on the evening breeze. Please bring Remy back home.
Of all the X-Men, possibly excepting Rogue, she missed him most. There had been no goodbye between them, and her days passed with the feeling that something important was missing from her heart.
There had been a great deal of hurt as time passed with no word. In some ways, that was worse than his abandonment of her.
Because of their shared past, she’d become strongly attached to Remy. He’d been an immovable anchor for her when problems raged like a whirlwind around her, and it grieved her that he’d been suffering and she hadn’t known. Didn’t he know she would always be there for him when he needed to talk?
He seemed so close to her tonight. The longing for his comforting presence was stronger than it had been in months. And still he was so far away. "Where are you, Remy LeBeau?" she whispered to the stars shining high above, as a single tear traced it’s way down her cheek.
Her loneliness was tangible, and its ache had awoken Remy. Ororo’s tears still stung, and her misery echoed throughout him.
He made his way down the hall to his tiny living room. He’d been living for the past few months in a neighborhood very close to the mansion, waiting and wanting to go home, but feeling too nervous and scared to make the endeavor easy.
He stopped in front of the battered piano he’d bought a month ago. In New Orleans, he’d grown up around music of all kinds, and so he’d added to the therapy the doctors had proscribed for his hands by teaching himself to play several instruments. Music muted the silence around him, and made him feel less alone in his darkness.
The constant use of his hands, while at first extremely painful, had brought back a measure of his dexterity, and so he had no trouble drawing forth an almost hymn-like song he’d remembered Tante Mattie singing to him when he’d first gone to live in the LeBeau household. There were many times when being inside a house with relative strangers had combined to make it near impossible for him to go to sleep, and Tante Mattie would regularly stop by to sing him to into calmness.
It was a song that she’d meant to reassure him that no matter how bad things got, there was always someone who would take care of him, but Remy had never quite gotten that concept until Dakota.
Remy didn’t know if he believed in a benevolent God, but he did believe that Dakota was watching over him, and he absolutely knew that that even if every dark secret remaining in his heart hid were to be published in the latest scandal sheet, she would still love him.
As he played, the sounds grew more intricate, becoming an enigmatic melody, and he lent his voice to the haunting lyrics.
All the pain he’d suffered in the past had never had a place to go, and so grew into a dark torment behind a strongly locked and buried door. With Dakota’s help, he’d opened that door to find all the old ghosts living there had vanished like so much morning mist.
But there were other doors that no one else would ever know about. They each had their own name. The older ones were dust covered, and located in the dusty reaches of the basement. Sinister. Maurauders. The newest one had a bright shiny lock on it, and was just down the hall. Rogue. The pressure behind that one was intense, and some of it found an emotional vent in his music.
Remy’s damaged voice was made up of satin and smoke, and his husky tones lent a captivating twist to the song that could have been written about his recent life.
Close every door to me
Hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows
And shut out the light
Do what you want with me
Hate me and laugh at me
Darken my daytime
And torture my night
If my life were important
I would ask, "Will I live or die?"
But I know the answers
Lie far from this world
Close every door to me
Take those I love from me
Children of Israel are never alone
For I know I shall find
My own peace of mind
For I have been promised
A land of my own
Just give me a number
Instead of my name
Forget all about me
And let me decay
I do not matter
I’m only one person
Destroy me completely
Then throw me away
If my life were important
I would ask, "Will I live or die?"
But I know the answers
Lie far from this world
Close every door to me
Take those I love from me
Children of Israel are never alone
For we know we shall find
Our own peace of mind
For we have been promised
A land of our own
The music faded, and silence was once again the reigning force in his world.
"Will I ever find my way home?" The silence did not answer, but his face involuntarily turned to the north, where, separated from him by only a few miles, he could feel Scott and the others caught in sleep. Their emotions were quiescent, a deceptive aura of serenity surrounding them.
"Soon," he whispered.
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