Date:
7 September 2003
Title:
Heaven from here
Author: Das Jessy
Archive:
'Kay, but tell me.
Summary:
*blech*
Raiting: PG-13
Category:
Spike- POV, song- fic
Disclaimer:
Buffy and Spike are mine and Robbie Williams and Heaven from here
are mine.
Everything's mine. *grin*
Spoiler:
Between Dead Things and As You Where. Could be around
Older and Far
Away
Feedback:
Am addicted to it. jessy_84@t-online.de
Author's Note:
Not really that much to note. This fic is kinda an experiment.
Heaven from here by Das
Jessy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Know no fear I'll still be
here tomorrow
I know it's one of your
greatest fears. To fall in love and then be left again. But I won't. I'm neither
Angel, nor your father, not Giles and definitely not Captain Cardboard.
Bend my ear I'm not gonna go
away
You already told me to go
away, more than once. You push me away again and again but I won't ever work.
There's nowhere else I'd rather be than with you, no matter if you hate me or
love me.
You are love so why do you
shed a tear
You are full of love, even
your guide told you. You are just too afraid to risk the
pain.
You rather push everything
away, but I know you, Luv, it hurts you that you can't let yourself love it huts
you so much that you just draw back even more.
Know no fear we will see
heaven from here
If you'd just let me in, I
grant you I'd show you a part of heaven, a part of what you've lost when they
pulled you out of there. I'd do
everything for you, fulfill your every wish if you'd just let me try. For
real.
I'll shelter you make it all
right to cry
When you just came back I
was the one you could cry with, talk to. You knew I'd never hold it against you.
I know your strength and I'd never think less of you because you'd show
weakness. Your friends, well they only see the tough Slayer. Don't get me wrong,
they are good friends, you'd probably have been dead a long time ago if not for
them, but you never were able to show them that there's another side to you, a
side that is afraid, a side that can't deal with all the things that is life.
Me, you showed this side, so when you tell me don't trust me, I know it's a lie
because you already trusted me with the second best guarded part of you, your
weakness and I cannot help hoping that someday you'll trust me with the best
guarded part, your heart.
And you'll help too 'cos the
faith in myself
has run
dry
I tried and tried to make
you happy again, to get the Buffy back I fell in love with. But now I think that
I just cannot do it, I can't help you find your happiness if you don't want to get it back. I'm not
able to claim your life back for you. I can help but you have to do the greatest
part yourself. I don't believe in myself to show you the good sides of life on
my own. You have to look for them.
We are love and I just wanna
hold you near
I know that you feel for me,
I saw it in your eyes. I don't need to hear it, yet, but I want you to be able
to come to me, to let me hug you, when you need comfort.
Know no fear we will see
heaven from here
If you'd just let me try,
let us try together, we could build ourt own little
heaven.
A place where we were warm,
loved and finished. A place where neither you nor me would have to be alone. I
want that for you just as much as I want it for me.
One day you'll go back to
the place you were torn out of and I will go to hell. You're the closest I'll
ever be to heaven and I just want us to try to have that, even if it is only for
a little while.
I see real love in your
eyes
No matter how much you try
to hide it. From your friends, your sister, your watcher, from me and especially
from yourself, I can see it is there. I don't actally know if it is love that I
see in your eyes but it has the potential to be something, something big.
And it fills me up when you
start to cry
When I see you like this, so
out of place, taking everything out on me, I just love you more, because I know
that everything here is too much for you and I just want to help you. And if it
helps you to beat the crap out of me, so will it be.
I just wanna hold you
near
I wanna hold you in my arms
and take your pain away from you and carry the weight of the world myself.
We will see heaven from
here
If you'd let me do that,
treat you as I want to, it would bring heaven a little bit closer.
Well it all seems out of
reach
When I see how you draw
back. Everyday a little more, my hope is dying that you'll ever be happy again
that you'll ever again say that it's good to be alive. This hope, that I don't
wanna lose.
I will take the blame if it
keeps the peace
But I will take everything
you dish out if it just helps you
the littlest bit.
I love you so much that I'll
even let you destroy me before you destroy yourself.
My shelf life's
short
Wish they'd make it more
easy to follow
It would be so much easier
to help you if you'd just let me and not kept pushing me out of your life and
then coming back when you've got an itch you can't scratch.
And I've been caught with
nothing but
love on my
mind
That, I have. More than
once. Love's bitch all the way. Your willing slave.
We are love don't let it
fall on deaf ears
Listen to your heart, Pet.
Give what we have a chance and it can be something really good, let yourself
feel without being afraid of what others may think of what could happen.
Now, it's clear we have seen
heaven from here
Everytime you let me in a
little we see a little bit of heaven, we could have it all the
way.
Forever.
Comments: To my sister whose
birthday is tomorrow.
Not beta read.