C.C., I must confess here that I did not know how great an effect you had on my life until your departure several years ago. I believed that your influence was merely as part of the whole, and not on an individual level. The day I found out about your departure, I was devastated. You were vital to that which kept me whole, and I truly fell apart. Wandering down a path of self mutilation and loathing. I could not find peace in anything... not even my beloved Poison. Without you, my world was dark and morbid. Despite your addiction problem, I myself began to use means of "altered reality" for release from my self imposed doom. Reading and re-reading everything I could find about your recovery, it suddenly dawned on me that to destroy myself using tools similar to those you were trying to remove yourself from would only serve to dishonor you and everything you meant to me. I now find strength in your experience, because I know it took great strength for you to come through your own issues. Your experience teaches others, and it has shown me that no matter how difficult things are, others have endured worse and if they can make it through then so can I. Meeting you was truly an honor, to be treasured for the rest of my life... I thank you for that opportunity.