apologies for the subject of this email, i typed hi into the subject box and it prompted me to write hi alana so there we go. i thought you merited an email rather than just a scrambled message on the adam, gordon, chris, messageboard. i'm glad you like disrepute at the hands of my idol...it is a project which is quite difficult. it is meant to feature more people than it does, out of practicality mainly. the group was originally just me when i wrote a 3 track demo and then the ".....and that is reason enough to be miserable" album. at the time i was mainly playing with kuhl goyim chien with adam and chris lowe, i'd started the #3.02 website/record label a few month previously, mainly as an outlet for pacifist riot, kuhl goyim chien and the ree piztonna band. i put on the showcase night with oswald III in decmber 2000 and aphasiac (julia's band at the time) also played...i only knew knew julia through rebecca at the time. for the live show chris (kuhl) and matt and dom (oswald III) joined me onstage and we pereformed an ambient piece, the closet i can liken it to is thurston moore's side projects. so from this sprang the idea that me, chris, matt and dom would exchange tapes of ideas and work on each other's ideas, multitracking until we had complete tracks, like 4 independant think tanks for each song. matt, chris and dom lived in cornwall so the liklyhood of us being in the same place at the same time was limited and i already had a spontanious impro band with kuhl (who only played street improvisations a couple of times a year) so i was keen to have a less dysfuntional band who would be more regular, at least for recording. the first release with all of us was the 'she stood and listened very attentivly but no tears came to her eyes'...the idea didn't work as instead of collaborations it was just different completed tracks by all of us, the majority by me and then a track by dom and matt and one by chris. the sound was very experimental indie (think a less progressive godspeed you black emperor or fuck knows, basically simple songs with drum machine playing housey beats or minimalist beats, keyboard chords, and guitars with intertwing melodies and noise/textural backings....pretty much exactly what you hear if you are to listen to any of the CDs given away free with the wire magaizine. nice and very good but hardly experimental or revolutionary to anyone outside of NME or smash hit's readers. would fit in nicely in post-radiohead culture and would appeal to the dreaded fans of post-rock. i then completed a great ep which got very good reviews and is two songs, one ten minute, one half an hour. however it was subceeded by music i wrote for a photography exhibition by annie trewick and also the next album which was like better songs which were similer to those on the ep this album had some more progressive tracks with spoken word and vocxals, all acoustically multitracked, complex based around e minor and all tonal, all very nice and quite possibl;y the best songs i've ever written (for an example download the danza song from the website). i was all ready to release this album through the same indie channels as the last, get it on drowned in sound and shit like that (although the tracks were about 20 mins each)...it was 3 long tracks by me and one by dom which was short....it also was less improvised with ideas worked out before, howevere the core was improvising around an idea.         i pulled it at the last moment and i don't think anyone but me has heard all the tracks.....i like the idea that maybe what would have brought the most success will never be heard...like achieving potential by unconventiohnal means. after this i moved onto more avant-garde ideas, dabbling with tracks and ideas and definatly leaving the experimental indie idea behind. at the beginning of summer dom remixed a broken guitar track i sent him making an incredible sound by acoustically manipulating the speed and resonence of my guitar part in realtime whilst superimposing an old feelgood film on top of it. i recorded a track of fragmented, repetative guitar motifs, renaissance choral music, keyboard, muffled voice and some other shit which lasted about 20 mins and is my favourite trackthat i've ever written. it amazes me that i could ever have written it seeing as all i had was a discman, a guitar, a cheap keyboard and an old 4-track, i had to record everything as a realtime imporvisation. i listened to these two tracks a lot over summer and the used these as the base for what i concieved to be the first track to feature all members of disrepute. in addition i wrote other tracks including a clarient quartet, trumpet quartet and a piece me and chris created in cornwall (whilst i was there to play with red27 which had been formed out of the remains of oswald III and featured dom and matt of oswald/disrepute) the piece was me playing a guitar which chris manipulated in realtime to a 4 track and then we added keyboards. with all these i did some electronic manipulation by computer, adding more parts, some excerpts from improvisaations me, ada, and chris had done over summer and superimposing parts to create an album featuring what i suppose is now the disrepute line up: me, dom, chris, rebecca, matt, adam. this is the most complex album musically and is very gfood, maybe the most orginal. this was quickl;y followed by an idea i'd had for a while. recording a piece and then doing remix's of it. i had intended for all members to do there own remix but it turned out it was just me through practicality. it turned out that my favouroite track was a 12 minute ascention in pitch creating starnge rhythms, all electronically manipulated. when at uni i had access to an electroacoustic studio and great equipment including an analog ems synthi were the inspiration for the "as i mould you i look on at my orgaNIC scuplture...etc" which is mainly just guitar and synthi, the standout track of which is on the toyracer compliation. i created a couple of new tracks, including an avant-garde composition i did for my music course based on indeterminancy, a reworking of an idea on the"as i mould you album" an electroacoustic piece i did and i put all these and a selection of the best songs off all albums since "she stood and listened...." on the one album (details of which are all available on the disrepute site at www.oocities.org/disreputeatthehandsofmyidol ) this is meant as the second album proper and i will send you a copy of it (and any of the previous albums you wish) when i get a chance however this is the one which is less ideas and more meant for release. since then i have done an album based on reel to reel tapes wired incorrdctly into a computer...it is strange and my favourite piece to date for it's eccentricity. although no one has really heard it yet and i shall deal with it oin whatever capacity after i have got the second album out of the wsay. so there you go....now you know the history which isn't rea\lly anyhwere else. i don't know where the project is leading but feel free to whore whatever i send you to anyone you know...put it on compilation albums and i'm happy to play at some capacity at gigs etc....probably even if they have a post-rock banner! gordonxx