Seven

i lay here
peverted
sprawled out
darkness
one arm...
floor
water
drip drip
tick tock
you try to sleep
but you can't
because of the intoxicated thoughts
that dance amongst your brain
i'm not sure how far i've gone insane
tick
tock
darkness
splash
don't you hate it
when they come back
i don't know
you want to close your eyes
remember
the love that used to fill your soul
the drugs
sex
"rock an' roll"
blind with the science
anhilistic ways
from my fatalist past
ten to seven
10:00 to 7:00
i have only lived for one thing
aren't you sad
i am
the sun tells me to go to sleep
tick
i look at my watch
tock
fuck
how can you feel good about yourself.