Thanks J...
I wish
i could write of flowers
of beauty that abounds
the carefree song of a sparrow
singing to impress his mate
I wish
I could experience
serenity, love, affection...
in the way that the birds
unconditionally claim it for themselves
I wish
I was there
When God poured His affection
over His little Angels
before He sent them
to comfort us
I wish
I can accept
that all the love in the world
is here...
available to me
I wish
I can get courage
to grab it with both hands
and make it mine
Jesus loves me
that I know
for that is all
that the world tells me so
Jesus loves me
that i wish
for all my problems to be at peace
Jesus loves me
that I pray
otherwise I will fall
and go astray
Jesus loves me
That I feel
Because deep inside
His love helps me heal
He helped me to remember
where my own pain lies
We will fight for you
South Africa
He helped me to see
The meaning of life
We will care for you
South Africa
He helped me shed
my tears
We will die for you
South Africa
He helped me to see
the light
Fuck your crime
South Africa
Feelings of complete
helplessness take hold of my
soul
Fears of not being able
to change the world
into the euphoric
Eden that my
heart is longing for
Prayers to One not seen
to let luck swing
my way...
for once...
Fall on deaf ears
because
deep inside
we are responsible
for our own
Pathetic wishes
of complete hapiness
form part of my daily armour
only to subside
into rivers of tears
as darkness set in
But tommorrow there is hope
like the winter's sun battling
to extend it's rays
through the clouds in my soul
LIFE
Life has so many colors
Nuances of feelings
deep inside
sculptured bodies
and reckless souls
Life needs you to fight
an ancient battle
of the winner that
will take it all
Instinct take over and
bans all feeling of
decency
Gentlemen fall
and rogues win first prize
No place for the decent hearted
Second best failure
First prize winner
Broken hearts lay trampled in the dust
Lying next to me
with his tight body closing in
I can feel the vibration of his being
creeping into my soul
Well
definitioned contours surround me
and threat to envelop me with a sense
of peace
Well
chosen words play games with my mind
and forces me to abide
Caring
arms hold me tight
and for a second
I see a different person
Against the backdrop of a
storm clad sky
I see man's most beautiful
…an angel to my liking
In
the shadows of criss KROSS pickets
my arms open wide
I draw him near
Inviting
him
To my fathers house
with magnetic anticipation
of forever love
In
humble obedience
he kneels
before me
And
with
legs open wide
He succumbs to my grace
With
humble eyes
lifted
I pray
Let
my will be done
Casually
brushing against each other
Indicating lust and passion
for his body…
I see my dreams and yearnings
through red and amber tinted
downlighters
Through
the maze I follow
into enveloping darkness…
the embodiment of my desires
Hard
bodies become one as
we meet with exploding passion…
mutual respect for each others
wishes
Broken
images of groping hands
register in my soul
dark
demons with imperfect
bodies
reaching out to feel and claim
forbidden pleasure
Exclusivity
prevails and
the need for each other
sends us into hiding
Small
dark corner of
the room becomes
our sanctuary for a brief
period in time
covering us…
allowing us…
forbidden pleasure
and the ultimate exploration of
body & animus
Growing
heat
pushes us into
new realms of ecstasy
Exploring the deep crevices
of individuality
The
need to allow
his pleasure
becomes the ultimate
dream…
The gift I give
without expectance
Laying
tangled in each other's arms…
The sweat of liaison
dripping on the
cold linoleum
Mixing with
spilled droplets of
Smirnoff Ice…
We
become one
in mind
As we comfort
each other
I see
You
across the floor
Outstretched
hands
calling me near…
Closer to you
Defined
body
shining like a star
Sweaty torso
accentuated by the
three striped shorts
Long
hair framing your face
Pearly beads on your brow
Reflecting strobes of
blue, yellow & white
Invitation to take you
And
the
e
in your
back pocket
Lying
here beside you
I'm alone
Never know loneliness can be so
near, as close as you are
in
utter despair
I feel your cold body chilling
as the night grows longer
You might as well not be here
The
uncanny feeling of numbness
taking hold of my spirit
forces me to feel nothing
I
want to reach out to
the nothing
I want to cry
Let it be stopped
For
I long
for your loving embrace
and your presence
"Divine Child"
It
was said by some
Echoing conclusions of Jung
that he unconsciously identified
with his mom
Resulting in psychosexual immaturity
But
His, is nothing but a normal variant
of human sexuality.
They
said he lacked
socio-cultural perspective
…and
he thought it was just
difficult to make peace.
Yet
he yearned for Plato's Greece
and sexual fashions
motivated by love
In
the confusion
of the aftermath
I realize
Your
perfect body
reflects the
inability
of your
soul
It
reminds ME
of lying in his arms
and crying softly
cause
I was happy
(at a time)
and
my warm tears…
running down
his arm…
waking him
and he understood.
Just
held me closer
Till dawn broke
Now
I yearn
For his warm embrace
and his tender love
covering me
… protecting my soul
Amidst a blaze of
Purple & Orange
She waits...
Cross legged
Lotus in her hair
- enveloped with
serenity & peace
orchestrating...
Flames of passion
In a relentless world
Orchestrating... Liberating
Man's desire
to become one with
Her
Mother Universe
In the stark neon-lit room
I sense your presence
Dominating my being
and
calling my name
Holding you lightly
Your lonely finger
caressing my soul
Sending shivers down my spine
and forcing me to melt for you.
Tour kisses redeem my spirit
Your touch heal my soul
In an instant.
And...
Going down, I see
our life in a brief second.
Cold and culculated feeling
moves me to realise
I found you.
Hot and steamy room
tells me this is
forever
Loving you is so easy
Caring for you is so possible
Feeling you is the ultimate
Completing the search for wholeness
You are the important goal
that was to be achieved
the final frontier
The ultimate barrier
to cross...
to ponder on...
to grow on....
copy right 20003 LOUIS NELL