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this was quoted from my friend. i took quite a long while to actually put
this up. i wanted to write about what she wrote. i had a lot of stuff to
say, loads. loads of thoughts went through my head. but after
procrastinating for so long, all i can say now is "how true". how very
true...
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最近很多人在說，五月天回來了。我想，可能又已經飛奔而去，大家，要追上…
i spent two years, while
they were taking their break, trying to catch up on what i missed and
hating myself for every second that i was late. after two years, i thought
they are finally back and i can catch up, finally. but i didn't expect was
that after two years, just as i thought i was almost near, they leapt
forward once again, leaving me behind once again. i am really trying to
catch up. panting, breathless, but i am trying my best.
***
chillipadi said..
chillipadi has said
exactly what i wanted to say in a way that i couldn't. in her words, she
has captured my confusion, my dilemma and my fears. she has expressed my
feelings better than i could, and i think that's no coincidence. they have
indeed touched many others they way they touched me.
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questions..
is this growing up? is
this reality? is this cynicism? so what if it is? they are still very true
to life, as they were. growing up is never fun and jolly. growing up is as
painful as it can get. trying to hold to the past is a totally useless and
painful thing to do, and yet, i can't bear to let it go. but as we are
dealing with the struggle, days are passing and before we know it, we are
already too old to have even the right to hang on. i digress, but back to
my point. 2 years ago, we need what we needed 2 years ago. they gave it to
us and we fell in love with them. today, 2 years later, do we still want
what we got 2 years ago? by right, we shouldn't. but if today, if what
they offer is reality, then what do we need from them? we have enough sad
and cruel reality in our lives don't we? have they taken a step closer or
a step away from us?
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random conversation
extract (ok, not so random)
| starry: |
part of the pull of
sgj, is tt they r so proud of it, tt they r so happy with wat they
hav done n how they hav changed. in any case, time n change are
relentless. |
| fish: |
yah |
| starry: |
they cannot
stagnantise. if they remain in the past, someday we will leave them
behind. |
| fish: |
i agree... hai...good.
make sense of it for me. |
| fish: |
hai.... sometimes i
think we take them so seriously, more than they take themselves... |
| starry: |
they grow so much
faster than us. life is choked to the brim for them. they learn so
much more n pack so much more experience in one nanosecond compared
to me. they are the ones moving forth n indulging. and here i have
lost my train of thot for mentioning this... |
| starry: |
mmm. because... if we
r going to regard them as life changing influences. they hav to make
sense first |
| starry: |
i hav wondered a few
times, wat if one day, like all great musicians, ppl start stirring
n claiming tt they hav changed, tt they r no longer great, tt they r
commercialised, or blahblah |
| fish: |
yah, is that what's
already happening now...or they have moved on to such a professional
level, such greatness that people can no longer relate?? i mean, the
pull of them lies in their closeness. if they are no longer
close.... |
| starry: |
but tts still ok. cos
tts other ppl. but wat if i find tt i can no longer like them? donno.
it seems like a disaster of mega proportions right now. but.. at the
time it really happens, it will really be like tt girl whispering
into guaishou's ear in the midst of them having fun tog, n having
said tt, she's still happy n smiling. |
| starry: |
like, no great pain.
just poof. gone. |
| fish: |
but anyway....我還是義無反顧﹐因為我停不下來.....
just can't do without right now... |
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extracted from ptt...
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作者: MOMMOM (你的心飛過傷心換日線) 看板:
MayDay
標題: Re: 矛盾迷惘
時間: Thu Dec 11 00:37:26 2003
... 但似乎 我可能沒看錯
他們還是他們 只是回不來而已...
... 有一種時間流失的感覺
剩下的 只有回憶
有沒有痛的感覺 我不能逃避說沒有
麻痺 不至於到那邊 只能說 習慣
陌生 但為何還有心動的痕跡...
... 上台
也好像是一個公式
簽名、握手、謝謝、辛苦了
一直反覆個不停
笑臉 真是職業性 ?
諷刺到我睜不開眼睛
不曉得是不是有對過鏡子練習
他們沒變!? 還是我們變了!?
是他們進步!? 還是我們都長大了!?
而我知道 但我淚如雨下
是嗎? 我怎麼會為了那五個白癡哭.....
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作者: hsiamayday (我混故我在) 看板:
MayDay
標題: Re: 矛盾迷惘
時間: Wed Dec 10 21:58:06 2003
... 一個熟悉的親人
在經歷過分離後又相聚
但是
對於他
只剩下陌生的感覺...
... 最近的活動 結束後
總是有一種很空虛很空虛的感覺
明明才剛剛與他們那麼接近
但卻感覺好遠好遠...
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作者: summerM (當事實能改變時) 看板:
MayDay
標題: Re: 矛盾迷惘
時間: Thu Dec 11 02:36:32 2003
... 就像有人說的 他們和以前的感覺變了
但是是不是商業化！？
別問我 :P 我不懂這詞兒的解釋...
...
好像看到兩個同樣叫做『五月天』的樂團
一個是在螢幕上 旁邊打著蘋果燈的
被人說是商業化的五月天
一個是在現場爆發力十足的五月天...
...
要怎麼讓人愛上五月天？
帶他去看一場ｌｉｖｅ吧！
聽ＣＤ有他一定的感動
但是不是每個人都能感受得到
但是聽ｌｉｖｅ
我想很少有人不被感動的吧 :) ...
... 所以在說要放手之後
為什麼還會ㄍ一ㄥ不住跑去看表演？
因為當你矛盾迷惘的時候
這時候最需要一場ｌｉｖｅ來指引你
那才是最真
我最愛的五月天
簽名？握手？
那些根本不重要．．．...
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***note: quotes are not in
full. i merely extracted bits and pieces which caught my attention.
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義無反顧...
where do we go from here?
i don't know. chillipadi doesn't seem to know either. my sis doesn't know,
starry doesn't know. no one seems to know. but what we all seem to agree
on is that we will follow. why? because we can't let go. we are just not
ready to let it go.
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