ME AND MY SO CALLED "LOSER" LIFE

all i have to say is that i have devoted my life to nothingness. nothing great or specatcular. i have so many secrets to hide...so many things running through my brain but yet i'm a plain, simple, vintage clothes wearing hopeless romantic. i suppose that's about it...

Here are some of my thoughts:

true love is overrated..it doesn't really happen its just all in the movies...i can only wish my life was like that..i can only wish that someday i will fall in love. i think that perhaps things aren't what they seem. i want to just go to sleep...life is a bit too complicated for me.

I hate liars more than anything in the world...save me from this horrible place...

i think that anarchy is good but i'm not a true anarchist. cause it doesn't make much sense to me, plus i just don't want to be one. there is no possible way that there can be anarchy...not in this country anyways. i know people that call themselves true anarchist but yet they contradict themselves...the whole world seems to work that way. most people are hypocrites anyways. how weird...i hope to someday be a good friend to those i love. which i hope happens soon. i'm working my way up there you konw? but... maybe i will never get what i want, afterall people never get what they want only what they deserve. life is so strange the way it works. the things we do...the people we hurt. the crazy things that we do just to get loved in return and for our love to be unrequited.

i love music. all kinds of it. my life is pathetic...but life is all good you konw? recently my bf of 7 months broke my heart....but life does go on...i hope to someday find someone great and have a good long relationship. im' so picky though. i think the most important thing that has to happen is for us to be able to get into a car and listen to the same radio stataion. for us to know the same songs and bands, for us to sing along and put our hearts and souls into it. music is my life. my everything. but until this supposed "relationship" happens i'm devoting my life to my music and my two best friends (eliz and polly). they mean everything to me and i know that they are not aware of it...well polly and eliz i do really care about you guys despite what you think. oh wait...and perhaps captain morgan heh *wink wink*

i think perhaps i think too much therefore i shouldn't think at all. (just letting you know) hehe

perhaps this thing that has happened to us was supposed to happen to make us aware of how selfish we are. we didn't care about anybody else in this world until they came and killed us with our own people. wow now people care. what a coninsidence. whoever came up with this plan thought of it long and hard. they knew what they wanted and how to do it. they knew exactly how to hurt us. they will come back and do it again. as george bush spends all of our social security money we will sit back and grin thinking that he's doing a good job perhaps even a favor...and just hope in our minds that they don't drop a nuclear bomb on us. you know they probably have this alliance with russia. and we all know russia at one point and time had enough power to blow us up. they planned to do it too. but we got ourselfs out of that one. we are now sadly aware of the things we did to them a few years ago... remember perhaps kuait? oh wait everyone forgets that. but maybe some do remember? who knows....who cares...george bush is not my president that's for sure...

now we have to pay the price...war...death...and depression...war again...perhaps this is a cycle? or not? who knows...u make the decision

the way i see if: if someone wants to do something bad enough they are going to and nothing is going to stop them...point proven....

by the way i hope everyone spreads this around...by the time we're older there will be no money left for us. it's all gone...wasted to find bin laden...does he even exsist? now we will have to spend our whole lives working our butts off....just because of good ol boy george bush. (remember this next time you vote for a bush or a republican for that matter)

so here's an update to my so called loser life. i go to texas state university. i'm in a music service sorority named tau beta sigma. i'm a communication design major ( art for all of you not so brilliant people out there ) and i hopefully one day plan on one day getting a real job in the real world.