After Chris and I talked, I became aware that he was a great guy, with a good heart. I only wanna be his friend, but I think it’s going to be a strong, long lasting friendship. Since he said that jealous thing, he takes longer to say stuff, as if he says it in his head, before he says it out loud. Jesse came in like five minutes after what happened. “OMG! Are you okay?” I asked him when he walked into the room. He had a black eye, and I hoped that that was all. “Yea, I’m fine. Are you okay?” he asked me. “I’m okay, but I think I’ll get over it.” I said. Jesse sat next to me on the bed, and was just holding me. It was like so peaceful, I forgot Chris was sitting there watching all of this. I remembered he was there, and I looked at him, and smiled. He smiled back, turned on the radio, and then left back to my room to join all the others. I was just listening to the music, and it was playing one of my favorite songs. It’s such a great song. The lyrics are just…outstanding. “Baby, you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven Oh, thinkin' about all our younger years, There was only you and me, We were young and wild and free Now nothin' can take you away from me We've been down that road before But that's over now, You keep me comin' back for more Baby, you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven And love is all that I need, And I found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven Yeah, nothin' could change what you mean to me Oh, there's lots that I could say But just hold me now, Cause our love will light the way Baby you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven And love is all that I need, And I found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven Now our dreams are comin' true, Through the good times and the bad, Yeah, I'll be standin' there by you We're in heaven And love is all that I need, And I found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven We're in heaven” (a/n that was Heaven by DJ Sammy…) “Oh I love that song! Don’t you?” I asked Jesse. I looked up at him and he had his eyes closed…I shifted a little, to remind him that I was there. “Don’t worry, I didn’t forget that you were there…It’s just so great to hold you in my arms..” he said as he opened his eyes. “I think I taught Frankie a lesson out there…he’s…beaten up pretty bad.” “I don’t think that you needed to beat him up that bad.. Oh well..” I said. ---a couple days later..-- Everyone was still mad at Frankie, and no one would talk to him. I’m starting to actually feel bad for him. I think that tomorrow I will talk to him. Since tonight is the concert, and there’s practices all day long. I think that if he tries anything I’ll be ready to kick his ass this time also, lol. We’re in Boston, Massachusetts. While all the guys are at practice, me and Eva are going to go to Fanuel Hall ( a big shopping center in the middle of Boston, you should go there some time..its great!) We went shopping, and then soon the next day came. I spotted Frankie after I woke up the next day. I got up out of my bunk on the bus, took a shower, got dressed, did my hair, makeup, and all that crap, then I walked up to him. He was sitting at the table, and since nobody would talk to him, he was all alone. I sat down across the table from him, “Hi Frankie.” I said. “Huh? Oh, hi.” Frankie said. “How are you?” I asked. “Dandy, Just dandy.” He said sarcastically. “I think that you should have a chance to explain yourself. Why did you do it?” I asked him. “Because, I, like you.” Frankie said. Holy PB&J…. “Umm, I have a boyfriend if you haven’t noticed. His name is Jesse.” I said, trying to get it through Frankie’s obviously thick head. “Yes, I know you do. I just can’t help it that I like you.” Frankie said. I rolled up my sleeves, exposing my bruises from him in the closet. “ Is this how you show people you like them? If it is, you have a pretty strange way of life. It’s called communication, not physically hurting the person.” I said, really confidently. “I didn’t mean to do that, I swear. I just don’t know how strong I am sometimes. I’m really sorry.” Frankie said, with an apologetic look on his face. “Okay, I forgive you, on one condition.” “Anything.” “ You can’t like me anymore or do any of these stupid stunts again. EVER!” I said, slowly raising my voice. “Okay, I promise that I won’t do that ever again. Once again, I’m sorry.” Frankie said. “Okay, you are forgiven.” I don’t know why I forgave him, I just couldn’t stand the torture that everyone was putting against him. Okay, that’s over with. I got up and walked away to Jesse’s bunk, and decided to lay down with him. I quietly and carefully crawled into the bed, and I just layed there next to him. I felt his arm gently wrap around me. “Baby, you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms, I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven” |
| Chapter 8: I'm Finding it hard to believe, we’re in heaven…. |