NO SOUND

Why is there no Sound? Because there is no sound in my mind!! For years I have struggled to find out why there is no sound in my head and only a couple of nights ago I did!! I finally came out and admitted that I am an Alcoholic and Drug Addict. But not your usuall drug addict. I only abuse drugs if they are laying around. Only a couple of times in my life have I really gone out and bought the real hard stuff. Both times it was X. In Nashville I did it for months on end till I could barely stand up. While living in Louisville I did it for a few weeks till I almost had a heartattack. All the other times I would abuse what the doctors would give me or what happen to be in my x's cabinet. Like his valiums. I have been drinking forever though. At first just at parties and such. But for the last 2 years just about everynight. I would hide it as much as I could from everyone. Most people do not know that I drink that much. After staying with my 2 best friends one of them told me that the other had stopped drinking like he use to because of me. They never realized till I stayed with them just how bad I was. He said he stopped because he did not want to end up like me. This ripped me apart!!!!! Finally someone I cared about said something. To think I was that bad to make someone else quit. I knew I had a problem and thought I could deal with it but never like this. So I have taken the steps to correct this. I am starting in a program tommorrow for drug and alcohol abuse and will be seeing a therapist for all my other problems. Maybe once I beat this the sound will come back in my head. So Where do I go from here???????? Well like my favvv Singer says Miss Linda Eder!! By the way this is my theme song and I am wearing this cd out! "Love, I'm gonna find you Happiness I am right behind you I've had my share of crying But there's no denying I'm on my way This time around I'll taste the glory And I'm not going down without a fight This is my life, my own story And this time around I'll get it right This time around I'm gonna find it. Look out world, watch me shine, shine I'm gonna grab that big brass ring And I am gonna make it Mine This time around, I'm gonna make it mine" Well I know who my love his now the rest is up to me! And I am going to GRAB THAT BIG BRASS RING AND MAKE IT MINE!!!!!!!