I have completly redone the whole site. All the old prattle is gone. I am starting my life over from the bottom up. If you read my story then you know why I am doing all this.
I have not been able to sleep for 2 nights now. I have not drank in 2 nights and that is prob why. This is going to be a long road I am traveling down but I am going to get to the other side. I have to get to the other side. I want my friends back and I am afaird I may have already lost them but I have got to do whatever is possible to get myself well so maybe there will be a chance I can be back with them.
I will update this daily now when possible. I think writing on here is going to help me a whole lot. So you prob will get very tired of listening to me!
Till tomorrow!
Love!
Well changes just keep happening. All for the good too.
I lost my job!! But that is OK... Once I saw their true colors I really did not want to work for them anymore anyway. It was not the enviroment I really wanted to be in.
I have returned to the stage for the 1st time in 2 yrs. I feel it this time more than ever. I think it is finally my time to do something with this.
I have stopped going to AA. I just did not feel it was for me. I have read their book and listen to their stories and it was just not for me. I lost control and now that I am getting it back I feel my life is making the needed changes.
I have gotten my friends back in my life. Once they seen that I was actually doing something to make myself better they took me back in thier life. I am so grateful to them for all they have done. I feel that with thier support I can conquer anything I set my goals on.
All and all my life is starting to make the trun it should have taken a long time ago. I feel good about myself for the 1st time in years.
Now to just get a job. I am also going to go to bartending school. This will allow me the money I need and also to presue the entertaining.
So here is to the future and what it holds for me!!!!!!!
Till next time!
Hugs!
Hey!!
Well it has been awhile since I have updated this. My life has been full and not a lot of time to get in here and update but I am BACK!!!
Not alot has happen since my last update. Just been partying like a wild man!!
Prob to much partying! But Hey I have been having one hell of a goodtime. First time in a long time I must say. So many men so Little time do I have!! LOL!! Yup I have been being a slut! LOL!! And loving it!!
I have come to terms with being single and I am loving it!!!!!!!! It would take a lot now for me to get into a realtionship. I like my space now and for someone to invade it would disrupte my being!
I have a Great new Job!! I am working my ass off but I really do not care I am loving it. It took me so long to find the right job that I am just loving being out of the house.
I am really looking forward to the New Year and what all it is going to bring me. I feel it is all going to be good for a change.
I would like to find a b/f but am in no big hurry. If it happens it happens. I don't think at this point in my life though I want someone in my everyday being. I really like being free to do what I want when I want without anyone to answer to.
If you just want to have fun and get to know me email me with your pics and who knows what kind of pics you will get back!!
Have a good Holiday!!
Kisses!