Thanks

Heartfelt Thanks

In this page I want to take the opportunity to thank the people who have had an important place in my heart through this journey that has
transpired in these last couple of years from watching my mother slowly slip away to the aftermath of her death.

To Darcy, whom I met a year before Mum made her transition. Darcy, you watched me struggle with my fears of losing Mum, walked beside me as I began to realize that we were losing Mum piece by piece. You were like a guide and a witness helping me deal with my feelings, my sorrow at watching what was happening to Mum. Although one can never be really prepared for such a significant loss I believe you helped to prepare me as much can be possible.

You once told me that as hard as it was to watch the process of watching Mum slowly slipping away that I was honoring her prcoess and what a privilage it was to witness that, to have nurtured our love for each other
and regain a closeness like never before, to discover an honesty we'd never known, that to take something in life that was inevitable and make it something meaningful. You words were so adept.

To this day I can say I am so thankful that the opportunity to be close to Mum once more before it was to late. I have no regrets, no what ifs and your compassion shined and still does. My profound gratitude to you and the fact that you came into my life when you did, I shall never
forget that.

To Miss Wings

You have been walking right by my side since the day I returned to my home here after saying goodbye to Mum. You have let me be myself, be it in tears, or in laughter. Words defy me to

to express to you what your presence in my life in this last year has meant to me. You truly are the younger sister I never had.

To Tiggy

You have walked a similar path as I have and you have been there for me and understood in a way not many can
understand what it is I've been through
in this last year. To say the least there were certainly times when you were online with me at times when I needed someone the most who could truly

appreciate what it was I was feeling and thinking. I thank-you Tiggy from the depths of my heart for your friendship. Gratitude can only begin to articulate what you have given to me. And thanks for being my editor when I work on the website :)

To Friend4Ever

The first thing you said to me when I told you that I would be flying to your city for my lay

over you unselfishly said you wanted to meet me at the airport and it didn't phase you one bit that it was 8am in the morning that I would arrive. You gave me your cell phone number to call you when I arrived. I will never forget calling that number and both of us talking in the airport but not sure where the other was. I looked to my right and saw you talking on the cell phone.

I want to try an articulate to you what having you there with me for that 3 hour lay over did for me. No question I would have rather met you in person under different circumstances, but as they say such is life. You kept me company and helped me to pass the time at a time when I would have done nothing but think. Your being there helped me to not think about what I was about to face that day I flew home to be with Mum on her last day of her life.

I'm not sure there are words to describe to you to say how much it meant to me to have you there with me during that lay over. I will never forget what you did for me that day and I will always be grateful to you
for that.

To the Journey Through Loss Bereavement Support Group, thanks to the facilitators for starting this group. Finding the group has been a safe haven for me and allowed me to express my thoughts, feelings and experiences in a place where I knew I wasn't alone. A place where others could certainly appreciate my experiences and accepted my path in trying to heal and go on with my life without Mum's presence in my everyday life.

To my friends in real time, my friends who I know in my life other than the internet.

To Bob and Theresa, to say thank-you is just to begin to try and articulate my gratitude to you both for helping me get home that day.
Your generosity and love gave both Mum and I such a precious gift, that
gift being the chance for me to say good-bye to Mum and for her to have
all of her children with her as she made her transition home. I will
never forget in my heart what you both did in helping me be with her.

To Fern, we've known each other since high school, I can't think of anyone I have known the longest and who knows me as well as you do. And sadly you have come to understand on a personal level what this process is like. Thank-you for being the friend that you have been through these years.

To Lois, we've known each other a long time now and I can't tell you how much I appreciated you picking me up at the airport that day and driving me directly to the hospital. You gave me a most precious gift in doing that, the gift to be with Mum longer then I thought I would have thought possible.

To Lise and Barb, you have become my surrogate family. The day you learned that Mum had passed, you Barb called me right after you heard.
I was so touched when I heard your voice, feeling so lost and out of my safe territory of my apartment you reached out to me in a way I never
thought possible.

To Rob, in the last few months since we reconnected you have become
like a brother to me. You've helped me to see once again that there is
a real world out there. Thank-you for being here at my side as I slowly
begin to re-organize my life and gently step forward.

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To my friends from the days of the Geos Ladies Chat room, there is no doubt that I need to thank the womyn there who were there for me as I began to realize Mum's health was failing and that her transition wasn't that far off in the future. You let me do what I needed to without telling me you were tired of hearing me talking about the same thing. In those months leading up to saying good bye to my mother you all made me laugh, you showed you cared, and you let me sing to my hearts content. Thank-you, Gerogiagirl/Savannah, Heaventhere, Ripley, Pafani, Trayye, Kath3, Twostep, Paige, Sleuthgirl, Browneyes, Smoothvoice, Sappho, Mooie, Dykebait, Levi, Tazzy, Wild Tiger, Dreamweaver, Navygurl, O'Shea, Kuhlua, Rantzay, DesertScourge, Pretty Babe,Tweety, Harmony, SweetRogue, Waht ........ no doubt I have left someone out and I do apologize but you all helped in your own special way.

To the Ladies in Lycos, Savannahlawyer, Dusty T , Asleepstilnoon, Baco, Wolfy, Kindred Sprit, Faith, Celtic Maiden, Jennifer Jet, Lacie, Spicegirl, Coley, Toniwonderwoman, Sam_I_AM, Nicelee, Wilzy, Casey, Brenda Ann, Dutchess, Soufuleyes, Fem2boot, Bibbee, Kerio, JanaAtlanta, IrishCute, Eaglelover, Shania, Gecko, Shell, Linley, RobFrWA, Lildee, Sparrow, Marthabigdog, Ellen1967, Prinny, Squizza, Lord of Atlantis, IYD, Redheadgirl11, Planetlover, OneDivineSoul ........ you have all been there for me at one time or another in the aftermath of watching Mum make her transition. You've made me laugh through my tears at times, you've loved me enough to let me hurt and sing the saddest songs I could to try and articulate my feelings and the deepth of the pain I felt. Your patience is greatly appreciated. You all have had a hand in holding me up and for that I thank-you. Again my apologies to those whom I may have left out.

To Deanna whom I met much later down the road in my journey I owe you a profound debt of gratitude for allowing me to vent when I've needed it. You have been willing to hear me out when it seemed others couldn't go there with me. It didn't matter what I said you didn't censor me and yet have been true friend for which I can only begin to thank you for.

Posthumously, to Medic2, words cannot begin to express what your presence and help did for me as I tried to cope in a world that had changed without my mother. Your unconditional love and acceptance came to me at a time when I didn't think it was possible to feel that again. You let me rant and rave without telling me what I should or shouldn't say, you saw that in order for me to work through this I had to talk it out in so many different ways.