As I sat curled up on the couch I couldn’t help but look deep into his eyes. He had the most amazing deep green eyes that a guy could easily get lost in. I had to force myself to look away.
“Hey man, what’s up?” he asked me which frightened me slightly.
I couldn’t believe that I’d been caught out. I started to blush madly and looked away because I was scared; terrified that he was going to find out my little secret. My best friend since as long as I can remember would run, run so fast, away from me and I just couldn’t let that happen. So I took a deep breath to calm my nerves and lied, “It’s been a really long day … I guess my tiredness is finally catching up to me” I started to yawn and stretch to make it a little more believable. Jeff just looked at me oddly for a moment as he stood up and walked over towards me. As he did I got knots in my stomach. I hadn’t felt this way since … well since forever. To be honest, I could remember the last time I felt like this. It was probably the first time I realized I had feeling for my best friend.
“Well I ah guess this is goodnight then” he said softly
“I guess so” I replied as I looked at him again, “I thought you’d be happy to get rid of me”
“Happy to get rid of you? I don’t think so man. I enjoy your company” he smiled. As I sat there looking at him, I couldn’t help but laugh. “It’s true man really” he said as he touched my knee with his hand. I knew it wasn’t in a flirty way, but rather in just a friendly way. Even so, my mind ran wild, I couldn’t believe it. His touch felt so amazing and it was sending me wild. I couldn’t help but place my hand on top of his. I looked at him deeply for a moment before pulling him onto the couch next to me.
“Shannon man what are you doing?” he laughed as I started to tickle him lightly. I couldn’t help myself, the guy was driving me crazy and I just needed to touch him, and what better way then tickling? It just felt so right. Call it my drunken stupa, but I had a feeling that Jeff was enjoying himself too. There was just something about him, something that seemed so new and different, and I loved it. So much so I couldn’t help but lick my lips before leaning down and running my tongue over his cheek and lips. I knew as soon as I did it I wouldn’t but I couldn’t stop myself. And I was surprised because Jeff didn’t resist either. I guess the guy was more out of it then I originally thought.
As I starred down at him again I couldn’t help but get lost in his eyes. They truly are amazing green eyes like I mentioned before. I was so caught up in the beauty of them that I didn’t notice myself inch closer and closer to his face. It wasn’t until our lips met for the first time that I realised what I was doing. It felt so amazing, better then I’d ever imagined, and trust me, there was a day that went past that I didn’t wonder what it would be like to kiss Jeff. It then dawned on me though that Jeff wouldn’t feel the same way as me. I started to fear his reaction when he finally realised just what was going on. So I broke the kiss. I broke the most amazing kiss I’d ever experienced because of my fear and concern.
As I did, Jeff looked up at me. I was so surprised not to see hate and anger in his eyes, instead they sparkled. I looked at him with confused before he lent up and captured my lips around. My mind exploded as he did. I couldn’t believe what was happening. I thought I was dreaming. My mind was just going a hundred miles an hour and I loved it. The kiss was ten times better then the last one we’d just shared. When we parted this time I looked at him and got all embarrassed.
“Oh man I’m … I’m so sorry … I ah … I shouldn’t have … please … please don’t hate me Jeff … I … I just … well I” I stuttered. I couldn’t believe just how tongue tied I’d gotten. All I could do was babble a hundred miles an hour. Instead of my mind going that fast, it was my mouth and no matter how hard I tried to be quiet I couldn’t. Who knows what Jeff was thinking? I mean so much had happen in the last few minutes, so much that could change and ultimately ruin our friendship and it freaked me out. That’s why I couldn’t keep quiet. I slowly raised my head and looked up at Jeff and was surprised to see the cheeky grin on his face. I looked at him puzzled before he touched my lips with his index finger. He then winked at me before leaning in and capturing my lips again.
I felt his hands roam over my body as we kissed and it made my wild. I wanted him, I wanted him so badly. I always have. I couldn’t help but let my hands run wild through his coloured hair. No matter what he did to his hair, it always looked so sexy, even if the piggy tails.
“Mmm Shannon” Jeff moaned
“I ah … I’m sorry Jeff” I said jumping up off the couch.
“Shannon baby where are you going?”
“I ah … I” I started to mumble as he came over towards me. He placed his fingers over my lips and hushed me once again. Shivers ran up and down my spine. Having him here, so close sent me over the edge. All I wanted to do was jump him and make love to him here and now not worrying about what others would think. All I knew was I loved him, and not just in a brotherly, best friend way. It was deeper, I just wish he knew.
“Wow” Jeff smiled as he looked at me and started to rub my leg. “I never thought it would be that amazing” he grinned. I looked at him with confusion. Surely he didn’t mean. What am I thinking here, of course he didn’t. This is Jeff I’m talking about here. I looked down at him hands and my hair fell down across my face shielding me from his preying eyes. He moved closer towards me and carefully brushed my hair off my face, before lifting my head so that we were once again looking eye to eye. He softly touched my face and said,
“Shanny” as he said my name I felt sick to the stomach. I knew what he was going to say, and I just couldn’t hear his words. So I didn’t the only thing I could thing of.
“It’s ok Jeffie, I understand, we shouldn’t have … and I … I’m really sorry” I said as I got up off the couch and headed off to my room. I felt just so lost as I did. My head was spinning and all I wanted to do was crawl under a rock and never come out. Even better would be getting swallowed up, never to be seen again. It would beat the embarrassment and rejection I felt. And I just knew that this would make things between Jeff and I just so unbearable.
I walked over to the wardrobe and pulled out my over night bag. This was the only thing I could thing of. In the morning I was going to leave. Go and stay with some friends for a while. Just anything to get away, away from Jeff.
As I started to throw things into my bag there was a knock on the door. Without a word spoken, the door opened slowly. Jeff stood and watched me in shock before finally speaking.
“What are you doing?” What did he think I was doing? Running along naked in the rain?
“I’m ah I’m going away for a while” I managed to get out. I didn’t look at him though, just continued to throw things into my bag. When I’d finally finished I just tossed the bag to the side before sitting down on my bed. I was surprised to see Jeff standing there. “It’s just for a while … just … well I don’t want … want what happened to ruin anything between us” I said softly. That’s when he walked over towards me, shutting the door behind himself. He sat down opposite me taking my hands in his own.
“Please don’t go Shanny” he said softly as he touching my cheek softly before leaning in and kissing me again. This time he didn’t let things just end there. While kissing he carefully lay be back onto the bed before unbuttoning my shirt. My head was spinning. Surely this was just a dream. Some unreal dream that I was going to wake up from anytime now. It definitely wouldn’t be the first time I’d had such a dream about Jeff. It wasn’t until I felt him pulling my jeans off that I realised this wasn’t a dream.
I soon learnt just how Jeff felt. And boy did it surprise me. I never imagined in a hundred years that he’d blow me like that. Damn it was just so amazing, even now I find it a little hard to believe. But it didn’t stop there. We had quite the wild morning together. We didn’t even get to sleep. Just lay in each others arms and talked. Boy its amazing what you learn when you listen to someone. You listen to each and every word, unafraid of what might be said.
While we lay naked in one another’s arms there was a knock on the door.
“Hey Shannon you awake man?” Jeff and I looked at each other and laughed. We’d forgotten all about him and knowing our luck he would have heard every minute of our time together, because we weren’t exactly quiet.
“Yeah Matt I’m awake”
“Oh good have you seen…” he said as he opened the door slowly “Oh shit … sorry … I ah” Jeff and I just laughed
“Dude what’s up?” he closed his eyes and said
“I was worried something had happened to Jeff. Damnit I wasn’t expecting to find you guys in bed together” he laughed, “About bloody time if you ask me, but hey next time give a guy a little warning. No offence but I don’t wanna see my baby brother naked … and I definitely don’t wanna hear you two at it again”
“Your just jealous bro” Jeff laughed, “coz you aren’t getting any”
“Oh yeah that’s what you think” he grinned before heading back out of the room leaving Jeff and I together again. We just laughed before snuggling up even closer to one another and falling to sleep.
