I'm a textbook teenage fuck-up, which now pretty much constitutes the norm. I've had every non-psychotic mental illness under the sun: clinical depression, anorexia nervosa, self-injury, social anxiety disorder and an indeterminate personality disorder. Visually, I'm odd looking. Especially my lips. There's something of a genetic muscular mutation, exaggeratedly speaking, that exists on the Irish side of my family. I'm not exactly sure how to medically explain it but it involves the Levator labii superioris alaeque nasi or "Elvis" muscle. There is no or very little muscle on one side of my upper lip and too much muscle on the other side. So, one side droops, while the other side is a snarl. I was the centre of ridicule when I was younger because of this, plus I developed very, very early on. To give you an example, I got my period when I was 9. Yeah. Ouch.
I became a vegetarian in 2002, though I still eat fish. I refuse to completely affiliate myself with mainstream contemporary feminism: women embarrassing women by fighting for unrealistic equality whilst promoting the victimization of loop-hole rapists [1]. How can I be so antagonistic towards feminism? I went to a feminist school for 2 years and witnessed first hand the sheer hypocritical bullshit that people were basing their philosophy on. I don't hate a lot of feminists, as many of them have good intentions. Camille Paglia, a brilliant intellectual and anti-feminist feminist is the only redeeming quality on the face of feminism in my mind's eye.
Plus, feminist terms like "womyn" prompt me to lower my head in shame. Generally, I feel that "isms" aim to merge a national mindset, which fail to recognize variations of a shared opinion, which denotes the hypocrisy of the democratic republic ideal [2]. At this stage in my life, I consider myself an agnostic. Up until a while ago, I considered myself an atheist, but I softened simply because I realized I wasn't obstinate in my belief in the absolute inexistence of a God. Plus there is a stigma of anti-religion that surrounds atheism that I no longer associate myself with. I'm more open and curious towards religion now. My outlook towards the possible existence of a superior power may or may not change in the future.
Wow. I bet you think I'm an asshole, huh? [3]