April

Apr. 1

Jennifer spent her morning in her room with the light on and then later on she gave me a 2-page letter telling me that what i was saying last night was not right. and she spent a night somewhere else last night. i think she assumed me to be sorry about getting her mad but all i have in my mind is more anger. she said in the letter that her family don't live here so when they buy her things she has to take it beacuse who knows when she might need something and she won't be able to get it until she sees her family whenever that may me a long time from now (quoted almost directly from her). this is not a good reason to make me feel sorry for u. u told me that you have an aunt who lives in SA and your other aunt and your grandparents live only 45 mins away from here. ok. u can say that during this one month all of them just coincidently moved to somewhere else far away from here. u have your own car and a well-paid job, a job that u don't even need to go to work to get paid. whenever your family comes u can also ask them for money. i don't have a family here and i don't even have a car. do u see me stocking all the food up as if we are ants that we won't leave the apartment for a few months just like the ants do in winter? no! i don't think u will die of hunger if your family don't buy u food when they come. if u think you can't survive without your family's support, if u think u need your family to fill your stomach up, go back to your mom. go stay with your family. don't come to me and say "i don't want to stay with my family. i want to live by myself and get away from my parents' control."
parking lot D草地好綠呀﹗仲開始有好多花﹐又有蒲公英﹐好有春天氣息﹗好開心
Chem考試比我想像中容易﹐好彩﹐真係未讀晒就去考
晚上去IHOP食飯+溫Cal﹐飲了三杯咖啡﹐淨係掛住傾計﹐唔係溫左好多。食到好飽﹐好滿足﹐終於有得出去食飯啦
諗住飲左三杯咖啡實訓唔著﹐點知一點就訓左了

Apr. 2

係campus撞到June﹐陪她走去library﹐又撞到Will﹐去Caf一齊做PreLab﹐食lunch﹐原來Caf D lunch都唔錯﹐我食左D mash potato, pork同corn。 全部都係我鐘意食既野
和同學在library讀書﹐點知有個無show up﹐淨番我同David﹐好無聊﹐又唔識做Phy

Apr. 3

a surprising news! jennifer thinks she might be pragnant again! gosh! do u know how much trouble u've got already? do u think u can manage another baby? do u think having a baby is good for your education. wut if she die again? do u think u can take it? and u slept with a married guy! do u think the baby's father is gonna be responsible? u only know this guy for a few months! horrible! what kind of sex education did u have? i m really glad i m gonna move out in a month. if u really have a baby, God bless your future roommates.
今日又好凍﹐好凍好凍...春天﹐你俚埋左去邊度呀﹖
做完晒resitation﹐呢個weekend又煩少樣野了﹗可以開始做extra project了
考Cal﹐唔識做一題﹐無左三分﹐死啦﹗實拉低average啦

Apr. 4

又係Physics﹐Jeff又無返﹐唔知係咪drop左呢﹖
努力做Physics功課﹐都係唔識做。努力做我個craft work﹐都係messed up左
fellowship今日講既內容好interesting﹐Consecration. 開始想買本書黎讀添
要諗辦法去Austin找地方住啦﹗如果唔係無地方住﹐要訓街就唔好啦
朝夕相對既地位已經不知不覺地被人取代了

Apr. 5

發夢返屋企發現apartment無端端係度裝修﹐門口貼了張紙寫住吉屋出租﹐出去時仲好地地架渦﹐點解變成甘既﹖ 甘我住邊呀﹖其他roommates去晒邊﹖我D財物呢﹖
好想返HOU﹐拒地終於玩lock-in﹐等左兩年啦﹗點解偏偏唔比我去﹖
成個晏晝又0係lab度過﹐差唔多做完個project。好開心
國語退步了﹗<下學>都比我講得出口﹐仲被人聽成下雪﹗(原意﹕放學/下課)
夜晚餐飯有兩個選擇﹐跟Daniel去Lauren屋企﹐又或者同阿Mike媽咪食飯﹐選擇左Daniel﹐上到車先知道Mike去食 韓國燒烤﹐早知跟拒去啦﹗不過去Lauren屋企又識多幾個人都唔錯既。
夜晚去碌ling。最初幾球好搞笑﹐個波會彈﹗有無見過人碌ling碌個波出去個波會彈兩野先碌走﹖淤死我啦﹗ 好在隔離無咩人﹐好少可星期五晚0甘少人黎碌ling。 後尾鎮定D之後碌得穩陣左D﹐仲間唔中有strike添﹗haha!!!最後果局仲有一百分﹐好開心。玩到兩點幾先走﹐ 聽日仲話七點出發去Austin﹐點起度身﹖

Apr. 6

琴晚撻上床半個鐘之後竟然樓下有人行過大聲講野噪醒﹗真係好想訂拖鞋落去﹗跟住過左一個鐘又有人打電話黎﹐即刻cut拒線。 再訓﹐六點半就被Ari打黎morning call我﹐剛訓著又要噪醒我﹐好想唔去﹐不過話左陪Mike去﹐唔可以失約﹗點知結果係Mike失我約﹐唔聽我地電話
訓得短短兩個鐘都比我發到夢﹐不過我好似有發夢失憶症﹐每朝早努力記個夢﹐到寫日記果時一定唔記得架渦﹗ 而家只記得我偷偷地拿Jennifer雪櫃入面D野食黎食﹐無端端Jennifer同一個細路出現﹐我即刻好滄咄甘收埋d食物﹐唔被拒發現
係車度訓到阿媽打黎﹐好眼訓仲要被人鬧入唔到A&M。都話UT實收我咯﹐仲洗乜驚唧﹖話晒我而家都叫做0係大學丫﹗ 我都話我好蠢﹐唔好再話我聰明﹐唔好比太大期望我好無﹖由得我自由發展啦。好曳甘駁媽咪嘴﹐critize阿媽既基督徒生活
係Austin識到唔少人﹐又多D人可以幫我找roommate啦。It's nice chatting with Ari and Arin on our way back to SA. We have some nice conversation even tho I was kinda sick becos of the way Ari drove. I never have carsick, u know. but this time, it's really horrible
返到屋企訓到六點。好想好想食McDonald﹐竟然為0左呢件甘少既事而哭﹗只不過無車又找唔到人車遮﹐都唔應該甘沮喪既。 快D去UT啦。到時唔洗車都可以自己去買野食啦﹗到最後都係找Jennifer車我去﹐hehe...好滿足啦﹐總算有D野satisfied
原來Mike今朝唔見左個電話﹐嚇死我地﹐仲以為拒失左蹤添
讀返上年D日記﹐發現自己愈黎愈無心寫呢個page﹐寫D野愈黎愈悶﹐唔怪得收視率甘低啦﹗不過自己又係衰D既﹐成日懶得update。 點解我無虎榮0個種停唔到手既心志﹖

Apr. 7

無端端收到Ruby電話話去睇馬戲團表演﹐SA都有馬戲表演架咩﹖遲到﹐好多人買飛﹐腳指仔插隊都無人覺﹐ 個表演比較低級﹐無乜高難度表演。淨係得炸彈飛人係比較特別﹐未睇過。見到個dolphin吹氣公仔好cute﹐可惜係粉紅色﹐唔係藍色。 食好耐無食過既cotton candy同popcorn﹐好開心
返到腳指仔屋企就開始落大雨﹐行雷閃電﹐好在早走一步﹐如果唔係實淋死。最後大家跟Daniel去勉勉屋企食勉勉煮既飯﹐ 好多洋蔥﹐搞到我標晒眼水﹐勉勉煮左好多飯﹐食到好飽好飽﹐好耐未食到甘飽lu﹐好滿足
同Daniel拗手瓜﹐仲要兩隻手鬥一隻手﹐我都係輸左﹐睇黎我D體能真係差左好多﹐而家跑跑跳跳都好似無甘靈活
伯娘話好可能伯爺唔會同我地一齊返HK﹐即係話我要做拒既back-up﹐帶兩個女返HK﹐唔可以早D返去﹐不過都好既﹐比D時間我搞summer school D野
Mike, Daniel同腳指仔係度講上個sem拒地玩得幾開心﹐好可惜我今個sem先識拒地﹐錯過左好多fun stuffs﹐又妒忌又羨慕﹗ 仲有一個月我又走lu﹐只係認識到拒地短短四個月時間﹐腳指仔又走﹐其他人又就黎畢業﹐SA以後又會少左班香港人啦。 好可惜我甘遲先返HK﹐meet唔到拒地。

Apr. 8

琴晚講電話講到兩點幾﹐今朝十點幾先起身﹐應該係好夠訓既﹐點知返到學校又開始眼訓﹐又唔記得帶筆袋返學。 派左Cal﹐諗住會被拒扣3分﹐點知扣得兩分﹐都有18/20﹐幾surprised﹗夜晚返到屋企唔理三七‘也’一撻上床訓先。 到九點幾姑媽打黎先醒﹐最後都典到十點幾先起身﹐沖完涼﹐上左一陣網又訓過﹗豬﹗
身體機能開始減慢﹐星期五去碌ling﹐到今日隻手先開始痛。人地話人到左25歲就開始走下波﹐係咪架

Apr. 9

琴日明明訓左好多﹐今日Phy堂又洽眼訓﹐個腦好清醒﹐聽到先生講咩﹐但係雙眼偏偏要同我作對﹐我諗我患上左竭睡症
做最後一個lab﹐下次返去考埋試就唔洗再出現啦﹐好0野﹗原本對Chem既興趣被呢間學校打消左了
今次應該輪到Jennifer買paper towel﹐Leia寫張note叫拒買﹐點知拒寫返張note黎話幾個星期前拒阿媽買左一卷比拒﹐ 我地已經用左﹐而家唔應該輪到拒買。嘩﹗你估成個sem我地淨係用三卷paper towel就夠﹖每個星期我地都用成卷啦﹗ 你諗住contribute果一卷就夠﹖0甘以後你唔好用啦
開始睇Harry Potter﹐完全停唔到手﹐唔係因為夜晚要去Cal HW group我諗我成晚都會對住本書。 就好似以前追Left Behind一樣﹐日日夜夜拿住本書停放唔低
David做數做得好慢﹐根本咩都唔記得晒。我嘗試好有耐性0甘教拒﹐等到九點半先走得﹐ 又去麥記﹐拒仲肯車我去HEB添﹐可能拒想答謝我教拒數卦。搞到成十二點先返屋企
我連自己會否去退修會亦未知﹐竟然成了一個Recreation sub-committee member﹐這令我想起自己也是一位Team Leader﹐ 可是這幾個月來我有多少個周末在HOU度過﹖真的很對不起我的組員﹐當初為何會自薦﹖ 還有一個月便是我們的死期了﹐我們還不知要幹甚麼﹐主席不在﹐組員又怎會主動開會﹖ 忽然很後悔沒留下讀中六﹐也許我的領導才能會比現在好十倍

Apr. 10

今日派回CS project﹐好開心做得唔錯﹐好滿意﹐成堂就係度講份project﹐諗住會review星期五個test添﹐ 點知淨係講左少少廢野。結果成堂係度check email同睇虎榮日記同埋D散文﹐係屋企無得上0甘耐網﹐無得睇﹐而家睇返夠本
Cal無端端話下星期考quiz﹐今日得6個人黎上堂﹐希望其他人星期一會出現啦﹐至少知quiz D咩丫嘛
原本諗住skip Chem﹐好在有去﹐終於教D我唔識既野﹐算係有D斬獲
返到屋企諗住睇Harry Potter﹐突然聽到樓下有人係度唔停響安﹐跟住屋企門就開左﹐我就好八o甘走去窗口睇下係邊個同埋黎車邊個。 跟住就聽到出面廳好噪﹐走出去發現Jennifer同Leia係度爭執﹐唔知為咩﹐Jennifer就拿住袋包袱走左﹐話今晚唔返黎訓。 拒走後我走去Leia睇下究竟發生咩事﹐Jennifer寫了張note話拒收唔到pay check﹐因為間學校寄錯左地址﹐而家無錢﹐ 學校要stop payment先可以補返張check比拒﹐五月底先可以收到。void張check洗唔洗兩個月呀﹖唔想比就直接講啦﹐點解要作到0甘誇張﹖ 明知我地五月中就走﹐諗住我地問唔到你拿錢﹐就0甘就算﹖我地似Do甘既人咩﹖你無錢﹐我地都無乜架咋。Leia同拒講唔買paper towel就唔好用拒D野﹐所有刀叉﹐ microwave, pot...通通唔好用啦
夜晚平息靜氣後又拿起Harry Potter黎睇﹐睇到兩點都唔願訓

Apr. 11

今朝就領教到夜訓既後果啦﹗上Phy完全lost﹐唔知條fomular係邊度出黎﹐又唔知應該用D咩methods﹐真係唔明到想喊
返到屋企又情不自敢地拿起Harry Potter來看。後來都懂得停手﹐轉做Physics﹐發現原來不是想像中那麼難。明天考CS﹐要好好溫習
閱讀友人日記﹐我也很想在尖沙嘴閑逛﹐回味從前無憂無慮的歲月。想起以前一起吃飯﹐一起趕功課﹐一起回家的日子﹐ 想起不能再返回那段日子﹐令我更懂得珍惜現有的一切﹐四年大學很快便會過﹐將來的我回望這段日子﹐希望不只是慨嘆重重
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Apr. 12

考完CS啦﹗我諗唔到自己make左D咩mistake﹐但係硬係有D野唔妥﹐快D到星期一啦﹐好想知自己考成點﹐應該有A卦
成個晏晝係度洗衫﹐睇Harry Potter﹐夜晚正準備去gym既時候撞到Mike同Tim﹐話去Mavicks渦﹐不過可能唔去meeting﹐ 我照跟拒地去﹐好後悔無留係屋企﹐因為最終無去meeting﹐我坐左係個度三個鐘睇拒地打波﹐又無Harry Potter睇﹐ 九點終於打完波﹐去食海鮮﹐有生豪食﹐雖然係要比錢﹐無左meeting餐免費飯食﹐不過食得好開心
夜晚個個都好累﹐去左Mike度陪Pauline睇黃子華棟篤笑﹐拒講D野要好多歷史背景先會明﹐主要係講六四﹐我都唔識得笑
返屋企上陣網就拿住本Harry Potter放唔低﹐睇晒成本啦﹗好想快D到聽日問Leia借第二本黎睇

Apr. 13

記得發咩夢啦﹗因為剛剛發完就上網。
知道係現實生活中HOU有幾個人會今日去睇車展﹐檸檬好想帶埋我去添。都估唔到0甘就會發夢﹐可能我潛意識都好想去卦
夢中知道他們會在彪叔家集合﹐唔知點解伯娘要去果度拿返架車﹐發現成條街都拍滿晒車﹐成個YAF都係入面集合﹐ 我話好想跟拒地去﹐連龍哥都話可以帶埋我去﹐但係非利士人話唔比我去﹐要我返SA﹐我講左句‘唔去咪唔去咯﹗’就喊住甘跟左伯娘走﹐ 落車就去到一間apartment﹐June同Leia都係入面﹐應該係我間apt﹐但係格局唔同﹐拒地話今日我生日﹐唔好喊啦﹐食蛋糕啦﹗叫我揀蠟燭顏色﹐ 我好論盡0甘倒晒D蠟燭出黎﹐仲未揀到蠟燭拒地已經插左兩支上個蛋糕到﹐仲點埋添﹐唱緊生日歌了﹗乜唔係我生日咩﹖點解唔等埋我架﹖
整日留係屋企睇Harry Potter II同上網﹐對眼好累﹐但係好唔想停﹐好想知Harry會發生咩事
好慶幸黎左美國﹐因為發現除左美國之外其他國家都唔係出名係computer science。找唔到好既exchange program去其他國家﹐ 或者去UT再問下啦
Leia決定報UT﹐希望下年見到拒啦﹐希望到時唔會係你入到時我被UT踢返出黎啦﹗如果入到就開心啦﹐唔洗每個weekend係度走黎走去咯

Apr. 14

加左[好朋友版]係呢個page﹐我D文筆唔係0甘好﹐大家唔好介意﹐有咩想改記得話我知。遲D先再整好D個background同個index
五點寶玲急召去遊花園兜風﹐發現原來ChaseHill後面有D風景幾靚既街﹐後尾去IHOP食野﹐仲撞到June, Ellen同Kelly。 好滿足0甘食到好飽﹐好開心﹐唔洗煮。
計續沉迷係Harry Potter同[好朋友版]度

Apr. 15

收到CS個Test﹐A到﹐好開心。夜晚Yadi過左黎傾計﹐Jennifer仲未返﹐唔知係咪想避債﹖ 後尾又去左另一個女仔個apt度食pizza﹐傾左陣計
睇完Harry Potter II啦﹗向Harry Potter III進發﹗希望semester完之前睇晒﹐要還返比Leia嘛

Apr. 16

見到Gigi同Chendo係Science Building出面﹗即係Jennifer返左黎啦﹗跟住放學就見到Jennifer迎面而來﹐一見到我調頭走﹗ 做乜甘驚我唧﹖我唔會食左你架bor﹐只會唔停甘問你要錢遮﹐甘你係爭我錢丫嘛
Chem Lab Exam﹐好唔sure答成點﹐尤其是D definition﹐是但嘔D野落去算。不過以後唔洗再去啦﹐好開心啦
Amy請返我食pizza﹐因為要我地等﹐個黑鬼特登比塊大塊既pizza比我地﹐好飽﹗之後Amy黎左我apt﹐我同Leia講晒Jennifer D野被拒知﹗ Amy好有興致講煮飯﹐後尾仲話要煮飯比我同Leia食﹗I can't believe she put peanut butter + hot sauce + sesame oil + soy sauce + chicken powder + sugar + salt & pepper in it. She basically put everything I have in it to make the seasoning and it tastes good! Leia all of a suddenly feel like having Chickva'le so she just tried a little bit
晏晝5點幾落大雨﹐之後仲落雹﹗好得意﹐特然間D雨停晒﹐跟住就落雹﹐落完雹就又大返雨﹐跟住突然間又停雨落雹。D雹有兵兵波甘大粒﹐ 企係門口睇﹐好excited! 之後一直都落大雨﹐等雨細D就衝去Cal HW group﹐點知仲爭幾步路又落返大雨﹗對腳濕晒﹐up住成晚好辛苦
走去IHOP做數﹐做做下maine打電話黎﹐講左成個鐘先收線﹐都好耐無同拒傾計啦﹐今次又使大家距離近左D啦﹐暑假返HK見啦﹗
點幾鐘臨走時阿忠又打黎﹐做乜今晚突然0甘多好日都唔打黎既電話﹖後尾就返屋企時Leia又打電話黎話拒找到D野﹐freaking out! 我即刻趕返屋企睇下咩事﹐ Leia係Jennifer房找到一張UTSA信話Jennifer有probation因為拒threathen to kill herself and her mother! O My Gosh! 我一路睇封信一路震﹗so would she threathen to kill us if we force her to buy paper towel?
覆返個電話比忠之後就即刻去訓

Apr. 17

訓到十一點先起身﹐見Chendo黎接Jennifer﹐跟住去bible study﹐食左3塊pizza﹐完左CS堂即刻走去UC訓陣先﹐好眼訓﹐爭D唔知醒
Cal Quiz最早交卷係我﹐先生話無錯﹐準備走去UC睇Harry Potter III撞到Kelly﹐陪拒去邏transcript﹐傾左成大半個鐘﹐講下香港人點解D國語可以講得甘差﹐ 而香港人學國語係容易過臺灣人學廣東話。走去Chem班房睇Harry Potter﹐Dr. Hochmann遲到﹐但係講唔夠30分鐘就話今日係0甘多﹐個個都好愕然﹗我就即刻返去訓﹐好累
九點起身﹐傾下電話﹐上下網﹐睇下Austin D housing﹐好煩﹗無人同我住﹐無人同我找apartment﹗下個sem唔知住邊好啦﹗搞搞下就三點先訓
Leia話office director, Letty找拒傾Jennifer件事﹐Letty講到好似企係Jennifer果邊﹐唔停0甘叫 Leia to be more sensitive about her losing her child. 究竟Jennifer同你講左D乜﹖你知唔知成件事究竟係點﹖ 拒而家唔係爭你錢就緊係0甘講啦﹐如果拒話無錢交租你會有咩反應﹖如果話屋企人過身就唔洗買paper towel既話﹐ 甘如果我地三個都有family過身就無paper towel用啦渦﹖paper towel最多咪$5﹐你話可以問屋企人拿錢交電費﹐ 唔係拿多果五蚊都拿唔到呀﹖好明顯唔係負擔唔起﹐係唔想比﹐or好可能連果$20電費都比唔到﹗點算﹖

Apr. 18

Physics簡直係折磨﹐勁洽眼訓﹐今日仲要有recitation﹐要坐多半個鐘﹐好在斷斷續續都聽得晒拒講咩﹐都好似明既
June來把東西搬走﹐再次見面﹐好像已經連朋友都不如﹐感覺很怪﹐可能由始至終她都從未視我為朋友﹐只不過曾經是室友﹐ 係街撞到會打招呼的同學﹐事實上我亦未曾跟她講過任何自己的事﹐又怎可叫朋友﹖很記得你多次跟我訴說自己怎樣被人欺負﹐ 讓我以為你當我係講心事既朋友﹐很多餐晚飯﹐多次一起grocery shopping﹐車我返HOU﹐真的感激不盡。 相信將來見面機會甚微﹐希望你跟Steven可以開開心心﹐你是一個好女生﹐我亦希望你得到幸福
睡了一整個下午﹐很滿足﹐沒有去fellowship﹐太累了﹗ 今晚一個人係屋企﹐Jennifer又走左啦﹐突然好想Leia係度陪我﹐點知Jennifer會唔會無端端發神經返黎羅刀斬人架

朋友想﹕
如果冇住hall
冇上庄
冇拍拖
冇入到HKU
日子會係點﹖

我想﹕
如果無黎美國
無揀Houston
無讀highschool
無返SWCBC
無識June
無揀UTSA
日子會係點﹖
謎....

Apr. 19

證實左我真係有發夢失憶症﹗剛起身食完早餐就已經唔記得個夢既詳細內容了。只記得我去左美國其中一個殖民地-北京﹐ 點知果度又落雹又淋樓﹐我地要周圍避﹗好混亂﹐後尾出面落雪﹐其他人唔信﹐我衝出去睇拒地想拉住我都拉唔切﹐ 事實上真係落緊雪﹐大家就慫一口氣﹐係條街度玩雪。記得夢中最後我話可以帶爹D媽咪同細妹黎﹐因為係美國殖民地﹐ 又近香港﹐我又識講普通話﹐又識路。我阿妹又好想玩雪﹐北京最適合
學校有carnival for Fiesta。好多booth﹐好似好好玩﹐可惜我有CS class﹐唔去得﹐做project做到四點幾﹐仲有好多bugs未殺到
夜晚去團契﹐第一次見人係garage既浴缸受浸﹐聽日Chris同Natalie結婚﹐所以想浸左先﹐好簡單既浸禮﹐無牧師﹐無白袍﹐ 只有一班弟兄姊妹圍埋一齊做見證﹐Brother George kinda扶起拒地﹐that's it! 拒地仲話anytime興起都可以黎浸。 點解0係正式教會又要上慕道班﹐又要預約﹐又要摘日﹐又要著袍﹖
話左比其中一個人聽Jennifer有潛在危險﹗叫大家小心D
睇完Harry Potter III啦

Apr. 20

晏晝應承左David去做volanteer﹐去Fiesta收拍車錢﹐好在有人有架Pathfinder﹐可以坐係trunk度﹐我地個entrance無乜生意﹐ 因為係後門。擒上車頂感覺好舒服﹐不過有車入黎就要急急腳跳落黎﹐車入面又有電視﹐掛住睇Toy Story﹐爭D比架車走左去﹗ David負責收錢﹐我負責比ticket﹐有好幾個人走黎問路﹐仲有個用Spanish問添﹐我地又唔識路﹐又唔識Spanish﹐成日要等Sandra黎答。 六點幾終於完﹗大家都話要去睇下究竟有咩玩。Fiesta係一個墨西哥既節日﹐但係我仲未find out到背後既history。 好多墨西哥野食﹐仲有D人係台上面唱歌﹐不過主要係西班牙歌﹐都唔識聽。大家行左一個圈就開始買野食﹐ 我就唔係好肚餓﹐食左個roasted corn同幾啖Turkey Leg﹐兩樣都好好食﹐好耐未食過唔痴牙既粟米啦。 食完後大家就走左去睇人唱歌﹐同我一齊去0個幾個人全部都好hyper﹐係到跳舞。我就好累好累﹐只想找個地方坐下。 唯有企係度盡量郁少D啦﹐睇D人跳舞﹐有D跳得好好笑﹐尤其是D大肥婆﹐有個仲上左台跳﹐D肉蹬下蹬下﹐好嘔心
好累﹐返屋企逼自己入廁所沖涼﹐等個頭乾時坐係梳化同Jennifer傾計﹐拒又有左BB啦﹐仲話個爹D有老婆添﹗ Jennifer同個男人講如果拒唔負責任既話拒就話比拒老婆聽﹐個男人叫拒落左拒﹐Jennifer話都有諗過﹐ 好記得個幾月前你先喊住同我講話有個女仔落左個innocent baby﹐而家輪到你就喊唔出咧﹗都唔知個BB係你手中會變成點﹐真係可憐
唔知拒係咪知道我地睇到拒封信呢﹖拒話舊年呢個時候拒大肚﹐個男朋友同拒係拒媽咪度住﹐但係拒媽咪唔係幾鐘意個男仔﹐ Jennifer was moody and she hit her mom. I think that was what they called 'threathen to kill her mother.' 另外拒又話拒family are quite disappointed﹐唔想見拒﹐所以拒拿唔到錢交電費﹐甘算點先

Apr. 21

成日留係屋企做Physics功課﹐唔係好識最後果個section﹐上網上左成晚﹐好無聊﹐要讀Chem啦﹗星期三考試﹐ 但係無咩mood讀
將Jennifer所有事講晒比Leia聽﹐我地決定星期二去同Mindy講﹐希望Jennifer到時會show up啦﹐拒今晚又無出現啦

Apr. 22

應承幫腳指仔找學校資料﹐上完堂已經好後悔了﹐好累﹐好想睡﹐點知Mike又打黎找我幫手做功課﹐又應承左﹐ 諗住係D用腦既功課﹐原來係HIST寫paper﹐仲要聽晚交﹐要做research添﹐留係library兩個鐘search around﹐ 諗住返屋企開始寫﹐點知食完野就訓左lu

Apr. 23

四點彈起身醒起要做份paper﹐做到七點幾﹐搞掂晒大部份﹐好滿意0甘返學。晏晝努力寫埋D primary sources, Washington D speech好難明﹐ 搞左好耐先寫完0個五個sources
原本諗住去Cal個study group﹐點知Mike打黎叫我去Bro George度食飯﹐結果選擇左食飯﹐話左比Peggy聽what was going on with Jennifer. 到九點幾返屋企﹐無去做數。應該讀Chem又無讀﹐成晚無所事事﹐好早訓左

Apr. 24

發夢了﹐今次好記得﹐因為嚇醒左﹕
返smcc﹐有ling同Karine同我一齊﹐所有人都好似仲係0個度返緊學﹐只有我缺席左一段日子﹐ main entrance條旋轉樓梯用繩封住左﹐唔比人行﹐拒兩個話遲到啦﹐檻過條繩行樓梯﹐唔知點解我越行越累﹐ 走到最後無力檻返兩條繩出黎﹐我要用隻手拿起隻腳﹐擺隻腳過去﹐上到樓梯頂見到Ms To﹐比拒鬧我地行forbidden stairs( 就好似Harry Potter入面既forbidden forest)﹐諗住會罰到好犀利啦﹗點知Ms To淨係話我返番黎學校唔係大晒﹐唔代表乜野﹐ 唔好諗住咩都做得無人管﹐我就好累甘坐係度聽拒講野﹐半昏迷狀態﹐都睇唔到野乜滯﹐好喘。到拒話可以走得我又突然間無晒事渦﹗ ling同Karine帶我去new building方向﹐入左間好大既房﹐Ms #係入面行黎行去﹐好多同屆既同學係入面﹐D凳隨便擺﹐有少少似分左group﹐ 拒兩個走去近門口兩個位度坐﹐淨返我自己單丁﹐兜左個圈﹐準備坐係一個位時﹐隔離個同學話哩個位留比Alice Lam坐﹐唔知點解係夢中覺得0個個不知名同學 好憎Alice架啵﹐點解肯同拒坐都唔同我坐既﹖跟住見到翟凱怡成堆人用討厭既眼光望住我﹐我好驚甘走左出去﹐去bungalow隔離既廁所﹐ 發現轉晒做樽廁﹐左腳好冼﹐係廁所扑低左﹗條kahkis褲濕晒﹗仲有好多lower form係度睇住添﹗好淤呀﹗跟住就嚇醒左
再訓返﹐又發過夢﹐又係廁所奇遇﹕
去郊野公園﹐好熱﹐行到好累﹐去公廁﹐發現每一隔都有隻動物係入面﹐訓係樽廁隔離﹐嚇死﹐同我一齊入去個女仔話唔洗驚﹐唔搞拒就無事架啦﹐ 隻野又真係唔郁架啵﹐入去為免好似先前個夢甘冼親﹐我扶實D牆﹐好小心行入去﹐點知又冼親﹐今次縮得切﹐但係隻腳係隻野前面擾讓﹐整醒左拒﹐ 撲過黎咬我﹗原來係老虎黎架﹗好在我識馴獸﹐一手托住拒下巴﹐另一隻手捉住拒頭頂﹐再反一反手﹐就反轉左拒﹐而家拒背對住我﹐我好似綁匪甘脅持住拒﹐ 拒四肢向前亂抓﹐搞到無人敢行埋黎﹐喂﹗幫幫手啦﹐好驚呀﹗跟住又醒左lu
朝早係甘二睇下本書就走去bible study﹐今日好似好多人﹐同Jason交換左電話﹐去Austin前可以互相聯絡。 成日有好多機會溫書結果都係度傾計﹐當然考唔到100啦﹐算啦﹐橫掂個test都drop架啦﹗ 好開心今日比唔少人讚我smart, even tho i know i ain't compare to those in UT
又試procrastinate﹐抵死﹐而家先黎讀PHY﹐搞到又發泯憎又無得訓﹐到四點先做晒D problems

Apr. 25

一朝逼自己去沖涼﹐等個人醒D去考Phy﹐我諗我考得都幾好卦﹐希望唔好有太多careless mistakes啦﹐ 終於完左一科啦﹐唔洗再返星期二四lu
檸檬新介紹一隻online game﹐叫Avalanche﹐ 好似tetris但係難度高好多﹐玩到唔識得停﹐訓覺時腰骨勁累

Apr. 26

上CS堂新發現ICQ有web base version﹐可以唔洗download ICQ都可以上網用﹐仲唔洗怕被firewall block到﹐不過我諗係暫時性﹐遲D又會被學校block架啦
今晚腳指仔有去meeting﹐有好多chinese food食﹐好開心﹐好滿足。又有人受浸﹐點解可以一信主就受浸﹖ 唔係要上慕道班既咩﹖原本以為係櫃檯原來係浸池黎架﹗好特別呀﹗
夜晚去Mike屋企鋤D﹐阿Tim好唔著數抽到我做partner﹐要知道我唔係玩得好掂﹐好彩阿Tim玩得幾勁﹐ 無乜點輸﹐玩到好high﹗好搞笑﹗
Tim話幫我問Austin有無人要roommate﹐好啦﹐又多個希望啦﹗

Apr. 27

十二點應承同David去做數﹐好眼訓﹐去Denny's﹐環境好差﹐決定食完野返學校做數﹐我眼訓到唔係好識講野﹐ 個腦又唔識轉﹐做到五點UC閂門就走﹐返屋企即刻訓幾個鐘﹐之後做CS project﹐唔識點做
感情呢樣野﹐唔可以免強架

Apr. 28

成日留係屋企寫program﹐ 做數﹐上網﹐睇書﹐訓覺...幾無聊的一天
夜晚叫埋虎榮同我玩Avalanche﹐死啦﹐拒上左隱啦﹐仲要考AL添架﹐因間考唔好我就係罪魁禍手啦﹗ 虎榮﹐你要讀左書先啦﹐然後再找多D人一齊玩嘛

Apr. 29

死啦死啦﹗虎榮真係addicted左係個game度啦﹐一早起身上網拒就摟我玩啦﹐點算﹖
五點去Dr. Robbins度問project﹐原來係個stupid bug﹐搞左成半個鐘先發現到﹐stupid me! 遲到去Chem﹐ D人走晒﹗發生咩事﹖點解無人﹖問個企係門口既男仔﹐原來拒今日淨係verify D grades﹐唔教書
檸檬信主了﹗估唔到﹐真係估唔到﹗死啦﹗而家淨番我一個咋﹐唔好逼我啦﹗

Apr. 30

call左apartments﹐原來efficiency都唔係好貴﹐$600有找﹐諗得過﹐仲有好多位淨添﹐that's good. 甘我唔洗0甘趕啦
嘩﹗估唔到檸檬信主會甘大反應﹐出晒email﹐個個都上晒prayer room留言﹐睇黎個個都好戥拒高興bor
went to IHOP for dinner. hehe...i got another free dinner as a promise to help david with his cal3. but i think i ditn't do a good job. all i did was saying he is hopeless everytime he got stuck. and i didn't help him finish all the hw. really sowie. i didn't mean to be mean to u tonight but u are the only person i saw today after all that had happened last night.
sigh! please don't come back to me again. i m getting tired of u now. just leave me alone please, can u? i need a quiet and nice place to think....to think what is going on inside me.
從未如此...煩﹗