January
新年快樂﹗
Jan. 1
下午去了mall﹐return了聖誕收到的衣服。在mall內不停打克痴﹐想死﹗
聽他們說今天下了十五分鐘雪﹐可惜我miss了。
金寶叔叔請食飯﹐有steak﹐有corn﹐仲有蛋糕食。大家唔停甘唱詩﹐又有分享﹐場景溫馨感人。
Jan. 2
整天留在家﹐很冷。
Jan. 3
去了IKEA﹐食hotdog﹐好想買野﹐無錢。
晚上去龍哥屋企食齋邊爐﹐好飽。
Jan. 4
日日都十二點先起身﹐好豬。
五點幾六點就出去食飯﹐又係去明星。
團契又分開兩個group bible study﹐今晚幾無聊。新嘗試﹐麻麻地吸引。
成間教會只有我地student group﹐好空。
Jan. 5
去飲茶﹐無利是收。想去碌ling﹐無人車。
babysit Andrew. He always cried. never stopped. drove me crazy!!!
想同嘉露慶祝生日﹐搞surprise﹐點知拒話可能唔得閒﹗好在最後都有黎。
去Cheesecake Factory. 好貴﹐但係好大碟﹐食到好飽。
Jan. 6
星期日﹐教會日。長長崇拜﹐肚餓。好在之後有分去食buffet。歡送Vivian.
幫手"undecorate" Church, 雖然趕唔切去踩冰﹐但係感到自己幫到手﹐幾有用。
睇Ocean Eleven. 幾好﹐唔錯。不過趕唔切無食到飯。
Jan. 7
去了麥記坐三個鐘﹐同黃陸醫生夫人傾左好多野。有D啟發﹐但係好煩﹗
Jan. 8
看了一半“地久天長”﹐找唔到遙控﹐轉唔到去廣東話﹐要聽國語。
下午和嘉露去了mall換電話﹐而家唔洗怕唔夠minutes用lu!
成日都好累﹐仲咳添﹗緊係嘉露惹我架喇﹗
夜晚打左電話比虎榮﹐生日快樂﹗都唔知係咪真係有27分鐘架﹐好似過得甘快甘既﹗
Jan. 9
嘉露﹐虎榮﹐生日快樂﹗
終於找到個遙控﹐睇埋廣東話版“地久天長”part II。
Jason找我幫手﹐下午帶個女仔黎我屋企﹐坐左一陣。
夜晚Jason以睇戲名義找我傾計﹐大家係Starbucks坐左兩個鐘。傾了好多野。
很高興得到了人的信任。在這世界上有多少個能傾心事既朋友﹖能成為各位的聆聽者﹐我深感榮幸。
放心喇﹗我會保守秘密既﹐如果唔係﹐又點可以得到好幾個人既信任呢﹖
多得杯mocha frappuchinno﹐搞到我四點先訓到。
Jan. 10
昨天剛在說自己會保守秘密﹐竟然與此同時講了些不該說的話﹐令某人失望﹐實在抱歉。
成了失信的人﹐不能原諒﹗
Jan. 11
整天都在躊悵怎樣道歉﹐始終都是因為自己太自把自為才會搞成甘。
身邊既人唔識量解﹐仲要百上加斤﹗點解要甘呢﹖
Jan. 12
走﹐唔走﹐走﹐唔走...最後都係決定﹐今日唔走啦。
在黃醫生家待了一整天﹐和小朋友玩足一個下午﹐他們的天真﹐活潑﹐令我回想起童年﹐
一段無憂無慮的日子﹐只懂得快快樂樂的玩呀玩。真想回到以前﹐跟爸爸媽媽一起去公園玩。
Jan. 13
原本約了一點﹐不過預左實delay﹐好在打個電話比June﹐如果唔係要係屋企偶成個下午。
由一點汆到七點﹐再推到九點先黎接我。原本仲話星期六走添wor。睇死你會postpone架啦。
終於返到屋企﹐發現有D唔同﹐梳化鋪左野﹐原本空置既房已經有人入住﹐有人係入面訓覺﹐又唔閂門。
Jan. 14
第一日返學﹐成個晏晝無返屋企。
CS個TA好快﹐跟唔切。CAL個先生好老﹐好瘦﹐瘦到唔可以單手拿起本書。好重accent﹐好難聽。點知到Chem仲嚴重﹐
我連個先生由邊度黎都聽唔明﹐雖然拒好似好和藹可親﹐但係聽唔明﹐幾nice都無用架。
天氣仲係好凍﹐但係點解我見到好多人著短袖T-shirt既﹖
和新roommate打了招呼﹐她叫Jennifer﹐剛生了一個女﹐和BB的爸爸分了手﹐不知她年紀有多大﹐但看上去只有二十五六。
BB只有一個月大﹐竟然留她在娘家﹐自己搬出來住﹐來讀書﹐我真的不明所以。
Jan. 15
越來越懂得珍惜在美讀書的機會﹐爸爸媽媽甘辛苦係度挨﹐都係為左我﹐雖然自己唔爭氣﹐讀唔到名校﹐但係總好過要待係香港repeat幾年都入唔到U。
至少我而家都叫做大學生﹐以前從未想過可以有今天的景況。這是上天賜給我的一個福份。
Physics由一個北京人教﹐心都定D﹐至少聽得明丫﹗
中午返屋企食飯果時June竟然提出個好無理既要求﹕Jennifer搬去Claire個apartment #616﹐我搬去對面房﹐Steven搬去我房﹐租金照付。
Steven住入黎﹐June仲洗讀書既﹖甘咪間接同居﹖不過都要Jennifer肯先得架﹐拒同Leia甘好傾。問我果時甘吞吞吐吐﹐你話你點開口問Jennifer﹖
我都話左Claire簽左一年contract唔可以隨時話搬就搬架啦﹗嘩﹗諗諗下﹐拒地會唔會叫我搬去616架﹐死都唔制呀﹐果間apartment甘亂﹐我又唔識D人。
終於整好個sound card﹐電腦有聲啦﹐好開心呀﹗好有成功感呀﹗開始用我部PDA。點知無serial port比我插﹐sync唔到D information。
無意中發現Steven今個sem無得take class﹐無得住係Dorm﹐所以先要搬過來住。Claire搭灰狗返HOU﹐留低所有行李比June同Steven weekend幫拒搬返去﹐
真係大排呀﹗仲要miss左班車wor﹗拒兩兄妹都係無得救架啦﹐又大洗wor。
去買書﹐一本都無﹐全部賣晒﹐賣返D書出去﹐只賣得$42.25﹐當初用成三百蚊買﹐而家收得四十幾蚊﹗過份﹗
今天把積聚了整個假期的信全部拿回來﹐證實了自己真的一張聖誕卡也收不到。卻收到Financial Aid Office無端端寄來$800 check﹐真莫明其妙﹗
Jan. 16
CS終於開始寫program啦﹗好開心。
買果3本書用我成二百幾蚊﹐肉尺死啦﹗
CAL有D唔明﹐好明顯唔可以琴埋本書都識做D數。
忍唔住都係買左筒chips食﹐肥死咯﹗
CHEM明多左個先生講咩﹐進步左D啦。
做錯了PHY功課﹐要由頭再做。
方sir話今個Easter YAF要負責做一個drama﹐好想幫手﹐不過Easter後有太多試考﹐落唔到去HOU。睇唔到添﹗
收到email﹐這個weekend﹐一連兩個喪禮﹐教會特別忙碌。
人走到某一個時候﹐就會諗起自己究竟會有幾長命﹐在美國﹐每天都有幾百人離開這個世界﹐
有些已經年紀老邁﹐有些卻英年早逝﹐無人知道明天會發生甚麼事﹐無人知道自己可以活多久﹐
珍惜每一刻生命﹐好好享受上天賜給的一切﹐把每一刻都當作生命的最後一刻﹐就算這一刻離開了世界﹐也可以死而無憾。
Jan. 17
成日唔到last minute都唔出門口返學﹐行到身水身汗﹐何必呢﹖
PHY老師係中國人﹐今日用1分鐘教大家中文﹐教了‘女’同‘子’﹐合成一個‘好’字。又教了‘工’字。
他亦是我第一個會在課堂上提聖經既老師。唔識英文﹐也會謙虛向學生請教。真係好特別。
訓了晏覺﹐做了CAL功課﹐無無聊聊又過了一天。
Ellen called and said that she could take me back this weekend. I would be able to go to the funeral of Uncle Wing Kwan.
I haven't seen hm for a long time. Never expect this to be the next time to see him.
Jan. 18
June跟Steven話返去﹐June放學之後Steven仲未起到身﹐June放學成兩個鐘都走唔到。
去Denny's食dinner﹐之後好多人返團契﹐好多好多人﹐好開心。又去Denny's食宵夜﹐等到十二點請Nora食apple pie a la mode.
原來Denny's亦有唱歌服務﹐不過由於溝通上既誤會﹐唱了兩次生日歌﹐第二次嚇死羅拿﹐幾搞笑。
Jan. 19
成日係屋企﹐聽到Rosalie彈首歌幾好聽﹐又白白痴痴甘跟住學﹐都彈得唔差架﹐幾似首歌架﹐係窒下窒下甘姐。
無去黃姆婆婆既葬禮﹐機本上我都唔識拒﹐有94歲甘長命﹐係咪就等於幸福﹖
晚上去食北京鴨﹐係用皮包﹐唔係用飽﹐好食﹐可惜無青瓜﹐除左林氏夫婦之外﹐D大人既國語全部都好史。
Jan. 20
今日係wing kwan叔叔葬禮﹐好多人出席﹐Centrary坐滿人﹐仲要加凳﹐我被委派去指揮交通﹐D人成日入錯entrance﹐截都截唔切就衝入去﹐
搞到又要掉頭出返黎。以為企出面成半個鐘會幾凍﹐特登著多D衫﹐點知企到興晒﹐D婆婆經過都好好心甘叫我扣埋拉鏈﹐但係其實我係好想除左件外套。
從未試過由警察開路﹐由教會一直到墳場﹐成條車龍仲長過火車﹐警察截晒D路比我地行﹐係龍中間原全見唔到龍頭同龍尾﹐有成一百家車。可見Wing Kwan叔幾受人respect。
原來在美國有這傳統﹐由休班警察開路﹐避免去墳場中途停車﹐整條車隊都開車頭燈﹐有D打死火燈。
墳場好凍﹐大家顯花後就去食飯﹐這是Wing Kwan叔一個遺願﹕請弟兄姊妹一起食飯﹐席申團契。
Funeral令我想起Marcus﹐我沒有去他的visitation同funeral﹐不知是好還是不好﹐今天看見很多人哭了﹐不能估計在Marcus葬禮我會哭成怎樣。不去也好﹐無謂傷心。
Jan. 21
和非利士人﹐法蘭西斯﹐IE﹐譚美﹐檸檬去食鬼佬牛利酥﹐傾了這次Easter Drama既一D idea。好希望可以幫手做props同佈景﹐可惜今個sem好難找ride返去。
Ellen說今天兩點半出發回家﹐call極都找不到June﹐結果跟Ellen回去。
這一程車實在恐怖﹐竟在80mi/hr(130km) speed limit仲要係好顛坡既路上開105mi/hr(170km)﹐拋到我死﹐好耐未部人拋過啦﹐好在我唔會暈車浪既唧﹗
之後又爭D衝紅燈﹐拒話拒掛住諗野一時分心wor。唉﹗都唔知以後跟唔跟拒車好啦。
到十一點先記得聽日有Physics功課要交﹐OMG!仲未做﹐做到成十二點。
好在無留底等June﹐到一點都未返到。
Jan. 22
到朝早起身June都未返﹐真係好在無跟拒返黎。
Physics又爭D遲到啦﹗不過原來唔洗交功課住woh。Chem Lab教conversion﹐好無聊﹐發晒夢甘。
Successfully synced my palm and updated my photo album. It is now more organized.
Leia收到個grill做禮物﹐學整豬扒﹐好似好好食。
證實了星期日一共有96架車一齊行﹐跟我估計的100唔係差好遠。
Jan. 23
收到一個email話來年狗仔要小心不要爬山﹐會從高處墮下﹗
很累很累的過了一個下午﹐Chem又再次很lost很lost的了。怎能捱到學期尾﹖
回到家﹐June跟Steven說要跟June的新臺灣同學食飯篤波﹐已經很累的我﹐想了一會﹐還是決定跟他們出去。
那同學Ken跟一個Korean Sarah在一起﹐Sarah好像很純品的乖乖小女孩﹐原來已經二十一歲﹐還會抽煙。
成餐飯就只有我同拒講野﹐因為拒唔識中文﹐又坐我對面。
Sarah識唔少香港人﹐突然間無端端遞個電話比我﹐話係香港人﹐個男仔叫阿To。拒話遲D有咩function都會叫埋我去woh.
去篤波﹐搞到成身煙味﹐篤到後來對眼已經瞄準唔到個波﹐成十二點先走﹐篤了兩個鐘﹐之後拒地仲話去打麻將﹐
我已經捱唔住返屋企未沖涼成身煙味就去訓。返屋企沿途Steven都踩到110mi/hr﹐又行對頭lane﹐轉彎又唔收油﹐癲架拒﹗
Jan. 24
不知是否被這幾天所聽的消息影響﹐發夢都發埋晒D其其怪怪既夢。
大家在爬Drama一間屋既佈景板﹐非利士人話只要向前推﹐不要往後拉﹐應該唔會整跌塊板。點知真係向前跌﹐
大家落在佈景板殘骸中間﹐一個一個爬番起身﹐有D人無咩表面傷痕﹐利底亞竟然七孔流血﹐但係仲若無其事甘周圍行。
突然有人話出面有架旅行車送我地去進一部治療(無講明去邊架﹐我assume係去醫院啦),太多人受傷﹐坐唔晒﹐我傷勢唔重﹐可以等下輪。
終於輪到我坐車﹐點知去左個cafeteria甘既野﹐見到YAF D人係到食野﹐不過無位比我﹐叫我去cafeteria另一邊join其他人。
突然好眼訓﹐訓底係其中一個無人坐既卡位度﹐同人講遲D先食﹐一訓就唔再起身﹐D人突然發現我不醒人事﹐
原來頭先跌到內傷﹐生命好危險﹐即刻送我去醫院。跟住就醒左lu。
異象又出現了﹗自己跟自己返學。今次連車都上唔到﹐逼住一定要行返學。又凍﹐又大風﹐仲有些小大粒雨﹐
吹到流晒鼻水﹐感覺唔到耳仔既存在。尋晚仲好好天氣﹐做咩今朝會變成甘﹖
自己煮蕃茄牛肉磨菇意粉比自己食﹐當然係好好食啦。不過好煩﹐煮野食都係唔適合我。
Jan. 25
上完CS之後就開始了這個學期的第一個SA weekend。Sarah五點幾call我﹐約我去識班HK人﹐去睇D男仔打波﹐
0個個阿To好nice﹐好平易近人﹐至少而家終於係SA認識到D香港人啦﹐仲有個係我Physics同學添﹐話坐係我後面﹐點解我好似未見過拒既﹖
見到成班男仔唔理語言隔膜係埋一齊打波﹐有講廣東話﹐國語﹐日文﹐仲有鬼佬同阿差﹐都可以一齊打波﹐幾得意。
Jan. 26
基本上呢個weekend係要讀書做功課既﹐但係呢...我呢...就係呢...唔係好勤力咯﹐成日係度上網傾電話﹐無無聊聊甘。
不過點都算做晒D功課﹐淨番D reading聽日先算啦。
June就發神經甘話要煮飯食﹐整左三樣送﹐都唔錯既﹐至少食唔死我啦。
Ellen同拒bf從Austin返落黎﹐終於見到拒男朋友係點樣﹐Ellen拿到唔係好多apt既資料返黎比我﹐一路話要一個星期內落訂﹐如果唔係會full晒﹐
又唔係只得果一間apt﹐仲有時間﹐洗咩甘急woh﹐因住比人昆呀。我話諗下先﹐拒話會找第二個人﹐好啦﹐去找啦﹐我唔擔心﹐最多咪到時一個人住咯。
Jan. 27
又好晏先起身﹐又無咩點做野﹐睇左chem同CS﹐諗唔到CS個program仲可以用D咩method同field。
Jan. 28
晨早師母打黎﹐話拒同牧師黎左SA開會﹐想找我食飯﹐嚇死我﹗
After reading CC's diary, I suddenly felt like writing in English. Seems like I haven't been writing formal English for a long time.
Pastor has meeting from 6-10pm so he couldn't spare some time to see me this time.
O well, I am not really that crazy about having dinner with Pastor and his wife, so, it's really ok this time.
I finally chatted with my classmates in my Cal class. This is the first step to open myself to Americans. I should be able to do a better job this sem.
Seems like I am getting better in my Chemistry class. Maybe it's because I read the chapter before hand.
After my advice, Ellen will go take a look at other apartments in Austin before deciding. I hope I could leave my Chem lab earlier tmr so that I can go with her.
I still think I have dumped her at the very last moment. I should at least go with her and give her some advice.
Jan. 29
Finally talked to the only guy from HK in my Physics class.
I at last went to Austin with Ellen. We saw a couple apts. Some of them are pretty neat, but some of them are...
We also met Ellen's friend, Paul, from UTSA. He just got transferred to UT this semester. He is a White but he knows Japanese! We had dinner together.
I just can't wait till next semester to study in UT. haha... I am so excited!
Ellen, you shouldn't drive when you go to Austin next sem. See how dangerous you are!
We didn't go back till 9 something. I head hurts but I just don't wanna gor crashed while I am asleep. Thank you Lemon for talking to me on the whole trip.
Jan. 30
A hard day to go thru. My head hurts again after 3 afternoon classes w/out knowing what the teacher was talking about.
Sleep...sleep...sleep...couldn't sleep... head hurts...so bad...
Jan. 31
Physics again. This time I sat with that Jeff, and we had lunch together after class. It's nice knowing and chatting with you.
June got a letter from the office telling her Steven is not allowed to stay here anymore. He is going to move out tmr anyways.
June brought all the food to Ellen's apt and we had a delicious dinner, even though I couldn't join them becos of all those non-stop phone calls.
Rosalie might have to ride greyhound to the piano competition in SA on Saturday. I have to try find someone to pick her up.
We had a nice chat together. Tmr is Kelly's birthday and Ellen made her a muffin. We sang a birthday song after 12. I didn't go home till 1am.
Sarah said she could go pick Rosalie up. That's good.