I drink a consistent 3 cans of diet pop a day, wash it down with 48 ounces of water, then work out at the rec center but only to eat pizza and granola bars. Needless to say I think my body is a little confused. Lauren comes home on Saturday, yay! Party Sunday for her and everyone else who's birthday we are going to celebrate (over and done with birthdays). Classes still haven't started for us, that's next week. Unfortunately all my friends have started this week and it's driving me insane! The job I interviewed for last week on campus I got turned down for because I do not have work study funds, grrr!! I love how qualifications are aesthetic (well, metaphorically speaking), and it's not what is on the inside that counts. I just really need a job, I had no idea that I would be spending as much personal expense costs as I do upon moving out. However, I find it exciting that I look forward to being at my apartment, I am no longer so anxious about fighting with my dad or being nervous around my parents (for whatever reason that was for, I'm not sure). I think I've just released a lot of anger/tension I had built up and I just needed to get out. Anyway, I believe I have a "friendly" phone call to make, so Guten Abend!
Thursday, February 12 9:00 PM
My god, I have so much reading to do and I've been doing homework and attending classes on end, I come home and have no concentration to read my Astronomy. GAHHHH...anyway, it has been awhile since I wrote but I doubt anyone noticed since no one reads my entries anyway. School is becoming just another distraction to my everyday life, no more excitement. I can't focus on my reading assignments and all I think about is how many more pages left until I get to the end of it. It has been a crazy busy day...I feel content in knowing I got a lot accomplished today and now I can sit and be by myself. I actually had my blood drawn today and I learned the hard truth that I love to create self-fulfilling prophecies because I am actually accurate in what I predict...I love it when I'm right! I had to go to Boynton Health Service to have blood drawn and I am your worst example of what happens to women (yes...women) who are overly disgusted by blood, needles and anything poking into the skin. So therefore, I told myself to panic and cringe as the needle was going into my skin because that is just what I do. I became very nervous, started sweating and got a rotten feeling in my stomach. From there, I told myself that this was no big deal, I was not going to pass out and I was being overdramatic (overdramtic internal thoughts...imagine that). Guess what happened? My heart stopped beating and I became normal again. That is a really dull story...I have nothing interesting to say cuz I am not highly enthusiastic to write a piece about some random, misleading thought I have on some topic that will be irrelevant to my life by tomorrow. Oh right, Mitch was on MPR "All Things Considered" today discussing politics, and he did a very good job! Kudos to my favorite friend! Goodnight....
Sunday, February 22 9:30 PM
Happy Birthday to James! I just downloaded the newest version of AIM and I think it is kinda annoying. I used to have GAIM and I probably still will use it but I was curious to see what everyone is talking about with this new version. It strikes the eye of someone that needs to know where everyone is at all times...do I really care that so-and-so is now idle, oh! now they are un idle! It's kinda a freakish obssession if you find this feature wonderful.
So this weekend was a very busy weekend and I find myself studying for Astronomy test tomorrow but not really...just updating my webpage. I had a lot of family functions going on this weekend. My great aunt died last Wednesday due to lung failure at the age of 71 years old. I was not looking forward to attending the memorial service because I have never dealt with a major death in the family, only just two other classmates' funreals while growing up. I do not like to see grown-ups, most especially people that you in a sense look up to, being sad and crying. It felt like such an enlightening experience for me to watch how the family comes together after a death, and how we are treated. I admire the way that my extended family put themselves together, afterwards we went to the Embassy Suites hotel for a light afternoon buffet meal. Everyone was happy, chatting with others and overall, it really did feel more like a celebration than anything else. That really does make me happy to know that as a whole, we are able to handle difficult issues like this together.
Homework is getting rough, I'm feeling overwhelmed and I wish I was graduating this semester so I could focus on a career instead the overwhelming task I have to do before graduation, it seems endless and impossible to crawl through it all. I'm just getting by near the bare minimum, which isn't a good thing but well...yeah...
Friday, March 5 2:00 PM
FINALLY the weekend, well I shouldn't say "finally" cuz it went by pretty damn fast but well...It is currently snowing on a Friday afternoon, the bus strike is in full effect, "carpool" lots are a $1.75 for U of M bus pass holders, although it is ok if you drive alone and park in those lots, hence the name "carpool" (uhh?). I have no idea what I am doing this weekend except for my grandfather's 92nd birthday on Sunday afternoon. The past few weekends have been pretty busy, so it might be nice to wind down and just experience being "bored" this weekend.
Lately I've been remembering a lot of my dreams, they are getting pretty interesting because they are not so surreal but more like an extension of my life. I was dreaming last night that I was back in Salzburg with my friends that I travelled to Europe with senior year in HS. Only this time, I had already studied abroad in Salzburg so I was familiar with the culuture and the area, I was highly enthuised and being annoying, my friends didn't want to be around me so I went off by myself. My favorite dream was filling in for a "sick" girlscout who needed to sell cookies door to door. I went around my apartment complex to sell some cookies for her, only to discover that one of the rooms in Rosehill Apartment complex was a studio with an olympic size swimming pool in it. AHHHH...
I purchased some "Tagalong" Girl Scout cookies and just received the box a few days ago. Looking at the nutrition label (weight watchers conscious) I realized that each cookie has 5 grams of fat! @#$%!!!!!! Wow...and that was not a dream I had, this is real. Anyway, I received an e-mail from the U of M stating that I needed to declare my major or else I would not be able to register for fall term classes. I am going to declare my major as Psychology. As much as I love the subject, I need to figure out what to do with my career options. I may major in special ed. and learn sign language, work with deaf and hard of hearing kids. Granted, I have experience and understand what it's like for kids that can't hear. Any suggestions? I appreciate input! Guten Tag!