Marigold & Patchwork
fall down…marigold…fall sounds of rain…why can't i go...those days when spokes wound baseball cards tear hear them roar…and faster still those boards which let fly souls...honeysuckle walk right afternoon time dies…wish for sometime soon…i'll work it out…my way…so many faces…so lost...why can't i go back when this mess was not made…forever turns out just the same as two months…that rages on then after…
Antihero
last thing i saw this winding road goes through that valley ahead…this day what fear…i'm already dead…what shock to find i'm free...cut loose from the binds i invented for me…this now…i claim…in love…insane…kicked down thank you…i would have been so lost without your pain…"your lies are too much for you" he says "twisting tree this wind world" eyes blinded…
On Sidewalks
footsteps…my name…spelled out in treason…on sidewalks fall dreams of life…in the cast of a play…without lines…prerehearsed and fake…white light across the lake…should have been gold…into this woods…into this woods we go…take the shadows of life to heart…and know you can't be right…
Moment #72
secrets of…curtains love…blinds…a hideaway…long hand falls…the moment slows down…and nothing moves…count the seconds passage…lies…concealed your hands…wear this moment's wretched finery…this moment's words fade away…the silence says more…the secrets fall…you shout out lies by just standing there. a face of smile…i could not see you…only my reflection…
sing loud…the stars laughed…sweet sound…i finally understand you were with me…
December 27, 1990
i write to you an empty page…no words for what i want to say…and who could forget that night when you my friend…my friend…found light…and "why" is a question i'll always ask…seven years and more…it shines…
The Last Ring
this sacred word…this sideways phrase…these pieces let me down…it's what this waking heart will find…and i watch for why…as if it might just now…suddenly appear…it's what these weighted hands will find empty of this pen and vacant moves define…the ring is lost…white picket fence…and sideways now this raging rushing traffic heart…it's what you are…and i am not…what we were in my head and in my heart is lost…this precious ring which was the last i had to give…and would only fit your hand…
16 Days
see your face…i know that the time is right…and i wanted…one more day…i know that the time is right…and you were so lost…for all the times i tried to find the reasons why and i found you instead…of this lie…the reasons why i will not forget…
hammers and nails i've used them for building my face this time tomorrow…when i see you again outside…and inside i can hide my sorrow…talking…found a way i could come back…catch your eye it's just the same as reminding me of what i wanted…tried my list of excuses…ran outside lost in pain…put it on turn up the music...laugh and laugh about how lost i was…”it's what you are my friend…things change you know…don't stand around and wait…take a step…one more step…don't fall down…balance now…there's no denying this is what you are”…
Portrait
we have come…and we are here for you…the sovereign low…the time has come…the serenade begins…here i am…dress the fool and what i say is wrong…i am not the one you're looking for…the cool one…the fine one…i am just this man…incomplete. and unsubstantial…and i am here for you.