BETTER THAN ME
You can make an appointment. You can tell your dreams. You can talk about the death. They can talk about what you need. They can match your life to words in a book, maybe they’ll let you off of the hook. Sometimes they might think that you need a pill, to keep all the rattling perfectly stilly. Over and over repeating the drill. The magic is done and they factor the bill. Silence the mind through the mazes we dance through the night. Wish if you will; you’re damned if you don’t make it right. Dear fall asleep now; chase it out of the light. Silence the mind through the mazes we dance through the night. Just pass the one cigarette. I promise I’ll leave when I finish it. Did you get the best of the deal? Something substantial you think you can feel. Were you so crazy to think it unreal? Amazing how fast it can lose its appeal. You wasted the best years of your life. With all that’s at stake are you blind? Silence the mind through the mazes we dance through the night. Wish if you will you’re damned if you don’t make it right. Dear fall asleep now; chase it out of the light. Silence the mind through the mazes we dance through the night. Go on you sell out, just admit it. This is the one shot that I’m not gonna miss. This is just the way that I pictured it, a fall from the balcony down to the pit. I never really cared just where you went. Passive release and it’s out of my grip. Go on you sell out. Just admit it. Silence the mind through the mazes we dance through the night. Wish if you will; you’re damned if you don’t’ make it right. Dear fall asleep now; chase it out of the light. Silence, their mourners for ages we dance through the night.
MEMORIES AND LULLABIES
Trembling hands and I moan with the thunder. The light blinks, the clocks back at 12:00, and I wonder… What’s the cause of this endless slumber… So many worlds to crawl in for cover. Sometimes I make believe that I don’t have to lie, and my life is memories and lullabies. Well, that’s how I fool myself; pretend I’m somewhere else, but I come home again, and there’s no one there to let me in. The closer you get to the core of the night… The safer I would feel to turn on the lights. The harder you pull to the top of the day… The more the night pulls you down and away. Sometimes I make believe that I don’t have to lie, and my life is memories and lullabies. Well, that’s how I fool myself pretend I’m somewhere else, but I come home again, and there’s no one there to let me in. The closer you get to the edge of the moon… The safer I feel from the view of my room. The more you extend your arm for the door… More and more it’s clear to me, I’m needing more. Sometimes I make believe that I don’t have to lie, and my life is memories and lullabies. Well, that’s how I fool myself pretend I’m somewhere else, but I come home again, and there’s no one there to let me in.
TODAY IS ONLY TUESDAY
I’m stuck in the middle of the week pushing dishes in and out of the sink. If I hide I don’t have to speak. If I close my eyes then I won’t have to think. I’ve been laying awake in bed at night, I’ve been thinking when I turn out the lights. There’s something that I haven’t been doing right, and I guess I’d better go…. To figure out what everyone knows. I have a thirty minute drive to work in the morning, it’s eight a.m. and the clouds are pouring. I’ve gotta laugh at my boss even though he’s boring. I gotta kiss your ass even though I said I was sorry. I’ve been laying awake in bed at night, I’ve been thinking when I turn out the lights. There’s something that I haven’t been doing right, and I guess I’d better go…. To figure out what everyone else knows. Today is only Tuesday, and I have many more days to go. I wanted to be an actress, but I never made it to the show. Today is only Tuesday, and I have many more Tuesday’s to go. I wanted to be a doctor – how silly… What the hell do I know. I had some friends at school, you know the straight A girls, and I kinda lived in my own world. Now I’m thinking, maybe I should have listened more, cause I’m walking to the rhythm of slamming doors. I’ve been laying awake in bed at night, I’ve been thinking when I turn out the lights. There’s something that I haven’t been doing right, and I guess I’d better go…. To figure out what everyone else knows. Today is only Tuesday, and I have many more days to go. I wanted to be an actress, but I never made it to the show. Today is only Tuesday, and I have many more Tuesday’s to go. I wanted to be a doctor – how silly… What the hell do I know.
THOUSAND YEARS
Where’s the home you fall to where the voices blare? Where is the sand, in the beach, in your life, in your hair? Where’s the last place you looked, when you fell, did you lose your memory? Was it before you promised all the good in your heart? I know it came to me. One lifetime all alone. This cycle revolves so slow. Can it be that with just my eyes, I can wash away all of time? Where’s the luck, he orbits her I hear him calling. Where is the church to lead you through that kind of fall? He read my book knows what I feel when he is near. Nothing will keep me anchored, I will float to you in 1,000 years. One lifetime all alone. This cycles revolves so slow. Can it be that with just my eyes, I can wash away all of time? Heal me, it’s your world it’s your remedy. Heal me, it’s your cure it’s your remedy. You broke the silent pact, I thought we had a deal. It’s my life, and I’m so needy. I don’t believe that this is real. Vacant now, but here after life, oh well I’m not greedy. As slow as time is, will I feel like you were ever mine? One lifetime all alone. This cycle revolves so slow. Can it be that with just my eyes, I can wash away all of time? I hold the thought pressing against my eyes. Plant my feet as I walk towards the grave. One lifetime all alone, all alone. We’ll be alive in 1,000 years. A thousand years. I’ll dance with you in the daylight, in a thousand years. I’ll be alive, will you find me, in a thousand years? One lifetime all alone. This cycle revolves so slow. Can it be that with just my eyes, I can wash away all of time?
LEAVE
I cracked open my door to look up at the sky. Enchanted by the melting of dark over the light. In memory of you I burn a star tonight, and so I sacrificed for you that’s what you wanted right? I just don’t know what you could mean I thought I gave you everything. You’re without me…Leave, your life behind. Leave, the indifference feels so fine. I blame you I blame you, cause what you have is yours, and I’m the little girl that waited in your door. I’m afraid I’m the same well I understand you well. I’m not a child anymore, but you could never tell. You’ll never walk in front of me. You’ll never have my memory. You’ll be without me. Leave, your life behind. Leave, the indifference feels so fine. I carried you around so long, it’s not as simple as right and wrong. It’s time I let it rest. I cracked open my door to look up at the sky. I sat out in the dark almost for all night. I was waiting for some closure, I need some kind of sign a faint site of your shadow slipping away in the night. I just don’t know what you could mean, you had a life made for a king without me. Leave, your life behind. Leave, the indifference feels so fine. I cracked open my door to look up at the sky. Enchanted by the melting of dark over the light. In memory of you I burn a star tonight.
MISSOURI RAIN
The sun is down and Saturday is almost here. It’s amazing how I can make everyone disappear. I like the sky gray; who needs sunshine anyway. The thought of being close by; often drifts away. Lonely baby, lonely baby, lonely baby, alone. I’m learning things now I never wanted to know. Everyone goes through it, you live. I know. Saturday finally came to our town. I’m hiding inside it’s too rainy and cold to get around. The rain seems to make everything worse, but makes such a peaceful sound. Funny how things high end up rolling on the ground. . Lonely baby, lonely baby, lonely baby, alone. I’m learning things now I never wanted to know. Everyone goes through it, you live. I know. I know. Missouri rain, Missouri rain, Missouri rain.
HANDFULS OF MY MIND
My hand flows along the lines. Wayward lead; no eyes can define. Time sits on the dividing line in the doors and the walls of my demise. There’s a door that I’m locked behind it keeps this shit running through my mind. There’s a light and it’s spinning under me, it makes me see things you don’t see. Sand fills handfuls of my time. The sand and the wind filing down my mind. Tired of equations, tired of the science of making wrongs into rights. Metal trays, they fill with ashes, smoking by the TV light. There’s no luck, this engine’s stuck. I sold my soul, but who gives a fuck. There’s a door that I’m locked behind it keeps this shit running through my mind. There’s a light and it’s spinning under me, it makes me see things you don’t see. How you gonna help me. How you gonna help me. How you gonna help me? How? Peal the weeks off the wall, they stick like petals, flowers fall. Dark hard rock, dreads, padded walls. There’s dirt in the middle of the telephone. Sand fills handfuls of my time, sand and wind filing down my mind. Tired of equations, tired of the science of making wrongs into rights. There’s a door that I’m locked behind it keeps this shit running through my mind. There’s a light and it’s spinning under me, it makes me see things you don’t see.
LAWRENCE STREET
Roll it over like a film inside my head. Cause I know there’s gotta be something smarter to say, that what I really said. Ordinary people; rewind and play again. I’ve been where he’s been, I could have been friend to him. I want to erase the moment we first met. I hate to start hoping on something I know that I can’t get. Thoughts so full of nothing. Wish you weren’t so full of shit. To you I’m nothing. I wish I could forget as fast as you. You don’t like the cards you were dealt. You cannot fend for yourself. Two hours till morning, time doesn’t miss a beat. Anyway, how are things on Lawrence Street? I lifted your mail again; your checks and medicine. A row of pretty maids in your garden. I put a call into my friend, he was out last night again. He stays distracted, but I still got the best of him. Boys who drink their whisky aren’t quick to scare. And boys who drink, they’ll always accept the dare. You don’t like the cards you were dealt. You cannot fend for yourself. Two hours till morning, time doesn’t miss a beat. Anyway, how are things on Lawrence Street? I lifted your mail again; your checks and medicine. A row of pretty maids in your garden. A take a walk down through the snow. My hands and feet are numb and cold. Casually, so carefully, I say I gotta know. I’m walking the morning, so dark, and cold, and blue. Don’t ask the question if you weren’t wanting the truth. You don’t like the cards you were dealt. You cannot fend for yourself. Two hours till morning, time doesn’t miss a beat. Anyway, how are things on Lawrence Street? I lifted your mail again; your checks and medicine. A row of pretty maids in your garden.
ORANGE SUN
The world is ending right here in my bedroom, and I’m still afraid of the dark. I look out to the orange lit sun to shed some light on this little creature hiding away, buried away, everyday that I seem to have become. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly. I’ve got a court date set on Friday night. I got a nuclear missile swimming in my eye. I got words to say, but they don’t rhyme, and there are things I didn’t wanna miss, but every time I turn around to look I never had the time. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly. Spending most of my alone I realize that I’m one half honest and half full of lies. Pleas hold tight to me my moon living brother. Besides me and you it seems that we’re all just daggers in the back of one another. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly. Listing along the walls of your bedroom, but I can’t make even one single word out. I hear the sound of my heart beating all alone and the sounds outside are interrupting, splitting, covering what I didn’t wanna hear. It’s not the railroads, I need some fresh air. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly. I would, yeah. I’m running round the orange lit sun. I like to get away from the dark. I’d like to go and I don’t wanna run so I would like to fly.
VINCENT’S STARS
I fell asleep after I wrote this song. Now I’m with you where I belong. Delusional. Echoing. Delusional. Yes, I may be. Winding through stars; I wanna keep it that way. Mix in my blood; push me out of the day. Can’t you see there’s nothing here nothing to make me stay. Empty my arms; I wanna keep it that way. There’s a world among all the bland. Find a way to stay if you can. So full of beauty nearly too much to understand. I get more confused when I finally understand. Winding through stars; I wanna keep it that way. Mix in my blood; push me out of the day. Can’t you see there’s nothing here nothing to make me stay. Empty my arms; I wanna keep it that way. Sweet, sweet Vincent, are you looking down? Why don’t you speak when you come around? I’m so alone. Why don’t we paint the town, when I’m in your world I don’t wanna come down. Winding through stars; I wanna keep it that way. Mix in my blood; push me out of the day. Can’t you see there’s nothing here nothing to make me stay. Empty my arms; I wanna keep it that way.
THE SUN’S SYMPHONY
Across the time I’ve waited for to change. Black trees. No leaves. And in the middle of this silent city. No clouds, no ease, and no sleep. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground. The light is on in every room and I’ll try again to lay back down. Knowing well I won’t stay for long I listen to the band in the late show play. My mind is on tomorrow, but I can’t get out of today. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground. When I make it across this town through books and sleeping pills and blind that let in the light. Oh, how it shatters all my plans. Safety comes in with the light, as pale as my hands. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground. The sun’s symphony brings in the day light and lays my mind in peace here. The black trees find their color, the demons fall back in the ground.
NICE IDEA
If I could have a day where everyone wanted to be around me. Where I wouldn’t piss anyone off, and all the friends I lost found me. If I could have a day where nothings changed, caused I need it to stay just the same. Nice idea, but dreams can’t help and I’m to blame. I won’t do it anymore. I won’t live under this gray sky. When I get ready to leave I guess I just can’t say goodbye. If I could have a day where nothings changed, cause I need it to stay the same. Nice idea, but dreams can’t help and I’m to blame. Nice idea, but dreams can’t help I’m to blame.
FIELDS OF PRETEND
Never to mend shouldn’t have sent. Tired of the undecided, under your lend. These things are yours if you believe till the end. And I would lie in field of pretend. If you can give me what I demand. Then take my heart tenderly under your hand. The words I keep in the back of my mouth become my own image of most of myself. When the voices there well out comes the truth and listen that voice it was echo in you. These things are yours if you believe till the end. And I would lie in fields of pretend. If you can give me what I demand, then take my heart tenderly under your hand. In an old shadow I find the missing. Piece of the puzzle it was a space in between. Tenderly, traveling, tapering, tickling. A glass full of patience I can’t keep from spilling. These things are yours if you believe till the end. And I would lie in fields of pretend. If you can give me what I demand, then take my heart tenderly under your hand. What I took now comes back in the end. Shakes in my body, the numb of my head. Is that what you will remember in the end. How you hated it, all of what you don’t understand. These things are yours if you believe till the end. And I would lie in fields of pretend. If you can give me what I demand, then take my heart tenderly under your hand. Beggar’s saviors, castles, and slums. Failure, success the ride has begun. These things are yours if you believe till the end. And I would lie in fields of pretend. If you can give me what I demand, then take my heart tenderly under your hand.