Well,there are somethings i am sure about,thus they form basis of my path.
Formost of that things is my knowledge of my sexual orientation.I have seen whenever i have tried to ignore or suppress it,great misery has fallen on me.And whenever i accept it,recognise it,peace descended on me.It was like 'truce' was called in 'war with myself'.But just truce is not enough,i must recognise who am i and realise my true nature.But it very difficult to do so in an phobic society,i have to continously fight social conditioning,prevent development of shame,guilt and hence depression.What better way to help me to fight this 'war' than having a faith based on my queerness?Belief has great power.I intend to use it for my self improvement.Thus my path is 'queer'
I am striving to develop queer worldview.
My path is also dark.I do not think concept of dark-light is same as concept of good-evil.darkness and light is a polarity like male-female and yin-yang one.Dark path is about finding a balance.
As you have read in personal info section,i had several adverse psychological effects being of queer spirit ,while growing up.I had low self esteem,guilt and shame.This produced an imbalance leading to my dark side being suppressed.I am trying to restore the balance,by actively cultivating my dark side.(or 'shadow' as some people call it)
I have natural attraction to all things 'dark'.i am 'gothish'.
i am fascinated by night,solitude,death,rebirth,blood etc
I am very much interested in blood and sex magic.
Talking of sex magic,i am trying to learn tantra,i am fascinated by its sex aspect,but tantra is much more than that.It is an ancient religion in itself.
I am also studying satanism,its principle of self-deification appeals to me and its rebellious teachings excite me.
I also belief in ancient indian techniques of yoga,pranayam and meditation for health and spiritual awareness.
I am also interested in astral travel and OBEs.
Most of practical magic involves,sigil creation and servitor creation.
So in summary my path draws heavily from varied teaching ranging from buddhism,hinduism,tantrism,paganism and satanism.
Latest as of on 23/09/03 :-I am striving to combine shaktism and wicca.I am trying to develop rituals based on polarity work.I believe that being gay gives us natural understanding of working between polarities of male and female,i am trying to extend it to polarities of light and dark,yin and yang,life and death.
Added on 1/1/04:- Effort to combine shaktism and wicca was successfull only partially,problem being my inability to follow either religion fully due to their emphasis on dieties.I have come to realise once more my incompatibility with dieties.So I am now concentrating on pure witchcraft,will strenthening,kundalini yoga.Also i am leaning towards view that life is predetermined.