Better Off Alone

The song pounds
you tumble
headlong
so cliche
in feeling this way
you've felt it so many times before
does this feel different?
Just another person to use
another person
to tear apart
from the inside out
entrails dripping
with gleeful charm
as you clench their heart
between your fouled legs.
Does this please you, beloved?
To hurt them
to laugh at them
and always come running
back to me
with such little guilt
in your bloodstained eyes
that I could cry for them for you.
You are so lost
it seems in my idealism
that your romantic conquering
encompasses the globe
yet you
love no one.
I want to scream
to rail
of my love to you
but you'd be scared.
And I'm scared too
if you took me
would you use me?
if you didn't
would you care?
But I am again silent
as you glory
in another bleeding chest
where you tore
that precious organ
from it's perch
within another
and cry then
against my own.

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