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MARIBEL BIANCO (Canad)(1989)About myselfnice understanding loyal truthful sweet gifted emotional all good things I have around my heart and soul its like a wall that blocks my gifts afraid to be rejected again is what makes the wall its a wall that wraps around my heart not letting any beautiful gifts get absorbed in my heart and soul but Im growing learning maturing I believe that the wall will fade away every day and will let some of my happiness enter my happiness will rush down my heart like waves of water and when Im happy about myself my heart will lighten up Like a flame of a candle Im the flame God is the candle March 26, 2004 Where people love meMy place Far away from home, school and life A place where crime, gossip and peer pressure dont exist Where Im lost in wonderful dreams Lost in the cold breeze that rushes against my face Where every step I take and breath I take is out of goodness Where only people who love me live Where only truth, loyalty and love live A place where I grow and mature My ugly shadow does not exist Only a bright side of me lies in this place A place where I show my happiness Where I am not scared to ask for help I never shed tears because there is so much love The only tears I shed are from laughter A place where people think good of me A place where there is no rejection A place where my heart is not shattered A place where people dont give up on me This special place is Gods path to heaven March 2004 Eyes of an angelmy heart bleeds with pain because you broke my trust but I still love you you were a kindhearted person who only cared about others and not yourself now every word is out of hatred against me, yourself and the world you lied to people about yourself it hurts my heart to see a person I care about hate oneself my heart cries, seeing you hurt other peoples feelings because you have pain I look in your eyes and I see rejection, loneliness. Hatred, and missing love you have so many questions that are not answered I cry to see you reject me you are a gift from God life would be empty without you life would be a loss, a nightmare without you God did not give up on you so dont give up on yourself you are a good person even though you hide yourself afraid of showing your beautiful gift afraid of getting rejection from people you love afraid to show your love towards others I will always know who you really are because you are an angel an angel that I care about March 2004 You were the one.good memories were lost and bad memories will be for ever remembered but you are part of my life you bring life to my heart you are the light of my soul your touch is like an angel from heaven your kiss gave me a gold heart your kindness makes me smile my heart was a black hollow shadow but you made it colourful my soul was empty you filled it up with love and loyalty I did not have a home You gave me a home full of wonder I had nightmares You were my dream I will never forget I didnt have courage, you gave me power I didnt have friends, you became my friend You made me feel good You made me feel like I am worth living You opened my eyes and I saw happiness You swept my tears away You were my breath and made me live You made me feel like a flower I was a small seed and you poured water on me which made me bloom into a beautiful, colourful and strong rose that will never die because you will be always with me no matter what March 2004 Sorrowful heartyou cant breathe you gave me all your love you have no air left to live because I wasted all your love I never gave you happiness I never gave you my hand of friendship I blinded you because I never gave you light to see I came in your life and I became a wound in your heart I caused a lot of pain in your life I cry because I hurt you your heart was gold you trusted, believed and loved me and I made your heart rust April, 2004 You were my momwhat will I do now that you are gone? some people think its easy to forget you memories still lurk your name whispers in my soul I want just one hug from you but I cant Lord, how can you separate me from somebody I love? Lord why do you want my heart crying? Lord you didnt listen to my prayers, my wishes and my dreams my dreams of you taking me with your arms and you smiling at me what will I do now that you are gone? I miss your kiss, your touch of an angel you were my past, my future, my mom everything that I am now. Im mad at the world, at myself life isnt fair my eyes wide open looking at the moon and stars thinking you would come and get me thinking that you loved me thinking every tear I shed meant something to you you are gone never again will I see your shadow Im too mad to see you in my dreams it was so hard to love again did you think it is easy to accept a new person? did you think it was easy for someone to take your place? its hard to say, but I love you I wonder if I was a mistake in your life my heart drowning because you rejected me when you are my mom I remember you like I saw you yesterday I didnt understand you I didnt appreciate you until now when you are not here because of my cruelty this is why Im not with you.. because of me how can you have acted like this? Im part of you Im supposed to be a special gift a gift that will never be thrown away a gift that will be with you for ever a gift that is for ever yours but you threw me away why? mom, cant you see that I am falling because I still remember you? you were my mom a young beautiful mother me.I was your daughter I am trying to forget you mom you were my guardian angel you were the seed that made me bloom its hard to forget you because of you I am here hurting Im sorry Im sorry to love you Im sorry for dreaming about you Im sorry because Im trying to forget you I wonder why you had me I wonder if you ever thought about my feelings mom you are supposed to be dead in my heart but. you are always alive in my soul, my heart and spirit you left me my greatest fear is rejection afraid to love someone and get rejected again afraid to like myself I wonder if I look like you I wonder if you like me but I will never know I want to look in your eyes and see love for me I want to know if you cried for me just as I did for you Ive been trying to get you in my dreams in my wishes, in my prayers my mom I want you to come back and treat me like a mom but I cant get what I want and its you that I want I cant get you so there is no point in remembering you April 18, 2004 South sideThe south side of heaven where you and I join our love and have a life together where our hands join together and make life a beautiful gift Have you ever heard of the south side of heaven where wonders live? where waterfalls are born every water drop that touches our skin makes our heart bloom and will make our soul colourful You and I are like a diamond that will never break the only thing that will break our love is lying and mistreating our love our love wont fade away into misty air I gave you a gift and inside the gift is my soul my love for you You respect me you dont mistreat me I gave you my heart and you valued it you were the one who scared away my fear I used to dream about having someone like you but now I dont because you are in my life you made me smile more your brown eyes so gentle your lips so smooth whenever your lips touch my cheeks I feel special You take your time. you understand me you believe in me. You trust me. I love you life without you used to be so empty and now that you are here lifes creation was born and you made my smile sparkle our love will shine for ever June 2004 A boya young boy affected with crime and violence fear of dying fear of loosing his sister his heart too small to love anybody his eyes shut because nobody has yet touched him with love when it comes to love and friendship he becomes blind he is fragile like a butterflys wing his heart is colourful but can not express it because of his dark surroundings his heart is like a glass that has shattered and he has tried to put the pieces together but has failed and now he gives up he tries not to cry because he thinks he is not a man if he cries he may not cry from the outside but his heart cries every day of his life he asks God for a life a life better than his he whispers to himself God is going to help me as he says those words his eyes start opening and a tear of blood rushes down his skinny cheek and he smiles for the first time because God is with him June 2004 IT'S UP TO MEEvery day in my life there's happiness and sadness and madness Every day in my life I ask to my self am I worth it? Is it worth it to stay mad about my self? Life is short But you cannot forget your feelings You cannot stop your feeling and emotion from flowing in my heart. Feelings are every thing in side of me Nothing can change my feelings about my self. Nothing. There's always that person who loves me and thinks they can change my feelings about me self-trying to make me feel good. A lot of times it doesn't work It makes me confused It's up to me; It's at to me to find the beauty Of my true self To discover what so attractive about my self That the people who love me find in me. 2.003 OUR MOTHEREagles surrounding her Her silky hair dark as a shadow blows with the wind Her color of her face was the color rich soil She looked so fierce and brave she had the eyes of a lion Her mouths so gentle like a butterfly Her kisses gave happiness to all the weak and sorrowful children. She's the mother of our people. 2.003 MY MOM A SHINY STARWhenever the stars shine my mom is watching me when the stars twinkles my mon is winking at me. My mom a shiny star her shine makes her lips silver her kisses turn my heart to gold whenever my mom looks at me with her diamond eyes she makes me feel like an angel. When she touches me in my dreams I become a star but a different star a shooting star a star that dances around my mom her brightness sucks me in and I become one big star with her. The star so full of love creation and loyalty there is no person that can break the love between my shiny star and me. (Saturday, February 21, 2004)  Arriba |