| chapter 4 The spring air was all around them as they sat together on a wooden bench in the middle of a beautiful garden of Daffodiles. Birds sang, and bees buzzed. Allissa was scared of bees though. Perhaps this was the unpleasant part of the park. "So, what happened?" Hayden asked. "With what?" Allissa had taken her brown hair from her poneytail and now it flowed down past her shoulders in beautiful shiny waves. "Your last boyfriend." "I've never had a boyfriend." she said. She was pretty sure he knew this. If she hadn't told him, surely he wasn't so crazy as to think that she had actually been loved before. "You mean no guy has ever asked you out before? If I would've seen you before I would have asked you to be mine a long time ago." he ran his finger up her arm softley giving Allissa a sensation she had never felt before. "Hayden, don't say things you don't mean." she said forcing herself to move her arm away from his touch. "But I do mean it. When you got angry with me in the coffee shop that day, I was more attracted to you. I just wanted to keep seeing you, and then you show up at the awards show and I knew that that was my chance. My chance to get to know you better. And now here we are sitting together on a park bench in a garden of daffodiles talking." "What about your girlfriend?" she asked. Hayden shrugged, "She left." he said simply "And it doesn't bother you?" "No, I was trying to find a way to cut it off anyway. And it's all in perfect timing. Allissa don't you see?" "What?" "Everything is happening in according to our meeting. We're destined to be together." "Hayden, how can you say that? You hardly know me. You don't know me at all. All you know about is that I got drunk the other night, that I was fired today and now we're sitting here together on a park bench." Hayden dropped his head, "But Lissa, " he said calling her by a nickname she had never heard in her life, "I want to know you. Please. Just open yourself up, and be who you are." "You don't know what you're asking Hayden. I can't do that. I have to set examples. I've always set examples since the day I was born." "Lissa, I saw you the other night. And I liked what I saw. You were funny, and entertaining and you didn't care what I said. I liked that. Please just give yourself a chance." Allissa looked out at a little boy and girl chasing each other in grass. Both were laughing and looked so happy. Then she shifted her eyes to a girl sitting next to her mother with a book in her hand, not playing like the other kids were doing. That's who she was. Reading into fantasy lives, when she could be reading into her own life and having fun. "Can you help me Hayden?" she asked, "Can you help me do what I need to do? I've had very few friends in my life. I don't know what to do." "Yes, I can help you. And you can help me. I've never known how to love someone, and you are all about loving people." It was true. She loved everyone, only she never had it returned to her. She looked up into his eyes, and put her fingers on the sleeves of his green shirt and moved closer to his lips. She stopped, "Hayden." she whispered. "It's okay." he said softley, "We don't have to go so fast." his voice was almost a whisper. Allissa continued staring into his eyes, and couldn't help but notice the feeling in her heart. It was excited. It felt like it had skipped a beat. She could almost hear it pounding. And her legs and arms and lips tingled. THis feeling was enchanting. She felt like something out of a book. Was this what love felt like? When it was returned to you, did it feel like this? "What are you feeling?" he asked softley. "I don't know." her voice was a sigh, "But I love it." Hayden's hands took hers as they stood and began to walk around the park. |