Lies

I know I can sit here and count your countless lies,
I know I can just keep thinking and close my crying eyes.
I trusted you blindly, gave up my body and soul.
You took my heart away and left this dark and empty hole.
I was so admant about never giving my heart away,
But you surprised me, asking for it to be your home, forever, for you to stay.
I finally let my guard down because I thought the game was done,
I thought we were each other's, my heart you had really won.
You had earned my complete trust, and taken my heart away
Unknown, that you would be gone so soon after the long stay.
You made up my other half, helped complete my broken heart,
I had forgotten that you still had the power to tear my life apart.
I had revealed to you the depths of life that fate had thrown me in,
I had revealed my tears and pain that made me strong enough to win.
You listened with the softest look and held me tight so long
You broad shoulders helped carry my burden and told me I was wrong.
I should trust another one again; the world was not so bad,
You would softly sing to me and make me smile when I was sad.
You made my smiles overcome; you lit up every piece of my heart,
I didn't know what the story of my life had been, until God gave you a part.
And still I fell in love, I gave myself to you...
Not knowing the one I loved so much would slowly kill me too.
The pain I felt when you were gone, no one can ever feel,
For so long I could not move or realize it was real.
I was so careful with everything this time and fate just seemed too cruel,
How was it that I tried so hard, yet once again, was the fool?
How can the soft voice have hardened, the icy tone I hear
Can do nothing else but hurt me and bring back all my fears.
You promised you'd make me happy, keep the smile on my lips alive.
Yet you leave me like the world has, just waiting for death to arrive.
You said you'd go crazy if you didn't have me with you...
But now you've left me, like everyone else...Alone.  What will I do?

May 2000