Just Like Everybody Else Does
By Pixie
Disclaimer: I don't own them, they only take over my brain for a while to get me to write. :) I make no money in writing this, so there's no point in sueing me.
Author's notes: The title of this fic comes from a song whose title and artist I *so* can't remember, but I do know that it's used as the main theme song for the television show "Charmed", and was used in the movie "The Craft". The lyrics that it comes from are:
"I am Human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does"Thought they were fitting for John. Thanks to Kelly S. for her great beta-ing! :)
I stand here in Command, passing my shift at watch by doing some thinking, like usual. I hear familiar footsteps and am taken out of my thoughts. I glance back. As I thought, Aeryn is standing in the doorway, watching me. She gives me a look, one of her usual 'what's your problem' ones, and I shrug, turning back. Having seen her, I let my mind wander to our relationship.
Is it such a bad thing to want to be loved? Is it so tough? You'd think it wasn't, that every..being had the right to be loved. Even a Human like me, lost in the Uncharted Territories. But, I seem to have a big problem with it. More specifically, I have a big problem with my love life, or lack thereof.
You see, I'm head over heels, crazy out of my mind in love with *the* most beautiful woman in the Uncharted Territories, the one standing a few feet behind me. And she's in love with me.
Now, you're thinking, what's so bad about that, right? What have you got to bitch and moan about?
Well, there's just one tiny problem...she's never actually said it. Sure, we've had some nice times together, some very intimate moments, but the words have never passed her lips. And this scares the dren out of me because when the bad times come, when she seems to turn her back on me, I don't have the absolute certainty that she does love me, that things will get good again. I start to wonder if it's just my fantasies getting carried away with me.
I hear her sigh and can't help but grin, quickly looking at her before looking at the viewscreen once again.
I let out my own quiet sigh. She's been thinking about me, I could tell by the embarassed tinge to her cheeks. Good thoughts, I hope.
As if to answer, I hear her footsteps as she approaches me, stopping right behind me. She slides her arms around my waist and I relax. She places her chin on my shoulder, leaning her head against mine.
Moments like this are what make everything worthwhile. These are the times I know she loves me.
The Aeryn I first met could be distant and unforgiving if she didn't know you. But the Aeryn I've come to know is someone who is loving, giving, and loyal. And this woman is the one who assures me that I am loved, even without words. Maybe someday she'll say them, but for now, I'll just have to wait. And wonder.